Chapter 43 The Madman
Cheng Yuan hugged him tighter and tighter, and Chu Jianshan even felt a little breathless, but he still couldn't bear to let go.
Cheng Yuan felt the chill emanating from him and pulled his head into his arms, saying, "I'm sorry, all the shops on the street were closed. I looked for a long time. Have you been waiting for a long time?"
Chu Jianshan shook his head, his body trembling, and after a long while, he managed to choke out, "I thought you weren't coming."
Cheng Yuan hugged him tighter, his voice a little hoarse: "I also thought you wouldn't come."
Chu Jianshan looked up in confusion: "Then why did you buy fireworks?"
Cheng Yuan pressed his head down again, not wanting him to see the expression on his face: "I was gambling, gambling that you wouldn't soften your heart again. Now... did I gamble correctly?"
Chu Jianshan's nose tingled, and he forced out a single word: "I..."
"Forget it, you'd better not say anything."
Cheng Yuan suddenly interrupted him, smiling as he said, "I'm afraid you're going to say those things that will make me give up again. At least tonight, let me have a sweet dream, okay?"
Chu Jianshan buried his head in his chest and remained silent.
Cheng Yuan didn't press further, but continued, "When I saw that fireworks shop on the street today, I suddenly remembered what you said before."
"You said that a withered tree will not bloom, and that it is impossible for us to be together, but I stubbornly insisted that it was impossible. There is nothing impossible in this world, so I ran around and searched for a long time, just to prove to you my determination."
He lowered his head and mocked himself, "Actually, I can understand you. From your perspective, if someone you've only known for a short time, and who is a man, wants to be with you, anyone would think he's crazy. But since he's already crazy, let me be crazy this once. Chu Jianshan, just give me a quick death, okay? Stop torturing me."
He slowly loosened his grip on Chu Jianshan, allowing him to look up into his eyes. The fireworks had already gone out, and he could only barely make out the other's face in the darkness, but Chu Jianshan could feel his naked desire.
Chu Jianshan hesitated for a moment before speaking, "When you first confessed your feelings to me, I was only shocked and flustered. Just like you said, we haven't known each other for very long, and besides, we're two men... I..."
He lowered his head: "I haven't experienced it..."
Cheng Yuan gently stroked his back, coaxing him, "And then, what are your thoughts about me?"
Chu Jianshan continued, "I'm a little scared..."
Cheng Yuan asked, "What are you afraid of?"
Chu Jianshan said, "I'm afraid of what others think of us, afraid that you don't understand me enough, and afraid that I will be a burden to you."
Cheng Yuan highlighted the key point: "So there's no part of it where you're afraid of me loving you, right?"
Chu Jianshan admired his ability to nitpick, and tilted his head slightly: "Well... not really."
Cheng Yuan sighed softly. He was almost driven to the brink of exasperation by Chu Jianshan. He had always thought of himself as introverted, but now it seemed that Chu Jianshan was the truly inflexible one.
"Chu Jianshan, give me a straight answer," Cheng Yuan gave a firm order.
"Then... close your eyes and don't look at me."
Cheng Yuan didn't understand what this strange request was, but he complied anyway.
He threatened him with his eyes closed: "You better not sneak away while I can't see you, or you won't get away with this."
Chu Jianshan was amused by his words. It seemed that his image in his eyes was not very good. He replied, "No, I just need some time."
Looking at Cheng Yuan's tall and handsome face, he felt an urge to push boundaries. He didn't care about etiquette or opinions anymore. Just like he said, he wanted to have a sweet dream tonight.
"Chu Jianshan, are you alright? If you really run away, I'll..."
His words were cut off as Chu Jianshan's lips brushed against his, lightly touching his skin like a dragonfly skimming the water before leaving.
Cheng Yuan suddenly opened his eyes, struggling to suppress the urge to hug him tightly. His Adam's apple bobbed as he tentatively asked, "What does this mean?"
Chu Jianshan raised his eyes, a smile playing on his lips: "They're all crazy, I want to be crazy too."
Cheng Yuan's breathing suddenly became heavy, his heart almost leaping out of his chest: "You...you mean, you like me, care about me, and want me! Right?"
He gripped Chu Jianshan's arms as if using all his strength: "Chu Jianshan, answer me, won't you?"
Almost the instant Chu Jianshan nodded, Cheng Yuan rushed over and hugged him tightly, burying his head in the crook of Chu Jianshan's neck, his body trembling slightly.
His voice trembled as he said, "Chu Jianshan, you scared me to death..."
Chu Jianshan patted his back and laughed, "Stroking, don't be scared~"
Cheng Yuan nuzzled against his neck again: "You can't scare me like that again next time."
Chu Jianshan was shocked: "You want there to be a next time?!"
Cheng Yuan was amused by him: "That's all, just this once, just you."
Even though he was smiling, Chu Jianshan felt a warm, damp sensation on his neck. He wanted to push Cheng Yuan away to check on him, but Cheng Yuan pulled him back into his arms.
"You're not allowed to look."
Chu Jianshan joked, "Why are you crying? It's not a big deal."
“How can it not be a big deal?” Cheng Yuan said unhappily, “You have no idea how anxious I was on the way here. I imagined a million possibilities, nine thousand nine hundred and ninety-nine of them, and you would leave. But I still came here in case of that, thankfully…”
He hugged Chu Jianshan tighter: "It's a good thing you chose this 'what if' option."
Chu Jianshan felt a pang of sympathy for him: "What if I didn't choose? Would you just let go like that?"
Cheng Yuan shook his head: "I don't know, I dare not think about it anymore."
Chu Jianshan's eyes also welled up with tears, and he reached out to hug him back: "I'm sorry... I made you wait alone for so long."
Cheng Yuan nuzzled against him playfully, saying, "Then you'll have to think of a way to make it up to me."
Chu Jianshan raised an eyebrow: "What do you want?"
Upon hearing this, Cheng Yuan released him, shifting his gaze from his eyes to his lips, then staring intently at that spot, his eyes gleaming like a hungry wolf.
Even if Chu Jianshan was stupid, he understood what he meant and quietly looked away from him.
Cheng Yuan, instead of backing down, moved even closer and asked softly, "Is it alright?"
Chu Jianshan feigned ignorance: "What, is that okay?"
Cheng Yuan gently rubbed his lips with his thumb, then repeated, "Here... is it okay?"
To be honest, Chu Jianshan never quite understood some of Cheng Yuan's actions. They had kissed each other many times before, intentionally or unintentionally, so why was he acting all innocent again now?
But Chu Jianshan was also a little embarrassed. He knew absolutely nothing about this kind of thing and didn't know whether to nod or shake his head.
"Chu Jianshan..." Cheng Yuan called him softly again, urging him on.
"Ugh, this is so annoying!" Chu Jianshan said, somewhat embarrassed and angry, but resignedly raised his head: "Let's kiss!"
The moment the words left his mouth, Cheng Yuan pounced on him like a hunting dog on command.
Chu Jianshan first felt a sense of suffocation. Cheng Yuan was holding him too tightly, his mouth constantly grinding against his lips. It wasn't like a kiss, but rather like he was gnawing on him, wanting to tear him apart and swallow him whole.
Chu Jianshan's mind went blank for a moment. The immense feeling of suffocation forced him to push away the culprit in front of him. But just as he sensed Chu Jianshan's resistance, Cheng Yuan became even more frantic, kissing and hugging him forcefully.
"Cheng Yuan, you... wait, I can't breathe..."
Upon hearing this, Cheng Yuan released him, but his eyes remained fixed on his face and lips. Chu Jianshan, finally getting a chance to catch his breath, took deep breaths of fresh air.
Cheng Yuan was also panting heavily, but he still couldn't bear to let go of Cheng Yuan's arm: "You promised, you can't go back on your word."
Upon hearing him say this, Chu Jianshan sensed something was terribly wrong. Sure enough, the next second, Cheng Yuan hugged him and leaned him against the tree trunk, a spot more suitable for him to exert his strength.
Kissing followed one after another. This time, it wasn't just kissing; Cheng Yuan's hands also began to wander, roaming over Chu Jianshan's waist and abdomen.
Chu Jianshan made two whimpering protests, and Cheng Yuan quieted down for a while. But it was only for a short while. Under such strong stimulation, he soon reached out his hand again.
He wrapped his arms around Chu Jianshan's waist, pressing his body against Chu's, and used his other hand to protect Chu's head from being rubbed by the rough tree trunk, which also made it easier for him to kiss him more deeply.
After kissing for an unknown amount of time, Chu Jianshan was already getting impatient, but Cheng Yuan showed no sign of slowing down. Instead, he moved to Chu Jianshan's neck and gently bit him.
His collar was suddenly ripped open, and a gust of cold wind rushed in, making Chu Jianshan shiver.
"cold……"
He murmured something softly, and Cheng Yuan released him upon hearing it, straightened his clothes, and then hugged him again. The warm breath he exhaled sprayed on Chu Jianshan's ear, causing Chu Jianshan to stiffen instantly.
Seeing that Cheng Yuan didn't speak, Chu Jianshan gently twisted his body, trying to find a more comfortable position, but as soon as he moved, Cheng Yuan hugged him tightly and said in a commanding tone, "Don't move."
Chu Jianshan was instantly displeased. He was the master, and he was determined to make a move!
But as soon as he moved, he discovered something incredible: there was something hard sticking out of him. At first, he was puzzled, but after realizing what it was, Chu Jianshan blushed from his neck to his face, and froze on the spot, not daring to blink.
Seeing him like this, Cheng Yuan couldn't help but laugh out loud: "I told you not to move around."
Chu Jianshan was furious: "Who knew you...you!"
Cheng Yuan raised an eyebrow slightly: "What?"
Chu Jianshan muttered with his head down, "How could it all be like this..."
Cheng Yuan buried his head in it again: "I can't help it, I like it too much."
Chu Jianshan raised his eyes, wondering what he liked—this kiss, or this person?
Cheng Yuan seemed to have lost all his strength, lying on Chu Jianshan's body, smelling his scent, and whispered, "No rush, let me catch my breath."
Although Chu Jianshan's face was still burning, he didn't push him away, but simply held him gently.
"Okay, take a break..."
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