Chapter 502: We are no longer the same as we were back then
Suman saw contempt in his eyes.
"Xiao Beisheng, I..."
"At first, I wanted to see if you could recognize me if I didn't tell you my identity. The result later was obvious." Xiao Beisheng chuckled to himself, "I wanted to let you know who I am in a special way. So I've been waiting, waiting for your eighteenth birthday, to use the method you asked me to use to make you recognize me. As long as I stand in the most crowded place and play your favorite song on guitar for you, you should be able to guess who I am. If you still can't recognize me, I'll really doubt your IQ."
He said, and paused.
Between breaths, he sighed softly, "But I didn't expect that you didn't come to the party that day. Instead, you were picked up by your aunt in advance..."
"...I couldn't keep your appointment on your eighteenth birthday. You had that accident, and I thought you wouldn't survive. I stayed outside the emergency room all night. You asked me why I didn't tell you later. If you really want to know why, it might be because I blamed myself and was a coward."
Su Man argued: "But it's not your fault."
"If it were you, would you think that this is not your fault?" Xiao Beisheng asked indifferently.
Su Man was stunned.
If she were in his shoes, wouldn't she blame herself?
She will.
Suman was speechless.
Xiao Beisheng said, "You pretty much know what happened later. Is there anything else you want to ask?"
His tone was calm and composed, yet there was always a slight sense of distance in his voice.
Su Man asked, "You've been preventing Fang Zhiming and I from getting close. Is it because you knew he lied to me and you thought he was dangerous?"
"Um."
Su Man lowered her eyelids and murmured softly, "So... I have always misunderstood you."
She always thought that Xiao Beisheng and her relationship was just forced by the situation.
Their marriage was just a hypocritical show.
But if it is all false, who would be willing to risk their life for it?
Many times in the past, Xiao Beisheng had made many exceptions for her and suffered many injuries for her.
The time she was trapped in the deserted aquarium, Xiao Beisheng ignored everyone's advice and braved the fire to save her;
In Florida, Xiao Beisheng mistakenly thought that she was going out to sea on a boat. Even though there was a bullet stuck in his chest, he still braved the extreme weather to go to the sea to find her.
Just recently, on the snowy mountain, when Xiao Beisheng was preparing to catch Fang Zhiming in his trap, he exposed himself to Fang Zhiming's shooting range in order to save Su Man...
How can his sacrifices and efforts so many times be fake?
Xiao Beisheng said that to see a person's heart, you should not look at the answers he says, but at his actions.
Does this also mean,
His actions have explained everything?
Su Man's heart was still surging, but Xiao Beisheng's words were like a bucket of ice water, pouring over her from head to toe. "But none of this matters anymore. Fang Zhiming's matter is over, and ours is also completely over."
“Turn the page…?”
"Luo Yan has always been bothered by the fact that I knew you earlier than she and I. Now that we've talked it over and let it go, she'll be less bothered by me."
Su Man's heart sank little by little.
"But what if there is something very important that I haven't told you?" Su Man stared at Xiao Beisheng stubbornly with her eyes as bright as the moon.
She really had the urge to tell Xiao Beisheng immediately that Doudou was his biological son.
If he had devoted so much effort to her, wouldn't that prove that he was truly in love with her during their marriage?
Does this also prove that it was Suman who had preconceived notions and misunderstood him?
If she had not been so arbitrary at the beginning and had chosen to frame Xiao Beisheng and Luo Yan, and took the opportunity to divorce Xiao Beisheng, would everything not have come to this point today?
During the divorce, she had personally pushed Xiao Beisheng towards Luo Yan...
She asked, "At the beginning, I accidentally saw the contents of your diary. I didn't know what you wrote meant. I thought that everything written in it was about Luo Yan. I also saw that you said in the diary that in the future, if Luo Yan wanted a child, you would do everything you could to give her a child. I thought you would do anything for Luo Yan..."
Before Su Man finished speaking, Xiao Beisheng interrupted her:
"Yes, I will do anything for Luo Yan."
Su Man was stunned.
If you are ready, roll back into your stomach.
Xiao Beisheng said: "Although that sentence was written many years ago, it still speaks from the heart today."
Su Man was stunned: "Even if it was, when we were still married, did you think the same way?"
"yes."
"Even if, if, you and I had a child... would you let Luo Yan raise the child?" Su Man asked with difficulty, her lips opening and closing, trembling a little.
Xiao Beisheng paused while plucking the piano keys, frowned slightly, and after a moment, replied:
"If she wants it, I'll give it to her."
Su Man's body swayed slightly and she almost lost her balance.
But there was a smile on his face.
A bright and beautiful smile, full of sarcasm:
"That's right. I should have thought of it earlier. Your feelings for Luo Yan are so deep, and it's understandable that you do anything for her. You have been through so much together, and she was by your side during your most difficult times. She is irreplaceable in your heart. But... have you never considered my feelings?"
Xiao Beisheng closed the piano cover, slowly stood up, and walked in front of Su Man.
"So Suman, you should be thankful that we don't have children, and there aren't so many ifs between us."
His words were like a heavy hammer, hitting Su Man's heart.
The feeling of suffocation as if the throat is being tightened,
Overwhelming, rushing towards Suman.
When she looked into Xiao Beisheng's eyes, she could no longer see any emotion in his calm eyes.
"Yeah, there aren't that many ifs." Su Man sniffed her slightly sour nose and smiled. "It's fine. I came to meet you today not to change anything. Maintaining the status quo is fine. Thank you for coming to tell me this. The mystery that has been weighing on my mind for all these years finally has an answer. I can finally let go of some things."
Su Man looked at Xiao Beisheng, her eyes red. "Can I hug you? Let's put aside all the entanglements and disputes we had later. Just think of this as me saying hello and goodbye to you in my old self's name."
Count it up.
They haven't really gotten to know each other properly yet.
Su Man had imagined the scene of their meeting many times before.
But I never thought that meeting would be a farewell.
Xiao Beisheng slightly moved away and refused: "No, it would be bad if Luo Yan saw it."
Su Man nodded and accepted it calmly, "Sorry, I didn't think it through."
Xiao Beisheng added, "Su Man, we are no longer the same as we were back then. I have moved on, and you should keep moving forward too."
Su Man really wanted to curse, "Go to hell!" and move forward.
But my heart ached for no apparent reason.
Perhaps the self-protection mechanism was triggered, and Su Man began to lose focus while feeling the pain in her heart.
She even began to guess that Xiao Beisheng's relationship with Luo Yan must have eased a lot after this incident.
The two people should have reconciled.
Otherwise, Xiao Beisheng would not have been so strict with the rules and regulations in the past.
He was eager to have an affair with the woman outside and then let Luo Yan see it on purpose.
He likes to see his woman jealous.
Su Man's thoughts were wandering, and she didn't notice Xiao Beisheng's eyes fell on her face.
He asked, "What was that important thing you just said you wanted to tell me?"
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