"Let's talk about those years we spent in Switzerland."
Ji Jianshen's voice was still as gentle as ever. "Yes, go ahead, I'm listening."
Ye Xinning's gaze fell on Ji Jianshen. His composure and gentleness seemed to be the same way he had been to her since they met.
Back in Switzerland, he took meticulous care of her, and when she later returned to Nancheng to marry Shen Lin, he was the one who helped her when she encountered difficulties.
Over the past few days, Ye Xinning felt that Ji Jianshen was like a ray of light. He appeared by her side during her most difficult time and healed her a lot with his gentleness.
But at some point, she realized that she seemed to have been wrong.
"Ji Jianshen."
Ye Xinning called Ji Jianshen's name in a low voice.
"Um?"
“When I was in Switzerland, I was so glad that I met you. The warmth you gave me during that time is a source of strength and hope that I will always remember.”
Ji Jianshen didn't speak, he just looked at Ye Xinning. Ye Xinning rarely mentioned what happened in Switzerland back then, but now that she brought it up in this way, Ji Jianshen's eyes changed. He could sense that something was starting to change, something was subtly different.
"I did everything according to my heart, Xin Ning, I wanted to be good to you." Ji Jianshen said these words after a brief silence.
Ye Xinning lowered her head. She was smiling, but upon closer inspection, the smile didn't reach her eyes; her eyes were filled with coldness.
"Is that so? Then Ji Jianshen secretly tampered with my medicine. Is this... what you call... being good to me?" As soon as Ye Xinning finished speaking, Ji Jianshen stopped drinking water and his deep eyes fell on her face.
Ye Xinning smiled faintly and continued, "At first, I didn't think much about it. I couldn't imagine what someone I trusted would do to me, but reality proved me wrong. From Xia He, I learned that a person's hatred can be so extreme. I wondered why I had no memory of what happened during that time. No matter how powerful Xia He was, it's impossible for me to have no memory of something like egg retrieval. I was confused and puzzled, so I consulted Mo Zichen, asking him to give me an answer from a medical perspective. Mo Zichen's answer left me in a state of constant struggle and pain. I don't want to assume the worst about a situation or a person, but the current situation tells me that I seem to have no choice but to talk to you about it."
Ye Xinning spoke at length, then looked up at Ji Jianshen intently and asked calmly, word by word, "Ji Jianshen, was there something wrong with the medicine you gave me back then?"
Ji Jianshen had been smiling gently ever since she started speaking, and this attitude made Ye Xinning feel that she seemed to know what Ji Jianshen's answer was.
"Yes." After a long time, Ye Xinning heard Ji Jianshen's reply. He didn't say anything more, just two words, but they caused Ye Xinning countless pains. She clenched her hands tightly, not even feeling her fingernails digging into her flesh.
"Will that medicine gradually make me forget some things?"
"Um."
"Why?" Ye Xinning asked, trying her best to remain calm.
Why.
Why would you tamper with her medicine?
Why should she forget some things?
Why? She trusted him so much, she considered him family, yet he did something to hurt her like this.
Ji Jianshen crossed his arms and maintained that position ever since Ye Xinning finished speaking.
Finally, she asked those questions; finally, she found out.
For so long, he had tried his best to keep this a secret and didn't want her to know.
But some things are done once they've been done, and there are no secrets that can't be kept forever. He should have realized that long ago.
"Yes, why is it that even after all these years, I still think about that time? I also ask myself if I would make that choice again if I had to do it all over again? You ask me why I did it, but Xinning, do you know how much I love you? When I was a child, I met you in NATO. You healed my twisted heart and rekindled my hope. I am determined to love you for the rest of my life."
"But then I met Shen Lin," Ye Xinning stated calmly.
Ji Jianshen chuckled self-deprecatingly. "Yes, when I finally went to find you, I discovered you had forgotten me and fallen in love with Shen Lin. Who is Shen Lin? He calls that woman 'Auntie,' he's my cousin. How ridiculous, isn't it? How can I accept this? I was the one who met you first, so why did you fall in love with him? You don't know how many times I appeared in Nancheng while you were dating him. How many times I wanted to take you away, but I knew I couldn't do that. You love him, and if I took you away, how heartbroken would you be? So I kept waiting, and finally, I waited. He had a car accident and forgot you. You eventually went abroad to Switzerland. In Switzerland, I watched you from afar. I orchestrated our encounter, witnessing your sadness and grief for him. You don't know how jealous I was. One of the worst human traits is possessiveness. I was insanely jealous during that time. I told myself, 'If you forget him, you won't be in so much pain.'"
"So that medicine is why I can't remember having my eggs retrieved. And then what happened? Why did you choose to stop?"
“Your body is having problems. You're starting to forget what happened just yesterday. Sometimes when you're walking down the street, you turn around and forget what you were supposed to do. I know that's a side effect of the medication. I kept telling myself that I couldn't let you suffer unnecessary pain because of my own selfish desires. You've already made me feel bad enough, so I stopped the medication. You only temporarily forgot about those one or two months later, and your body returned to its original state.”
Ye Xinning had no recollection of what Ji Jianshen said, probably because of the drug.
Ye Xinning never imagined that Ji Jianshen had done these things. She always felt that Ji Jianshen had been her friend for many years and that he had always given her warmth. Even after she learned that Ji Jianshen loved her, she still felt that Ji Jianshen was not selfish.
But now, learning these things is like a knife to Ye Xinning's heart.
If it weren't for Ji Jianshen's medicine, how could she have been schemed against by Xia He and Mu Mingwei, and how could so many things have happened afterward?
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