Chapter 567 I love you, earlier than you think
"First of all, I won't marry a woman I don't love."
He spoke with a solemnity that expressed deep regret for what had happened in the past.
"I loved you earlier than you thought.
"I did have a tentative mindset when I first married you, because weren't you serious about me? Someone who had a failed engagement with Gu Ziheng turned to me. To anyone, it seemed like you, the Queen of the Sea, were looking for a tool for revenge.
"To be honest, at that time I just wanted to help you save face. I didn't want to have a deeper relationship with you, let alone think that you and I would get married. I thought I could control myself, but every time you got into trouble, I couldn't turn a blind eye. The more we got into contact, the more I couldn't withdraw. When I married you, I had already decided to let go of my feelings for Luo Yan and only fulfill my responsibilities to her.
"——At the beginning, I promised her that it was me who caused her such a miserable life, so I would take care of her for the rest of her life.
"But I didn't expect that the harm to you would be so great..."
Su Man started crying silently, and then slowly began to sob.
Xiao Beisheng's heart ached, and his kiss went from her eyes to her lips.
He kissed her until her breathing became disordered and she could no longer care about crying. Then he continued to chatter:
“You successfully planned the divorce, but I can’t accept it.
"At that time, I was so persistent in clinging to you, which was totally unlike my character. But you said that I would cling to you and refuse to let go because I was unwilling to give up and was angry about being cheated on, not because of love." He smiled bitterly, "I'm not as stupid as Gu Ziheng. I know my own feelings."
"After you left, I didn't dare go home. Every corner of the house bore the marks of our lives together. I also didn't want to let anyone in because I was worried they would destroy every trace you left behind. Funny, isn't it? Because of this, I fired the nanny and the servants and learned to do my own housework.
"During that time, I lived in a daze, unwilling to go out or see anyone. I don't know when Luo Yan secretly moved in, and she took away all your things while I was drunk and unconscious. I was so angry that I smashed everything in the house, and she scared her away. I bought all the things you had decorated the house with again. Some of them were bought from small vendors abroad, and they are hard to find again. I was very sad. I felt that you, like those things, would never come back..."
Speaking of this, Su Man remembered that this was indeed the case.
At that time, rumors were rife outside, saying that Luo Yan and Xiao Beisheng were about to get married, and that Luo Yan had already moved into Dilan Garden and they were living together.
But later, when she went to Dilan Garden again, she did not see any trace of another woman's life.
What surprised her even more was that the ornaments that she had previously broken turned out to be brand new and complete.
At one point she thought her memory was wrong, or that some supernatural event had occurred.
Unexpectedly, it was Xiao Beisheng who bought a new one.
Her tears had gradually stopped.
Just now, she thought Xiao Beisheng's words were the common words of a scumbag and that he was deceiving her. But now, she began to believe the truth in his words.
"But you and Luo Yan have been through so much. Can you just let it go? Back on the snowy mountains, she told me a lot about your experiences together. The bond between you is an insurmountable chasm that no one else can cross."
Xiao Beisheng gave another bitter smile, "You only know that she accompanied me in doing a lot of crazy things. But do you know who I did those things for?"
Su Man was stunned.
Xiao Beisheng said: "It's because of you."
Suman:???
What does it have to do with her!
"On your eighteenth birthday, after you jumped into the river from the building, Ziheng rushed to the hospital to see you. Actually, I was waiting outside the ward at that time. The doctor said that it was a miracle that you survived. I blamed myself very much. Later, I went to the floor where you jumped and looked down. It was so high, and I wondered how you had the courage to jump down. At that moment, I suddenly wanted to experience what you felt." Xiao Beisheng pulled the corner of his mouth.
"That's how I got into high-altitude extreme sports. First, it was paragliding, then skydiving, cliff diving, wingsuit flying..."
What Xiao Beisheng didn't say was that he didn't like these extreme sports.
At first it was just to experience Suman’s feelings, but later, it became a form of self-punishment.
Every time he performed these exercises, it was tantamount to mental and physical self-abuse, but he enjoyed it like a devout saint.
After hearing what he said, Su Man was completely stunned.
She didn't expect that there were so many things behind it that she didn't know.
I can’t describe how I feel inside, I just feel like there is something swollen in my heart.
Xiao Beisheng placed a kiss on her forehead. "As for my feelings for Luo Yan... I later learned some things about Luo Yan. It turns out that her so-called sacrifice was a huge lie. Naturally, my promise to her no longer counts.
"It's just that at that time, the matter I wanted to investigate was related to the Luo family. She had businesses in the Golden Triangle, which was a good breakthrough point, so I wanted to have a casual flirtation with her... Later, when you saw me being with her, it wasn't my true feelings."
Su Man was stunned, and her stupidity was somewhat adorable, making him laugh: "After all I've said, can you tell me, is Doudou our child?"
Even though he was already seventy percent sure.
But he still wanted to hear it from Suman herself.
In the room,
There was a long silence.
After a long while, Su Man did not give a direct answer. Instead, she said viciously, "If you want to take Doudou away from me, I will fight you to the death."
Xiao Beisheng looked at her deeply, and a smile spread from the bottom of his eyes, slowly spreading to the corners of his eyes, lips, and face.
At last he laughed out loud.
Su Man's words meant that she was 100% certain that Doudou was his child.
He was ecstatic, yet also a little sad. He took Su Man into his arms and hugged her tightly. As soon as he exerted force, he touched the wound on his waist.
"hiss--"
"What's wrong? Did you press on the injured area?" Su Man was nervous.
Xiao Beisheng shook his head, still happily holding her and refusing to let go.
"I'm very happy. I'm happy that you and I have a child. I'm happy that you care whether my wound hurts or not. I'm happy that you care about me."
His heart was filled to the brim with happiness and ecstasy, ready to overflow.
He stroked Su Man's eyebrows and eyes, "Doudou is very cute, just like you. He will definitely be a handsome man when he grows up."
In fact, when he went to Manyuan to see Suman before, he secretly taught Doudou to call "Dad".
At that time, it was purely out of a bad taste. I wanted to see what expression Su Man would have when she heard Doudou call him dad.
Later, this matter was forced to stop.
Because he felt that what Xiao Beisheng did would damage his reputation.
Another point is that Doudou's pronunciation is inaccurate. He pronounces "Dad" as "Beibei", which makes the person of the same generation look younger than him.
Su Man, however, was not as cheerful as him. She asked with a worried look on her face, "Xiao Beisheng, do you care about Doudou?"
"Of course I do."
"Then, for Doudou's sake, could you please stop doing these unethical businesses in the Golden Triangle? Do you want him to grow up and have a father who's a role model for him to be a criminal?"
Xiao Beisheng's inquiring gaze moved across Su Man's face several times.
Instead of answering, he asked, "Then what do you think of Mrs. Bai doing this business? Do you also think that she is doing something wrong?"
"Of course! This is an outrageous act! If possible, I will do my best to dissuade her, just like I dissuaded you."
Xiao Beisheng was silent for a moment, then asked, "If one day, Madam Bai and I were on opposite sides, what would you do? Would you hate me?"
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