An unexpected fall completely destroyed the defense line I carefully built!
We hugged each other and lay quietly on the bed, neither of us wanting to be the first to break the silence. I know in my heart that although passion can ignite each other's emotions for a short time, it is powerless to rewrite the predetermined fate; silence cannot change the status quo either, but we choose to indulge in it.
Finally, unable to suppress my inner confusion, I took the lead and said, "The past is all settled, why do you insist on seeing each other again?"
She avoided my question, her eyes wandering, and she said thoughtfully: "When we have desires in our hearts, life is like carrying a huge burden, heavy and unbearable; but when we let go of our obsessions, perhaps we can live more freely and easily."
I smiled bitterly, with a hint of helplessness in my words: "People are always good at finding excuses for their indulgence, but even so, what can be changed? After all, we can't break free from the shackles of reality."
"Who says we have to change anything?" She turned her head and stared at me with a hint of stubbornness in her eyes. "Sometimes, existence itself is a kind of meaning."
I didn't want to dwell on these unanswered questions anymore, so I changed the question: "How did you know I was coming to the provincial capital?"
"Aunt Song told me secretly at the banquet." Her voice was very soft, with a barely perceptible smile.
I shook my head helplessly and said half-jokingly, "Aunt Song is so thoughtful that she even remembered to tip you off on this kind of news."
She sighed slightly, her expression becoming a little gloomy: "Maybe it's because we are in the same boat. Of course, she has also experienced such struggles and pain, so she can understand my feelings better."
Seeing that I remained silent, she asked me in a weak voice, "Do you have a girlfriend?"
I sighed heavily, feeling mixed emotions, but still didn't respond.
Her voice became even weaker, with a hint of barely perceptible loneliness: "I have a boyfriend, and we are already at the stage of discussing marriage.
I was not surprised, and just responded calmly: "Since we already have a destination, we should not do anything that violates ethics and morality."
She looked at me with burning eyes, and said with surging emotions: "Life is short and the youth is fleeting. I don't want to watch my youth slowly wither away in the days without love."
I said, "So, aren't we all too selfish?"
She said unwillingly: "Are we selfish? Since we can't change anything, can't we change ourselves and please ourselves?"
I avoided her burning gaze, hesitated for a moment and asked, "Is he good to you?
"It doesn't matter whether it's good or bad. This relationship is not based on feelings, so why bother with it?" Her voice was filled with deep helplessness.
I said, "Betrayal is never right."
She said, “Is it right to betray yourself?”
Her question left me speechless for a moment, and I didn't know how to refute it.
She said, "His name is Feng Lei, the deputy director of the Second Supervision Office of the Provincial Commission for Discipline Inspection. He is a rising political star in Old Shen's eyes and the son-in-law that Old Shen wants. How is he? Not bad, right?"
I couldn't help but smile: "Since it was Lao Shen who looked at it, it should be about the same."
Unexpectedly, Chen Mengzhao's eyebrows instantly turned upside down, and he gnashed his teeth and cursed: "Humph! What political rising star? He is just Belikov in Chekhov's works, a man who wraps himself tightly in a cocoon! Being with him is so depressing that it makes people breathless!"
I looked at Chen Mengzhao's face, the blush still not faded after the passion, her eyes were full of helplessness and confusion. I couldn't help but kiss her gently on the face. .
She lazily put her arms around my neck and said, "Guan Hongjun, I am now Xu Shu in The Three Kingdoms. I am in Cao's camp but my heart is with Han. What do you think I should do?"
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