Chapter 131 I hate Li Chen, I hate you...
In the past, she could not feel the warmth and breath of her loved ones, nor could she sense the lingering spirits of their deceased relatives.
At this moment, he couldn't even sense Li Chenjin's primordial spirit.
The panic of all his efforts going to waste, and the fear of reliving the past, instantly overwhelmed his mind, making him wish he could transfer all his spiritual power to the person in his arms.
But when he discovered that no matter what he did, he could not sense Li Chenjin's primordial spirit, he forgot how to transfer spiritual power. Just like when he used to hold the corpses of his family members, he involuntarily hugged the person in front of him tightly.
The wind around him suddenly became unusually cold and biting, as if in an instant he had returned to the Snowy Mountain, to the bottom of the cliff of Snowy Mountain.
This time, however, it seemed that he had found the body he had never been able to find before at the bottom of the cliff in the snowy mountains.
He lowered his head and buried his face in Li Chenjin's neck. The smell of blood lingering in his nose seemed to have turned into the blood flowing from Li Chenjin, causing his body, which was lying on her neck, to tremble uncontrollably.
Sometime during the day, the wind that rose here began to carry a sobbing sound, as if the heavens and earth were crying out for him the injustice of fate.
His hand, gripping the hem of Li Chenjin's clothes, tightened continuously, leaving deep wrinkles on her garment, like cracks on her body that could not be smoothed out.
"Why...why did you protect me..."
"Father, Mother...you protected me...why have you disappeared..."
“Master, Uncle-Master, Senior Brother…why…you said…the cultivation world would be my home…but you’re all gone…why…why must I live…”
“None of you…none of you…none of you ever asked for my opinion…why…why did you make decisions for me…”
"I don't want to live... I don't want to live like this... I'm so tired... I'm so tired... so tired..."
He murmured for a long time before slowly sitting up. Looking at the person before him, whose eyes were still closed as if he were in a deep sleep, he whispered, "Li Chenjin...you said you don't like others making decisions for you...but why...why did you make decisions for me..."
"Why...why do they all leave me one by one just when I see hope...why do you have to leave me like they did...tell me...why...tell me...tell me...tell me now..."
Tears fell onto Li Chenjin's face and slid down her cheeks, making it seem as if she were the one crying.
He gazed at her for a long while before slowly raising his hand to wipe the water from her face. "Li Chenjin, I hate you... I hate you..."
"Without you... I could have killed everyone... and then destroyed my own soul... That way... I wouldn't be in pain anymore... and I wouldn't lose anything anymore..."
“I hate you… I hate that you prevented me from doing it… I hate that you saw me… but didn’t just kill me… I hate you… I hate your soft heart… I hate your compassion… I hate your pitifulness… I hate your companionship… I hate your arrogance…”
"Why...why should everything be done your way? If you want to save me, save me...if you want to help me, help me...if you want me to live, I live...but why, when I want you to live...do you refuse?"
"I hate you... I hate you so much... Why won't you... You clearly... You clearly did the same to me... Why did I agree... I compromised... but you won't?"
"Why...why...why..."
He held the person in his arms tightly, his eyes lowered, gazing at her face, which appeared to be asleep.
As he watched for a long time, for some reason, his mind gradually became somewhat blurred.
Finally, unable to resist the onslaught of drowsiness, he moved his lips a few times, only managing to utter a low, somewhat indistinct whisper: "Li Chenjin..."
"I...hate...you..."
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After Li Chen fell into a coma, he could neither hear any sounds from the outside world nor wake up. Instead, he was trapped in a dream, or rather...
It was a dream world that had been designed in advance.
In that dreamlike state, she was forced to watch a story.
That story takes place a very long time ago, two or three hundred years before Shen Zhengyuan was born.
It was only at this time that Li Chenjin learned that before the turmoil that nearly destroyed the cultivation world, there had actually been a great war between immortals and demons.
It is unknown who opened the gate to the demon realm back then.
The story tells of a person who repeatedly made wishes before gods and Buddhas, but failed each time. In the end, he chose to take a risky approach and tried to obtain a chance to fulfill his wish from the legendary demons, which is why he managed to open the gate to the demon realm.
Whether that person's wish was ultimately fulfilled is unknown to the world. All that is known is that after the gates to the demon realm opened, many demons flooded into the human world, attempting to conquer it and become kings.
Fortunately, those who tried to conquer the human world and become kings were all demons who hadn't fared well in the demon realm. They were all of average strength, so although they were difficult to deal with, they weren't extremely difficult to deal with.
The truly powerful demons have not shown themselves; they are all staying in the demon realm, seemingly uninterested in the human world.
Those demons who daydream about becoming kings and dominating the human world are easy to deal with, but there are also many demons who come to the human world to travel and enjoy themselves. These demons are much more capable than those who like to daydream, and they are much more difficult to deal with.
In addition, those demons are extremely good at concealing their aura, and when they disguise themselves as humans, they are even more human than humans themselves, making them difficult for people in the cultivation world to identify.
Therefore, some powerful figures in the cultivation world had no choice but to enter the gates of the Demon Realm, attempting to persuade the Demon Lord, who was still seated within the Demon Realm, to recall the demons who had entered the human world.
The good news is that the powerful figure and the Demon Lord successfully reached an agreement, and the Demon Lord has recalled all the demons.
The bad news was that, for some reason, that powerful being was unable to return to the cultivation world and seemed to have perished in the demon realm, causing great sorrow to everyone in the cultivation world at that time.
Although the fall of a powerful being is heartbreaking, at least the matter of the Demon Realm has been properly resolved.
But who would have thought that among the demons who came to the human world, besides those who daydreamed and traveled around, there were also those who imitated characters from storybooks and engaged in romance.
Among those demons who imitated characters from storybooks and engaged in love affairs, there was one who left behind his bloodline in the human world.
That bloodline, because it has half human blood, is not accepted by the demon realm; but because it has half demon blood, it is also not accepted by the human world.
However, this outcast has a mother who loves her deeply.
In order to keep her, her mother left her hometown and went to a place where no one knew her. There, she gave birth to the half-human, half-demon child in her womb and named him "Su Shuqing". It was as if this child was the last expression of her feelings for that demon.
Unfortunately, this affection could neither bring back the child's father nor resolve the child's mother's inner conflict.
Ultimately, the child's mother, after days of waiting and longing, passed away from illness caused by accumulated grief when the child was seven years old.
Su Shuqing took her mother's surname. Although she looked more human than the true form of the demon, she had strange patterns on one side of her face, similar to a birthmark, because of her half-demon bloodline. She was clearly different from ordinary people.
When her mother was alive, she didn't have to see outsiders, but after her mother passed away, she ate all the food stored in the house and had to go out to find food in order not to starve to death.
Fortunately, the people around her couldn't see the "birthmark" on her face, which represented her demon bloodline, so they didn't shout at her to kill. But because of the "birthmark" on her face, they not only mocked her, but also gave her nicknames such as "dead beggar," "ugly monster," and "little bastard."
Sometimes, when those who gave her nicknames were in a bad mood, they would beat her up to vent their anger.
As she was beaten more and more, she gradually became smarter. She would find strips of cloth and wrap them around half of her face, which was covered with strange patterns. It seemed that as long as those patterns were gone, she would be no different from a normal person.
Unfortunately, this action not only failed to save her from bullying, but backfired. After being discovered, not only was the cloth strip on her face roughly torn off, but the people who surrounded her mocked and beat her even more recklessly.
Whenever this happens, there are only two possible outcomes for her.
Or perhaps she couldn't stand the mockery and beatings, and ran away like a frightened mouse, her pathetic appearance amusing them, so they let her go for today.
Or, even if she runs away, those people will chase after her and eventually corner her like a cat chasing a mouse, laughing and beating her.
No matter how those people beat her, she couldn't fight back, otherwise she would only be beaten more severely, and it was even possible that they would bring their elders. In that case, she would not only be beaten, but also be dragged out and paraded through the streets.
Anyway, no matter what, she will definitely be the one in the wrong, so it's better to just endure it and minimize the bad consequences.
Therefore, whenever she was surrounded and beaten, she could only curl up like a pitiful mouse, silently enduring the beatings and insults until those people were happy and willing to let her go, at which point she could kowtow and thank them before leaving.
Fortunately, not everyone in the village where she lived was evil. There were also many kind-hearted people who took pity on her and would give her some leftovers or a few coins.
Among those who helped her, the kindest person to her was an elderly woman living alone.
Although the old woman lived alone in the village, with her two children working in town, she would regularly send money back home, and during holidays she would bring her children back to visit.
But most of the time, the old woman was lonely, and because of her loneliness, he wanted to take her in, partly to give her shelter, and partly to find a companion to pass the time.
To be honest, she was quite tempted by it, after all, she had no family and no home.
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