Chapter 76 But where am I supposed to find you?
Qiao Xu turned around and looked at the man in black trousers and a black shirt standing by the wall.
She slowly squatted down and covered her mouth.
"Xu Si'an, you're a bastard! Why did you only come to find me now?"
"I'm afraid of ghosts, but I'm not afraid of you."
Qiao Xu couldn't help but scream loudly, her messy hair sticking to her cheeks.
My eyes were swollen from crying all afternoon.
Xu Si'an felt as if a claw was scratching at his heart, a pain that felt like it was being torn apart.
He had only seen her from afar in the afternoon, but now that she was right in front of him, he finally understood what Joy meant when she said on the phone, "It breaks my heart to see her like this."
She's lost weight again.
Her chin became even more pointed.
Xu Si'an stepped forward, squatted down in front of her, and pulled her into his arms.
"I'm sorry, baby."
"Why don't you come to see me? Why don't you come to find me? Why can't I even dream about you?"
Qiao Xu broke down emotionally, her voice hoarse from crying.
Xu Si'an apologized again and again.
He had nothing to say except to apologize.
He should have looked for her as soon as he woke up.
"sorry."
Qiao Xu pushed him away and stood up abruptly: "Who wants your apology?"
"You did nothing wrong to me. It was me. I'm the one who caused your death. I should have stayed far away from you, then you wouldn't have died."
Xu Si'an's chest ached terribly, and a familiar metallic taste filled his throat.
Qiao Xu seemed to be releasing all the emotions she had suppressed for a hundred days.
"Why can you die on your own?"
"You said you would never let me go until you died, you broke your promise."
Qiao Xu's thin and slender body swayed, and Xu Si'an forcefully pulled her into his arms.
He grabbed her hand and slapped it hard across his own face.
He held her hand and pressed it against his cheek: "Qiaoqiao, feel it, I am warm, warm, alive."
The man gently patted her back with his other hand and stroked her long hair.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you."
Qiao Xu is currently in a state of complete collapse and cannot hear what he is saying at all.
But this was the embrace she had longed for for so long, and she couldn't bear to leave.
She clutched his shirt, her sobs growing louder and louder.
Cherry, with the gift bag that had fallen to the corner of the sofa in her mouth, kept rubbing against Xu Si'an's leg.
It's Dad, Cherry's dad is back.
"Xu Si'an, can you take me with you? I'm so scared, I'm so afraid!"
Qiao Xu, who was leaning against his chest, suddenly trembled and cried uncontrollably.
She was trembling so much that even her cries were intermittent.
"I don't want to be alone anymore."
"I won't get lost anymore."
"I've seen the California sunset too. I can find you. Just wait for me where you are. Please wait for me."
Qiao Xu's body suddenly went limp and slid down, and Xu Si'an slid down to the ground while holding him.
"Honey, wife, don't scare me."
Xu Si'an knew that Qiao Xu had anxiety somatization, but he didn't know that somatization would manifest like this.
She was ice-cold, her eyes were lifeless, her face was bloodless, she was trembling, and her forehead was covered in cold sweat.
He held her like that, and he could feel her breathing was erratic and rapid, and her heart was beating fast.
Cherry, who had been hopping around the two of them, suddenly let go of the bag she was holding in her mouth and ran into the house.
Not long after, Cherry came running out, dragging that familiar black suit.
Xu Si'an was visibly stunned. Only after regaining his senses did he pick up his suit jacket and wrap it around Qiao Xu.
Surrounded by the familiar scent, Qiao Xu's body stopped trembling so violently.
He held the person tightly in his arms, took out his phone and called Chang Yi: "Call the doctor over."
Chang Yi, whose game was interrupted, was unhappy: "Brother, I don't mean to discourage you, but if my sister-in-law can't cure you, then the doctors won't help either."
"Stop talking nonsense, call the doctor and the psychologist."
"Have Amei prepare a private jet and get Ander over here, quickly."
The playful look on Chang Yi's face vanished. Only Qiao Xu could make him lose control of his emotions like this.
Qiao Xu looked up at him, her fingers restlessly reaching out to unbutton his shirt.
Xu Si'an did not stop her, and carried her into the house.
Cherry picked up the bag from the ground and followed them into the house, making sure to close the door behind her.
Qiao Xu's eyes were unfocused, and every breath and movement she made was like that of a manipulated puppet.
She pressed her cold palm against the scabbed scar on her abdomen.
The room was dark, but he could see that those beautiful eyes had lost their luster.
Tears welled up in Xu Si'an's eyes and rolled down her cheeks.
"Qiaoqiao, talk to me, hit me or scold me, okay?"
Qiao Xu reached out and wrapped her arms around his neck: "Please don't walk so fast, okay? Let it get light before you leave, or I won't turn on the lights so you won't have any light."
After saying that, she got off him and then pulled all the curtains in the room shut.
Xu Si'an felt a spasm of pain in his heart, as if something was constricting him, and he was about to suffocate.
panic!
A feeling of suffocation washed over me.
He was stabbed in the abdomen, his car exploded, he had to be stitched up, and he even knew his body was abnormal, but he was never as desperate as he is now.
A metallic sweetness welled up in my throat.
He got up, walked behind her, and pulled her into his arms.
"Wife, I'm so sorry, it's all my fault." He should have crawled to her side.
The man's intermittent sobs were exceptionally clear in the dark room.
Xu Si'an's painful growl brought him back to reality.
She turned around, tilted her head back to kiss his chin, and tears slid into the corners of her mouth.
"Ah Si, I've received everything you gave me."
"You helped me find the bracelet my dad gave me, but... but where am I supposed to find you?"
He lowered his head and kissed her eyes, his voice low and husky: "Here, right here, Qiaoqiao, I'm here."
Xu Si'an tore open his shirt and took Qiao Xu's hand, placing it on his heart, which had been torn to pieces.
"Honey, feel it for yourself."
"The heart does beat."
"Baby, hit me, hit me hard, okay?"
He grabbed her hand and pounded his chest hard.
Qiao Xu pushed him away, her head lowered: "Are you blaming me for not wanting you four years ago? Haven't you blamed me enough?"
Xu Si'an suddenly reached out, grabbed her waist tightly, and kissed her lips. The rapid kiss seemed to devour her whole, giving her no chance to breathe.
Qiao Xu slowly closed her eyes, reached out and hugged his waist, responding to his passionate kiss.
Her response was a salvation and a comfort to the man!
Gradually, he almost lost control, desperately wanting to tear her apart and devour her whole.
The long-awaited passionate kiss caused the two to gradually lose themselves and their reason.
But Xu Si'an only kissed her fiercely, nothing more.
Until the knocking sounded, Qiao Xu instinctively hugged him, a conditioned reflex of fear.
He gently kissed her lips, then lifted her up and held her close: "Don't be afraid, it's a doctor."
Qiao Xu wrapped her arms around his neck and strong waist: "I don't want you to leave."
"Oh no, I cried again. I hope all the babies who are overwhelmed by the somatization of anxiety won't be afraid. It's just passing by, and one day we'll be able to live peacefully with it!"
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