I didn't know whether I was moved by the lines or by the voice of her speaking them, I couldn't help but hold her in my arms.
She buried her head in my chest and put her arms around my waist.
Just like this, we hugged each other, and no one wanted to break this peace.
I don’t know how long it was before she slowly raised her head and looked into my eyes.
Naturally, I lowered my head and kissed her lips gently.
It's hard to describe what it feels like to kiss a girl for the first time.
There is definitely a sense of novelty, there is definitely a feeling of palpitations, and perhaps a little impulse, but more importantly, there is a feeling that she is everything in the universe, she is the sea of stars, and I will lose myself, and we will become one.
Many years later, I can't remember how many women I have kissed, but this feeling of ecstasy has never appeared again.
After that night, although she and I did not make our relationship clear, we had already tacitly regarded each other as the object of passionate love.
That strange state where you miss each other when you can't see each other, and quarrel with each other when you see each other.
We eat together, attend classes together, and study in the library together every day.
I served her meals and washed the dishes, and she washed my clothes and socks.
This close relationship certainly did not escape the eyes of my classmates, and I soon became their public enemy of envy and jealousy.
Before the end of our junior year, we went to Tianjin No. 1 Machine Tool Factory for an internship. On the way back, she went to Beidaihe for a few days.
She and I got off the bus at Shanhaiguan, went to the "First Pass of Xiaxia" to play for a whole afternoon, and then took the bus to Beidaihe.
When we arrived in Beidaihe, it started to rain.
She and I held an umbrella and went to the beach. There was a howling wind and huge waves.
A strong gust of wind blew and our umbrella was immediately shattered. Soon she and I were soaked from head to toe.
I was afraid that she would be cold, so I held her in my arms. She snuggled up to my chest like a well-behaved little bird.
Suddenly she broke away from my arms, opened her arms toward the sky and the sea, and shouted, "Let the storm come harder!"
I was deeply moved by her and imitated her, shouting: "Heavy rain falls on Youyan, white waves surge, and Qinhuangdao is fishing. The vast ocean is gone, who knows where to go?
The past is more than a thousand years old, Wei Wu waved his whip, and left a poem on the east side of Jieshi. The autumn wind is blowing again, and the world has changed. "
As soon as I stopped shouting, she suddenly turned around, stretched out her hands, and rushed towards me like an eagle catching a chick, shouting, "Let you learn from me!"
I turned and ran, and she chased after me.
In this time and space with only a line of water and heavy rain, the two of us chased each other, played and fought on the beach.
That night, we found a cheap but clean hotel. We had a disagreement about how many rooms to open.
What I mean is that it's not very convenient for a single man and a single woman to live in the same room.
She insisted that squeezing into one room would save money and that she was a little scared to live alone.
Finally, the boss couldn't stand it anymore and interrupted, "Isn't it normal for young couples to live in the same room? It's been several years since the Southern Tour Speech, and the pace of opening up should be faster."
Both she and I were amused by the boss, so we followed his instructions and only booked one room.
When we two "newbies" entered the room, we were dumbfounded. There was only one big bed in the room.
Things have come to this point, so we can only make the best of it. We comforted each other, but there was an ambiguity in our hearts.
Her big, expressive eyes clearly revealed a shy expression.
She went to take a shower first. The purring sounds coming from the bathroom seemed to flow through my ears and into my heart, hot and wet, making my mouth dry.
After a while, the sound of the shower stopped and I could hear the rustling sound of her getting dressed.
She came out of the bathroom wearing a light pink nightgown, the color of which further highlighted the fairness of her skin.
"It's your turn." She said timidly.
I didn't dare look at her but couldn't help wanting to look at her. In order to hide my panic, I pretended nothing had happened and walked into the bathroom.
I took off my soaking wet clothes and turned the mixer to cold water, trying to use the cold water to extinguish the heat rising from my pubic area.
But things went against one's wishes. The more one tried to put out the fire, the more it burned.
I started using mind control to divert my attention, thinking about a lot of unhappy things, and finally tamed my steel-like lower body.
Otherwise I would be too embarrassed to leave the bathroom.
After drying myself, I realized I had no change of clothes. It turned out that my suit was soaking wet, and I didn't bring any clean clothes.
I had no choice but to wrap my lower body with a bath towel and walked out of the bathroom shirtless.
She was already lying on the bed, changing the TV channel with the remote control.
I walked to the bed, lifted the quilt and crawled into the bed. She turned a deaf ear to all my actions and paid no attention to them.
It was as if I didn't even exist in the room.
But her condition couldn't fool me. Her face turned red, her breathing became rapid, and the hand holding the remote control was shaking.
I could no longer restrain myself. My noble soul could no longer control my despicable body, and I pounced on her like a hungry tiger.
At first, she put up some futile resistance, but was soon tamed into a docile sheep by my suffocating kisses.
Thinking back to the experience of that night, my face still burns and my heart beats fast. After all, it was my first time, my technique was clumsy, my movements were deformed, and I could never grasp the final step.
She was so embarrassed that she was in a panic and refused to cooperate.
To be honest, I can no longer recall the whole process. Perhaps the blood in my head was drained by organs in other parts of my body, resulting in temporary amnesia.
Or maybe the process itself is very short and ends before you press the record button.
I just remember that for a split second, the surging kinetic energy in my body disappeared.
Then there was a brief silence, as if time had stood still. Both she and I had no idea what had happened.
Then, like a lion exhausted from chasing its prey, I rolled over exhaustedly and lay on the bed with my back slung, staring at the ceiling, my mind blank.
She quietly put on her clothes and ran into the bath, shouting, "It's so filthy!"
Hearing her shout, a silly smile appeared on my lips.
Tang Xiaomei was very interested in my experience and kept asking me how many times I had sex with her.
I said that I was like a greedy child at that time. Once I found sugar sweet, I couldn't stop eating it.
Tang Xiaomei said that what I said was inappropriate. It should be said that a cat that steals fish will not stop stealing fish when it knows that fish smells good.
In fact, it was not as bad as she said. Zhou Xintong and I had sex only a few times because we were always worried about getting pregnant. After all, there were limited channels to get condoms in that era.
In fact, I pestered Zhou Xintong to do it several times that night. After all, I am a very stubborn person. If I end it hastily, it will definitely leave a long-lasting psychological shadow on myself.
Tang Xiaomei asked me if it was Zhou Xintong's first time?
I said I had no experience at the time and didn't know if it was her first time. When we got up and prepared to leave the room the first time, both she and I were panicked. The clean white sheets were stained with several spreading bloodstains, like plum blossoms about to bloom.
Fortunately, the boss was busy that morning and checked us out without checking the room. He also gave me a meaningful look, as if asking me, "Young man, are you still useful?"
Maybe the boss deliberately didn't check on us because he knew that the two of us must have done something shameful and it would be embarrassing for both of us if he checked on us in front of us.
The destiny of mankind often advances in a curve and develops in a spiral. While you are still basking in the warm sunshine, dark clouds have begun to gather quietly, and a violent storm is about to come.
After the start of my senior year, I could clearly feel Zhou Xintong's anxiety.