When I carefully handed Xixi into Qingwan's arms, her eyes instantly burst into the brilliant light of maternal love, as if she had poured all her love into this little girl's life without reservation.
We gathered around the crib, looking closely at Xixi's face which was gradually becoming fuller with an innocent smile, our hearts filled with sympathy and love. We simply couldn't let go.
I whispered, "Look at our Xixi. She will definitely be a stunning beauty when she grows up. People say that daughters take after their fathers. It seems that I am pretty good looking too."
Qing Wan heard this and smiled with a hint of ridicule, and said with a slight curl of her lips: "Stop being so conceited and take a good look at yourself in the mirror."
There was a gleam of curiosity in Xixi's clear big eyes, as if she was listening to our conversation attentively. At this moment, she grinned.
Qingwan was as excited as a child, and kept saying, "Baby, you understand what I said. Xixi is praising my evaluation of you!"
As long as she was happy, I was naturally happy too. So, I followed her lead and joked, "It seems that even Xixi knows that mom is a beautiful flower, and dad is a smelly... uh, no, a green grass that is silently guarded."
Just at this time, Sister Pang came in with a warm bottle of milk, ready to feed Xixi. She overheard our conversation and said frankly, "Xixi's father is a good man picked out of a thousand. He is so good to his wife, and he looks energetic and handsome. Which woman would not like him?"
These words seemed to touch a sensitive string in Qingwan's heart. Although she didn't say anything on the spot, after returning to the bedroom, the expression on her face instantly changed from sunny to cloudy and became gloomy and scary.
I asked gently, "What's wrong, my baby? Who made you unhappy again?"
She pouted slightly and shook her head, looking both aggrieved and lovable.
I consoled her, "Sister Pang was just saying that casually. Why did you take it to heart?"
Qing Wan sighed, a trace of worry flashed across her eyes: "How can I not take it seriously? You are surrounded by those wolf-like women all day long, and they are eyeing you covetously, wishing to pull me, the 'first wife', away from them immediately. I'm not dead yet, but they are already ready to make a move on you. If I'm really gone one day, won't you immediately become a couple with someone else?"
As she spoke, her eyes gradually turned red, and tears welled up in them, just like the fragile and sentimental Lin Daiyu, whose tears came and went, catching people off guard.
I sighed inwardly. She has now become a typical idle woman who has free time, talks nonsense, and gets angry. But even so, I have to try my best to make her happy. I said, "I am handsome, elegant, graceful, and talented. I am simply a man who is loved by everyone and flowers bloom wherever I go. This is innate, and I can't change it. Don't be like this, Qingwan."
She raised her eyebrows curiously and asked, "How?"
I answered seriously, "First, dig out my eyeballs, so that my eyes will be colorless and my heart will be as still as water. Then remove my 'power', so that even if my heart is still there, it will be nothing more than a stagnant pool of water, and it will never stir up any big waves. What do you think?"
Before she finished her words, she was already laughing so hard that she fell backwards on the bed. Suddenly, her face changed color and she looked extremely painful. I hurriedly asked, "What's wrong? Where do you feel uncomfortable?"
She complained bitterly, "It's all your fault. You teased me for no reason and now you're hurting me."
I hurriedly lifted the clothes on her abdomen and carefully examined the scar left by the cesarean section. Fortunately, it was not serious. I moved closer to her and gently kissed the scar.
Qingwan's mood instantly calmed down. She stroked my hair tenderly and murmured to herself, "Don't blame me for being willful. I'm really afraid that you will get tired of me and leave me in the end."
I was as obedient as a cat with its fur stroked, kissing her belly randomly.
Suddenly, she stopped moving, sniffed my hair, and then yelled, "Guan Hongjun, how many days have you not washed your hair? It smells so bad, get out of here!"
The once gentle and graceful girl seemed to have gone away, replaced by a girl who was sometimes shrewd and sometimes willful. My mood also went up and down like a roller coaster, completely subject to her mood changes.
Lin Xun gave me an idea: "When her treatment is over, if the reexamination results show that her condition has improved, you can take her on a trip. Maybe a change of environment and a break will help her feel better."
I thought about it carefully and thought this might be a good idea.
Time passed quickly and it was the New Year of 2006. I took Qingwan to the Affiliated Hospital of the Provincial Medical University for a follow-up examination.
The wait is always long and agonizing, but when Yang Ruining told me, "Her indicators are relatively stable. It seems that the medicine has taken effect. She should continue to take it." I almost jumped up with joy.
However, Dr. Yang's words quickly pulled me back to reality: "However, the risk of sudden deterioration of this disease is still quite high, so you should be mentally prepared."
This sentence was like a basin of cold water, extinguishing the fire of hope that had just ignited in me. But I knew that I could not be swayed by my emotions. I had to be strong for Qingwan and for our family.
Before the Spring Festival, Liu Yun specially led the contractor to accompany Qingwan and me to inspect the renovated new house.
This house is not only decorated extremely luxuriously, but also fully equipped with all kinds of home appliances and furniture, and even the details such as bedding and curtains are well prepared.
Qingwan said gratefully, "Sister Yun, we really don't know how to express our gratitude. Hongjun and I were just lazy shopkeepers. Thank you for your hard work."
Liu Yun smiled nonchalantly and said, "Just grab your bags and move in, you two should enjoy it."
Qingwan and I smiled at each other, and our faces involuntarily blushed.
Liu Yun continued, "All the decoration materials are environmentally friendly products. I also had someone measure the indoor air. The formaldehyde and benzene content are in full compliance with the standards. You can live here without worry. It's more spacious to celebrate the New Year here."
Qingwan and I thanked them repeatedly, and after seeing them off, we lay down on the spacious big bed in the bedroom without any prior arrangement.
We stood side by side, looking up at the snow-white ceiling, and Qingwan said softly, "This bed is so comfortable."
As she spoke, she gently leaned back and forth on the bed a few times, feeling the softness and comfort of the mattress.
I joked, "It's so elastic, it's perfect for sex."
As soon as I finished speaking, I realized that I had spoken out of turn.
Qingwan leaned over me, her eyes full of teasing and desire. My heart was like a long-drought field that finally received a rain. An irresistible impulse surged up, and I rushed towards her...
Once the long-suppressed desire is awakened, it will run wild like a wild horse.
We clung to each other tightly and passionately until we were both exhausted and then we slowly stopped.