Ji Jianshen did not intend it that way, but it indirectly led to so many things that happened to her later.
Ye Xinning closed her eyes, trying to calm herself down.
“Ji Jianshen, do you know? Ever since I found out that child was my son with Shen Lin, I’ve had nightmares every night. It’s like there are two forces fighting inside me. One force tells me I shouldn’t have such deep feelings for that child. He’s Jiang An’s child, the source of all my pain. The other force tells me he’s my child, I shouldn’t be so cold-blooded, I should hold him and love him. But how can I do that?”
"I'm sorry." Ji Jian pursed his thin lips, his gentle face full of apology. "Although this was not my intention, it is indeed because of some of my reasons that you are in this predicament and pain now."
sorry?
Ye Xinning found Ji Jianshen's words incredibly ironic and laughable.
"Ji Jianshen, I've always felt that even though I never reciprocated your love, our friendship, our kinship, and all the kindness you showed me were genuine. But now..."
Ye Xinning paused halfway through her sentence, and after a long while, she let out a long sigh.
As she stood up with her things, before turning around, she asked Ji Jianshen, "Jiang An is love-struck. Even after Mu Mingwei's death, she was still able to use Grandma Shen Lin to threaten me. I don't believe she has no one behind her. So I want to ask, is the person behind Jiang An you?"
"It wasn't me."
"truth?"
"Um."
"Okay, since you say no, then I believe you this time."
"It's just belief, isn't it?"
Ye Xinning stood there in silence for a long time before speaking again. She turned around and looked at Ji Jianshen with indifferent eyes. There seemed to be an insurmountable distance between them. Between them was a kind of estrangement that Ji Jianshen had never felt with Ye Xinning.
“Everyone of you says you love me, but this love is too complicated, too heavy, I, Ye Xinning… cannot bear it.”
After saying that, Ye Xinning turned around and quickly disappeared from Ji Jianshen's sight.
Ji Jianshen held a water glass in his hand. His expression hadn't changed much from the beginning, but upon closer inspection, one could see that his hand was trembling.
He knew.
These truths were enough to sever his ties with Ye Xinning.
...
After meeting with Ji Jianshen, Ye Xinning walked alone on the street, in the city where she had lived since childhood. But walking on this street, she felt extremely lonely, isolated, and... lost.
When she returned to the Ye family home that evening, she had just parked her car when she saw Shen Lin standing outside the door.
There was also Asparagus fern waiting not far away.
Ye Xinning hadn't expected Shen Lin to appear here, but thinking about it, it made sense. It was quite rare for someone as obsessive as him to stay quiet for so many days.
Ye Xinning stood there, her chin buried in her coat collar. The weather was cold, and there was no warmth on her face.
Shen Lin came up to her and took off his coat and draped it over her shoulders.
"It's getting colder and colder, why are you only wearing so little?" he said in a low voice, sounding like he was scolding, but his eyes were full of love.
Ye Xinning did not raise her hand; she maintained the same posture.
"Why are you here? Have you signed the divorce agreement?" She asked with a smile, though she knew it was unlikely, she still brought up the matter of the divorce agreement.
"Is there nothing else we can talk about besides the divorce?"
A gust of autumn wind ruffled Ye Xinning's hair, and in this bleak season, her smile seemed even more resolute. "Otherwise what?"
"You hate me that much?"
Ye Xinning pondered the word Shen Lin had spoken. "Before, it was hatred—hatred for your betrayal by having Jiang An's child, hatred for your aunt's scheming against me so deeply. But now, it seems a bit unfair to say I hate you. Your aunt and Xia He's target for revenge is me. Jiang An is a pawn, and you and the child... are also pawns. In other words, even if I hadn't met you back then, it seems like everything would still have happened. It would just be a different person. But fate just loves to play tricks on people. And of all people, the one I met was you, the one I loved was you."
Shen Lin felt a strange tension in his heart. He hugged Ye Xinning tightly, his voice tinged with urgency, "No, it's not that I'm not good enough. I didn't protect her well enough. I didn't find out about these things in time."
For the first time in a long time, Ye Xinning did not push Shen Lin away from her embrace.
The man before her was the only man she had ever loved in her life. She had met him in the prime of her youth, and he had saved her from dire straits many times. She had dreamed of growing old with him, hand in hand. But now, in his arms, all she could feel was coldness.
Whether you find out or not is no longer that important, Shen Lin. We have many problems between us, including trust and understanding. That child, your aunt, your grandmother, Jiang An—these tangled relationships make it impossible for us to act as if nothing has happened. So, let go.
Shen Lin stubbornly said, "It's impossible. I know you met Ji Jianshen, and I know that compared to Ji Jianshen, I'm not as gentle, considerate, or as selfless as him. On the contrary, I'm often domineering and obstinate, and I can't take care of your feelings in time. But all of this is because I love you, and I want you to stay by my side. It's because I can't accept your departure that I chose to deceive and threaten you. If you don't like it, I'll do whatever you want and ask you anything in the future, as long as we don't get divorced, anything is fine."
Towards the end, Shen Lin's voice even carried a hint of pleading and timidity.
With Shen Lin holding her like this, Ye Xinning was able to breathe more easily.
She spoke in a cold voice, "Chen Lin, let me go."
"How about we don't get a divorce?"
"Let's get a divorce, Shen Lin. We've come this far together, there's no other way. Why do you keep clinging to me like this?"
"Impossible." Shen Lin stared intently at her with bloodshot eyes.
He suddenly leaned forward and, without saying a word, kissed her lips.
Startled by the sudden kiss, Ye Xinning's eyes widened. When she came to her senses, she used all her strength to push Shen Lin away. Shen Lin didn't move, so she simply bit him.
Sinking into pain, he let go.
Ye Xinning quickly took a big step back, looked at Shen Lin sarcastically, and said meaningfully, "What do you mean you can't let go? You'll let go when it hurts. So Shen Lin, don't pretend to be so noble, and stop making a fuss. Just be straightforward and get a divorce. It will be a relief for both of us."
"I'll do anything you want except divorce," Shen Lin said, his gaze deep and unfathomable.
"I'd rather you die?" Ye Xinning said irritably.
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