Chapter 118 Extra 2: Gap
"Why haven't you woken up yet?"
In the dim sunlight through the swaying curtains, a faint question was heard.
"this……"
"Didn't they say that he would wake up two hours after gastric lavage? Didn't they say that if he swallowed very little, there would be no harm?!"
A deliberately lowered voice, rising, anxious anger, and a barely perceptible trace of fear caused by helplessness.
"Mr. Chen, Mr. Chen, please calm down for a moment... Mr. Chen, listen to me, the dose the patient took is indeed very small, and it is not common that he has not woken up yet... but all of his physiological symptoms are very stable, maybe we can observe him for a while..."
I don’t know what it was, maybe the IV stand was knocked over by someone.
"Youhan!" a male voice interrupted, "He's sleeping, he's sleeping, calm down - trust the doctor, Ye Kai is really fine!"
"Calm down—calm down!" Bang! In the quiet VIP ward, the heavy medicine cabinet was kicked and moved. The medical staff were startled. They watched their big boss walk anxiously in the corridor for a few steps, then lowered his head against the wall, with his five fingers deeply inserted into his hair.
No one dared to speak.
After a while, Chen Youhan returned to the door of the ward. His tie, which was tied neatly for a business reception, was loosened at some point. He said tiredly to the dean, the attending physician, and the medical staff, "I'm sorry, I was too excited."
Gu Xiu immediately came out to smooth things over, constantly saying to the medical staff, "Thank you for your hard work," and "Thank you all for your hard work." At this moment, a nurse said in surprise, "Hey—he's awake! The patient is awake!"
Before he finished speaking, the medical team rushed in like a gust of wind, but Chen Youhan was faster than them. In the blink of an eye, he had already sat on the edge of the bed. Ye Kai's hand was pale and slightly cold, and Chen Youhan held it tightly in his hand and pressed it against his lips: "Baby."
The voice was choked up.
The doctor winked at Gu Xiuhe, who gently supported Chen Youhan's shoulders and said, "Let the doctor check Xiaokai first, okay?"
Ye Kai's voice was weak, but his breath was steady. He smiled at Chen Youhan with the corners of his lips curved, "Brother Youhan."
After another round of intensive care, the doctor examined the patient, asked questions, and the nurses handled the instruments. After careful examination, the attending physician finally said, "The patient's vital signs are normal. He can be discharged after another hour of observation."
With Chen Youhan's nod, everyone felt relieved. Gu Xiu also smiled and said, "Can I go too?" All the group executives attended the business reception, and Chen Feiyi, who had not been out for a long time, also came in person. But Chen Youhan left the scene restlessly after only accompanying him halfway through the tour. Gu Xiu received a call from him twenty minutes later. He had never heard Chen Youhan speak in that tone before - it was a tone of despair to the bone, with trembling and coldness coming out of the bones: "Call the hospital to clear the emergency passage and ward. Ye Kai took sleeping pills."
During the years when he was not Chen Youhan's assistant, Chen Youhan had never used him privately. How anxious was he that he lost all his ability to think and could only subconsciously call the person he trusted the most.
Gu Xiu patted Chen Youhan on the shoulder, winked at Ye Kai and said, "Little friend, remember to take the medicine according to the dosage next time."
He left, and Ye Kai whispered, "I only ate one piece..."
Chen Youhan was shocked and angry. Even after everything calmed down, she still couldn't control her fear: "Why are you crazy? Can you take sleeping pills randomly? Do you know that you won't wake up no matter how I call you?!"
Ye Kai trembled after being yelled at, "You are still mean to me... I am already a patient and you still yell at me..."
All the anger and fear in his heart were silenced by his flattery. Chen Youhan clenched his hand tightly and said, "Don't do it again."
Ye Kai said cautiously, "I didn't mean it."
Chen Youhan lowered his head and took a deep breath: "Do you know how I felt when I saw you sleeping on the sofa with sleeping pills on the side?" As he finally calmed down, his eyes began to feel sore: "Xiao Kai, if I'm not okay, my life is not okay, anything is not okay, don't be silent, tell me, tell Ye Jin, tell anyone, don't--" He couldn't continue, he let out a long sigh, and smiled for some unknown reason: "I can't stand it a second time"
"I just want to fall asleep." Ye Kai looked at Chen Youhan and reached out to touch his face.
Chen Youhan held his hand and kissed his palm, his tone subtly cold: "Do you want to see the 18-year-old Chen Youhan again?"
Jealous. "The eighteen-year-old."
Ye Kai looked at him steadily. For some reason, tears started flowing down in the blink of an eye. He suddenly hugged Chen Youhan.
Chen Youhan was stunned by his attack, but soon hugged him tightly. She heard Ye Kai say in her ear with difficulty: "Brother Youhan, how could I let an 18-year-old like you get hurt?"
·
Because I know I will be able to see him when I fall asleep, I have extra expectations for sleep every day.
Sometimes I dreamed of myself sitting on the back of his motorcycle, with my arms around his waist, anxiously waiting for him to speed up and dive down the hill.
I dreamed that I was explaining the questions to him. His foundation was so poor that no matter how I explained, he would forget the latter part after learning the former part. He had to look up the formula book to solve the questions. If he made a mistake in one step, Ye Kai would hit him on the head with the end of the pen. Finally, he got angry and said, "Fuck off and don't write anymore!" Ye Kai shouted back, "Are you proud of getting 28 in the exam?" In the end, he still copied and memorized step by step.
As soon as they started arguing, Zeus from downstairs heard the news and came over. He stood outside the door, excitedly tilting his head to listen to the noise and joining in the roars. The whole Chen family was in chaos.
I dreamed that after school, they took a taxi to the foot of the mountain on Siyuan Road. Chen Youhan held his hand openly, and they walked slowly up the mountain road. Hibiscus flowers were blooming, bougainvillea was blooming, and poinciana trees were blooming. The soapberries of the honey locust trees were hanging down long. Ye Kai said he wanted some, so Chen Youhan jumped up and helped him pick one. The honey locust was thick and hard, and looked like beans from a distance, but when you looked closer, you realized that it was big enough to be a weapon.
Sometimes he would act like a spoiled brat and say he couldn't walk anymore. Chen Youhan could do nothing but squat down and carry him on his back. Ye Kai would hug his neck and blow into his ear. His arms loosened from laughter, and he jumped down and ran away, but he couldn't outrun Chen Youhan, so he was caught up with him, panting, and held in his arms to punish him.
Although he was no longer on the school team, Chen Youhan still often played basketball on the small court in the back mountain. Sometimes he would drive Ye Kai to the beach to play streetball on the court. Ye Kai was guarding him, and he dribbled through, hugged someone and threw a layup - the ball hit the backboard and went in, and he was also stunned by the kiss.
However, this secret magic gradually became ineffective, and Ye Kai gradually stopped dreaming about him every day.
Chen Youhan sometimes asked about their future togetherness and the wedding. Ye Kai described it to him detail by detail, and then he walked forward with his head down, leaving the basketball and Ye Kai behind. There were few people on the small court by the sea. On the long, endless coastline, Chen Youhan was alone, his T-shirt blown up by the wind.
As the last typhoon passed through the country in late summer and into autumn, Chen Youhan asked, "Do you still remember the kid next door who has the same name as you?"
Ye Kai nodded.
Chen Youhan smiled and said, "Didn't I say he has been in Vancouver for the past few months? He will be back tomorrow. Do you want to meet him?"
Ye Kai stared at him blankly. The curve of Chen Youhan's lips widened, looking very youthful. "I told you, Xiao Kai is very, very cute."
Ye Kai said nothing, just looked at him.
He had anticipated this day, and now he knew that it was time to say goodbye.
Chen Youhan folded the draft paper into a paper airplane in his hand: "What should I do? You have the same name as him, how can I call him baby in the future?"
The paper plane flew out of his hand, floated out through the window of the study on the second floor, and landed in the courtyard. Chen Youhan said, "Will you come with me to pick me up at the airport tomorrow?"
Ye Kai forgot to nod.
Seeing that he didn't respond, Chen Youhan lowered his eyes to look at him and laughed: "What's that look?"
Ye Kai blinked hard, said "hmm" softly, and still looked at him.
Chen Youhan's heartbeat gradually lost control as he watched, and reached its peak the moment Ye Kai suddenly rushed over and hugged him. If he measured his heart rate at this time, the doctor would give him a notice of palpitations. He half raised his hands, not knowing whether to laugh or cry, and finally hugged Ye Kai: "What's wrong?"
Ye Kai half opened his mouth, but finally just closed his eyes and said with a sigh: "Can you do a little better in the midterm exam?"
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At Xianliu International Airport, the huge bulletin board was refreshing the take-off and landing information from all over the world every second. On the bench at the arrival gate, his left hand held Chen Youhan's right hand, and they were both in Chen Youhan's pocket. Chen Youhan's hands were big, with thin calluses on the palms. When he held them, she felt warm and safe. People came and went, and no one noticed their tightly held hands.
"Is it really that cute?" Ye Kai asked.
"Super cute." Chen Youhan answered and tilted his head to look at him: "Were you also cute when you were a child?"
"Just as cute."
Chen Youhan sighed, "Great! You are so confident."
"Why do you like this kid so much?"
"I wanted a brother or sister when I was a kid, but there were so many little brats in my relatives' family, and they were noisy and annoying." Chen Youhan tried hard to find an excuse, and finally said, "I treat him as my own brother. It seems a bit shameless to call him my older brother when he is sixteen years older than me." He laughed and found it funny.
"Not much older, just the right age to protect him." Ye Kai said seriously.
He always looked at him so seriously.
Chen Youhan nodded, "That's really comforting." He raised his hand and gently pinched the tip of his upturned nose affectionately, "You're right. Only in this way can we protect him."
Ye Kai deliberately said: "I'm jealous."
Chen Youhan pinched his palm: "What? Didn't I protect you well later?"
Ye Kai thought about it and said in three words: "Very good."
Flight updated, China Southern Airlines flight CZ3015 from Vancouver has arrived.
Suddenly, his palm felt empty. It was Ye Kai who pulled his hand back. He said, "Brother Youhan, I'm going to the bathroom."
He stood up, took two steps, then his steps gradually slowed down and finally stopped.
When I looked back, I didn't know when Chen Youhan also stood up.
An irresistible impulse drove him, "Ye Kai," Chen Youhan called out, "If - I mean if, if you met the 18-year-old me first," his young Adam's apple rolled, "Will you still choose me?"
Ye Kai did not answer immediately.
Chen Youhan quickly lowered his eyes, and when he raised them again he smiled casually: "I just asked casually, you don't have to answer."
He knew that the 18-year-old Chen Youhan was chosen because of the Chen Youhan after 32. If there was no story after 32, there would be no story for him. He understood that he was firmly chosen because of the 32-year-old Chen Youhan.
Actually, apart from being envious, there is nothing wrong with it. He took advantage.
His heart suddenly twitched violently, and a dull pain rushed out from the bottom of his heart, rushing to every part of his body, and even paralyzed Ye Kai so much that he could not move. He rushed over with a throbbing tremor, and hugged him desperately: "Brother Youhan, you are good at the age of 18 and you are in your thirties, both are good - equally good. How could I not like you and not choose you? I will fall in love at first sight on the first day of school. When playing basketball, I will bring you water, run faster than any other girl, and cheer for you louder than them. I like Chen Youhan. I have known each other for five years, so I have liked you since I was five years old. I have known each other for eighteen years, so I have liked you since I was eighteen. I met each other in my thirties, so I have liked you in my thirties. There is no order, no first come first served, they are all you, and you are destined to be my partner."
Chen Youhan was stunned by his sudden and long confession, then smiled, relaxed her body, and gently stroked his short hair: "I just went to the bathroom, why are you so pretentious?"
Ye Kai also laughed, a very gentle laugh, so faint that it was hard to grasp. He said, "You asked first."
Before letting go of his arms, he kissed Chen Youhan on the ear.
After taking two steps, Chen Youhan called him in a light voice and said behind him: "Remember to come back soon."
Ye Kai opened his eyes tightly and dared not blink, then looked back at him and nodded: "Well, I'll be back soon."
real.
The restroom was thirty meters away, with a fast conveyor belt, and the sound of the suitcases rolling and the roar of the plane taking off intertwined into a huge noise in the early autumn afternoon. He stopped, and through the shuttle flow of people, through many voices, through the busy bulletin board that seemed to never stop refreshing, he took a last look at Chen Youhan.
Chen Youhan looked up and saw CZ3015 displaying the luggage retrieval information.
He stood in the crowd, so tall, like a crane. When he grew up, he no longer wore T-shirts, played basketball, and was no longer scolded for his test scores. He could handle everything with ease.
Ye Kai turned around and walked into the long, endless corner.
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The exit became busy, with countless people pouring out. Qu Jia was pushing two huge suitcases, one of which had a child sitting with legs apart, one of his short hands holding the handle and the other tightly hugging a teddy bear doll.
The child's eyes lit up: "Brother Youhan!"
At the age of two, he could call out these four words in a baby voice.
Qu Jia was startled and looked over: "Why are you here?" He then looked behind him: "Are you alone?"
What he wanted to say was forgotten in an instant. Chen Youhan was stunned for a second. In that second, he felt an indescribable sense of loss. He seemed to be standing in a fog, lost for a long, long time. He came back to his senses and smiled: "It's just me."
Qu Jia patted him on the shoulder and pushed the suitcase to him naturally: "I heard from Director Zhang that you have been submitting your homework on time recently? How come you have changed after not seeing you for a while?"
Chen Youhan took the suitcase and replied cynically: "Teacher Qu, please don't have too many fantasies about me."
Qu Jia rolled his eyes at him and said, "I heard that your city's youth training MVP was also cancelled because of the fight?"
Chen Youhan laughed and said, "Please don't gloat over other people's misfortunes, okay?"
A coquettish voice came from below, and the man imitated indistinctly: "Can you please stop gloating over other people's misfortune?" While speaking, he lowered his head and concentrated on playing with his teddy bear.
Chen Youhan lowered her eyes to look at him, her heart filled with tenderness, and she flicked her finger gently on his little head: "You are a smart kid in elementary school."
The child raised his head, smiled at him with curved eyelashes, and opened his arms: "Hug me."
Qu Jia couldn't stand it anymore, so he took the suitcase again, watched Chen Youhan lean over and hold the child in his arms, and said jokingly: "Take him away quickly, I don't want this ungrateful little bastard anymore."
Winter has arrived in Vancouver, and the red cashmere scarf almost covers his little face. Chen Youhan pulled the scarf down and deliberately teased him: "Hey, who is this? Why are you so fat?"
The child shouted angrily, "How could you forget so quickly! My name is Ye Kai, and I mean happy Kai!"
Chen Youhan held him in his arms and weighed him: "I dare not forget."
Ye Kai was wearing too many clothes, and he was really wrapped up like a ball. He turned around in Chen Youhan's arms with difficulty. His two short arms could not wrap around Chen Youhan's neck, so he could only wrap half of it. He put his face close to her and kissed her ear with his soft lips.
"I'll be back soon."
What scene flashed through his mind? Who had kissed him like this before? Chen Youhan was stunned and stopped.
Qu Jia asked, "What's wrong?"
Chen Youhan hugged Ye Kai and looked back.
He thought he might find something.
But the world was as busy as ever, and the pace was hurried. He could only see a thousand blurry faces, none of which was what he wanted.
He came back to his senses and raised his feet: "Nothing."
The midterm exam came as scheduled. He was in the last exam room. When the test paper came in his hand, he had an inexplicable thought in his mind, "Can I make a little improvement?" When he wrote down his answer, he was very serious. When the scores were announced, the physics teacher read out the names on the podium. When he read "Chen Youhan", he looked up at him. When Chen Youhan saw the score, he knew that he had 40 points. He slept in class every day. The teacher might be thinking, "Great! His luck is getting better and better."
After the evening self-study class, he went home with Du Tang, feeling inexplicably proud. Du Tang glanced at him and said sarcastically, "Congratulations, you're only 20 points away from passing."
This cold water was not thrown accurately, Chen Youhan said seriously: "It's different. All the scores before were guessed, but this time I calculated them one by one."
So, theoretically speaking, he didn't improve by 12 points, but by 40 points.
Du Tang applauded him and said, "Great! The happiness of a poor student lies in simplicity."
Chen Youhan laughed and said, "Hey, don't think that I won't be willing to beat you up just because I like you."
I just like her, there is nothing I can't say. He has always been very open, and Du Tang is also very open, never troubled by this. But when he said the three words "I like you", something else flashed through his mind. He couldn't grasp it, couldn't remember it, had no reason, and had no clue. It seemed that he liked someone else.
But in his eighteen years of life, there was no one else worthy of his love.
There were many moments of loss.
Accompanied by uncontrollable pain, it was suddenly pulled out from the depths of my heart.
When at the beach, with a long coastline and a view that stretches as far as the eye can see, he always hopes that someone is waiting for him ahead.
While playing night ball at the small court in the back hill, he was sweaty, breathless, and his heart was beating wildly. He lowered his head, supported his knees with his hands, watched the sweat dripping to the ground, and counted silently for ten seconds. When he raised his head, he felt that someone was spinning a basketball on his fingertips and smiling at him provocatively.
When he was happy, a name would come to his lips immediately, but it would disappear without a trace the moment it came out of his mouth. So there was no one to share the happy moment with, and he suddenly became a fool who was happy alone.
After graduating from high school, he traveled to the United States alone. The girl in uniform stopped him and said, "Sir, is there anything you want to say to someone at the China Southern Airlines anniversary event? Maybe to your future self, or to someone you don't dare to face now."
He stopped for some unknown reason and looked at his watch. There was still plenty of time.
The girl was very happy, with a shy look on her face: "We will give you an hourglass. Look, there is a scale here, and here is the pick. Write a letter and bury it in the hourglass. When the time is up and the hourglass runs out, the pick will slide down due to the weight, and the letter will fall out."
The fine white sand slid down very slowly at a constant speed as she demonstrated.
Chen Youhan said: "Sorry, I don't have anyone..."
The little girl stared at him with wide eyes, and when she saw him smile, she changed her words and said, "Okay."
The back of the person writing in front of the counter reveals his seriousness.
When she was done, the paper was rolled into a small roll and tied with a red ribbon, and the girl said, "Do you want to put it in yourself, or should I help you?"
Chen Youhan didn't care: "Come on."
After thinking for a while, he took something off his neck and said, "Can this be put in together?"
"Yes, yes, of course," the little girl said as she put it away. "You know, when you look at the ground from a plane, it looks like a toy building block. In a dimension that is high enough and long enough, many things seem dispensable. Our current problems and worries will all have answers in a long time."
Chen Youhan gave a polite “hmm” and asked, “How many years?”
The little girl stuck out her tongue: "Twenty years."
Chen Youhan was stunned and laughed: "Twenty years? I'm only nineteen years old."
Perhaps she also felt that the company's planned activities were a bit ridiculous, so the girl pretended to be mature and comforted him: "Twenty years, it's just a blink of an eye."
Chen Youhan raised the hourglass and said, "Maybe it will disappear next time we move."
Having said that, I still put the hourglass into my backpack.
The tall figure walked away from the crowd, heading towards the Los Angeles boarding gate. Very cool.
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Summer vacation was almost over, and Chen Youhan accompanied Ye Kai back to see Chen Feiyi. Chen Feiyi had complained several times that he never cooked for him, and this time he ran into the trap. Chen Youhan rolled up his shirt sleeves and tied his apron, and said impatiently: "I know, I know, do it, do it, do it right away!"
Chen Fei complained to Ye Kai: "Raising a son is not as good as raising a dog, right, Lielie?"
Lielie barked.
Chen Youhan replied loudly: "I heard it!"
He was only responsible for cooking, and the maids did the washing, preparing and cutting. Although it is said that "raising a son is not as good as raising a dog", when he saw the table of Cantonese cuisine, Chen Feiyi still smiled with his eyes narrowed into slits. As he got older, the crow's feet at the corners of his eyes deepened, and he began to yearn for such a simple meal.
Thinking that he would be going back to the United States soon, Ye Kai began to lose his appetite: "I really should let Aunt Wang learn from Brother Youhan."
Chen Youhan peeled shrimp for him: "You are just lazy. You can't even fry an egg properly at your age."
Ye Kai said confidently: "Brother Youhan, you don't know that the eggs you fry are better."
Chen Youhan glanced at him and said "hmm", looking pleased.
Ye Kai bit his chopsticks and continued, "The shrimp you peel should also taste better."
Chen Youhan laughed jokingly: "Continue."
"The fruits you wash taste better than the ones I wash."
Chen Fei laughed loudly.
Chen Youhan helped him summarize: "In short, what I cook is always better than what you cook yourself, right?"
Ye Kai nodded and looked at Chen Feiyi: "Uncle Chen, am I right?"
Chen Feiyi agreed: "That's right, even the wine poured by Youhan tastes better than the one I pour."
Chen Youhan was speechless and laughed angrily: "Please be kind!"
Ye Kai smiled so much that he lay on the table and looked at him with bright eyes. He reached out his hand from under the table and squeezed his leg. Chen Fei lived alone and lost the opportunity to enjoy the company of his grandchildren. Such time was so rare for him. With hundreds of billions of dollars, he was just an ordinary old man in front of such warmth.
Chen Youhan knew that she was just being coquettish, so she cooperated perfectly. After so many years of getting along, he still had no immunity to Ye Kai.
Because they were happy, they drank a few more cups and walked a few laps. Chen Feiyi said he was going to take a nap and let them do whatever they wanted. The sun was very hot, and they couldn't stand the heat after lying on the beach for a while. Ye Kai pulled Chen Youhan back to his room. Comic books, star basketball uniforms hanging all over the wall, a cabinet full of autographed expensive basketballs and trophies, and many, many messy CDs. Nineteen-year-old Chen Youhan lived here.
He hadn't dreamed for a while. Time had carried that dream away. After a long time, he began to doubt that dream - perhaps - of course, it should have been just a dream. Thinking back to the time when he took sleeping pills for this, he couldn't help but find it funny. He didn't regret it.
The details of the dream began to fade, but when talking about Chen Youhan's boyhood, he would naturally continue, "...at that time, you and I..." He gained a false sense of participation, as if they had really known each other, kissed, held hands, gone to and from school together, cheered on the stadium, ran at night in the twilight, lay on the playground listening to the chirping of crickets and insects, and looking at the entire upside-down starry sky above their heads when he was eighteen years old.
I even argued that it was me that you liked when you were 18 years old.
Ye Kai inserted Suede's CD into the record player and put on headphones, one for each of him and Chen Youhan.
Keep pressing the left button until the familiar prelude sounds.
"This is the song I listened to on the bus to the city youth training."
He said naturally, closed his eyes, and lay on his back in Chen Youhan's arms. The three o'clock sun shone warmly on his face, and there was a trace of light from the folding window, bright and dark, covering him with gentleness. Chen Youhan lowered her head and kissed him on the lips.
The air conditioning operates quietly.
Click.
Something fell out.
Ye Kai opened his eyes. From his upward angle, he saw a white hourglass on the solid wooden bookcase that reached up to the ceiling, with some strange markings on it.
"What's this?"
He took off his headphones, stood up, and tiptoed to take the hourglass from the high lattice. He had clearly heard some noise just now and thought it was this, but when he took it in his hand he realized it wasn't.
"Which little girl gave it to you? You actually kept it?" Ye Kai looked at it over and over again: "Chen Youhan, do you have anything to explain?"
Chen Youhan took it from him, thought about it for more than ten seconds, and found a clue in the words "China Southern Airlines" on the base, "It seems like an event I participated in at the airport some year."
"What activity?" Ye Kai asked.
The minute hand turned past twelve, the hour hand pointed to three, and at exactly three o'clock in the afternoon, the hourglass scale returned to zero, the white sand piled up into sand dunes, the paddle popped open, and a small roll of paper and something else fell out.
Ye Kai was stunned for a moment, then squatted down to pick it up. The moment he saw the thing clearly, his body froze, and all sounds and the world disappeared.
A very delicate wolf tooth necklace.
"Do you think he'll like it?"
The sound of waves at the seaside recurred, the wind blew, and a white flower appeared on the cliff.
Ye Kai held the letter paper and saw the young man's energetic handwriting on it.
The tall figure was leaning over the counter, and his seriousness was evident in every stroke of the brush.
"I seem to have almost forgotten you.
I tried for a long time to find evidence that you had been here. Since I couldn't find any, I began to doubt whether you had really been here.
I went to see a psychiatrist, who said I was fine. I tried to describe to him the scene of you coming here, but as always, I forgot the words as soon as they came to my mouth. It was like I had Alzheimer's disease in advance, and the names I blurted out ended up in sudden silence.
I forget more and more, and sometimes I only remember one emotion.
There is a row of soapberry trees on Siyuan Road. I haven’t paid attention to them for many years, but I don’t know why, but sometimes I want to pick one.
The college entrance examination was taken casually. The first person who feels guilty is not Chen Feiyi, not myself, but you who can't remember.
I feel lost sometimes.
When the sea breeze blows, I feel the same disappointment as wanting someone to watch the sea with me. When playing basketball, I feel the same disappointment as thinking that the opponent's defense will do something cute.
However, the good thing is that this kind of loss occurs less and less frequently.
I know that one day I will forget even forgetting itself.
I will review you a hundred times more seriously than I review my homework.
But I know that I will still forget that I have forgotten you.
When I was tidying up my bookshelf after graduation, I didn't know why there was a collection of Latin American poetry. I don't read poetry and lack appreciation. Someone drew a line under it, and I imagined it was you.
Then I'll copy it to you:
"You are the last rose in my barren land."
If this letter really still exists, I hope it can bring you back to me."
The roar of the plane disappeared in the sky above the blazing sun of the Pacific Ocean. Ye Kai clutched the letter and hastily looked up at the person facing him against the light.
"Brother Youhan?"
—— Extra 2: Gap Fin——
The author has something to say:
Chen Youhan only wrote three letters in his life: Ning Shu, Ye Kai, and Ye Kai.
"The Garden of Forking Paths" is about the fork in time, which can be understood in many ways. The concept of this extra chapter comes from this sentence: "Borges believes that the plot should run in a circle rather than extend in a straight line. The starting point should be the end point."
Because I stopped updating in the middle, I hope that if you like it, you can still read it again carefully. There are really many subtle and obscure foreshadowings.
Eighteen-year-old brother Youhan, what you thought was the end is actually the beginning.
Xiao Kai, 18 years old, Brother Youhan also really accompanied you in pain. It's just that you remember it deeply, but he remembers that he has no choice but to suffer.
If time is really circular, it probably only exists because of their love.
This extra chapter can be independent or connected to the main text, it depends on your own understanding.
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