Chapter 77 Sisyphus Tune (Part 2) Whatever you want.
Li Ya just timidly expressed her thoughts - she didn't want to do this anymore, she felt it was not a good thing.
Bai Yan flew into a rage and left with a flick of his sleeves.
A day later, Bai Yan threw her father and brother in front of her.
Li Ya looked at Bai Yan with a sad face.
Bai Yan said: "Do you know why they come here?"
"Gambling," Bai Yan said. "They think you must be rich. They're blackmailing the director. If you don't pay them, they'll expose you for being unfilial to your family."
Li Ya shook her head and could only shed tears. At this moment, she was filled with the pain of others. The figures on the billboard were getting bigger and bigger. She felt like her flesh was about to be broken. Li Ya knew that it might be too late.
Bai Yan said, "Think more about your family. Do you think they want you to be a big star, or an ordinary girl who has lost everything?"
Li Ya didn't dare to think about this.
Li Ya said, "Can you let my family go?"
"Especially my sister," Li Ya said, "she is really too young."
When Li Ya mentioned her sister, she felt infinite regret in her heart. She remembered that when she was little, Li Mai always looked at her with longing eyes in school, hoping that she could say a few words to her.
But Li Ya herself felt uncomfortable. She always didn't want to talk to Li Mai again and again, and always said at school that her relationship with Li Mai was not very good. Li Ya told her friends that she hated her former family the most.
She wanted to make it clear that she was not abandoned, but that she herself did not want it.
Li Mai always secretly stuffed his snacks into Li Ya's schoolbag and drawers. Li Ya kept them. Once, Li Ya's friend was still around and asked her, "Did your sister give them to you?"
"Are you two on good terms?"
Li Ya turned around and threw the bag of cakes into the trash can.
Li Ya said: "Is it possible? Me and that fat pig?"
My friend laughed and said, “That’s right.”
"Don't you hate snacking?" my friend said, "She did it on purpose, didn't she?"
Li Ya and her friends went downstairs to the bathroom and saw Li Mai hiding at the door of the classroom.
Her heart ached, but she still left cruelly.
Since then, I have never received any small gifts from Li Mai.
Li Ya later had some opportunities to apologize to Li Mai, but she didn't do so.
She didn't know why, she just didn't have it.
She knew from a young age that she was her younger sister's role model, that chubby little girl's favorite person.
Even if Li Ya wanted to set a good example for her, she couldn't lose everything.
Li Ya gave up struggling.
But why did Li Mai come here anyway?
Did Bai Yan break his promise?
Li Mai hugged her tightly, feeling that Li Ya's skin was slowly cracking, and a layer of skin was peeling off. The bright red flesh underneath was vaguely mixed with some black substance, clinging to her body.
Li Mai picked her up and was about to leave when Zhang Deng said, "There's no point going to the hospital!"
Li Mai said nothing and rushed forward. Li Sui stopped her at the door.
Li Mai said, "What are you doing?"
Bai Yan said coldly: "It will be useless if you take her away."
"You call yourself the savior of the world," Zhang Deng said, "but can you deceive the world or yourself by doing something like this?"
Bai Yan said: "So what?"
"Didn't I help others find liberation?" Bai Yan asked. "Any great cause needs martyrs. Li Ya's parents, relatives, and friends have already abandoned her. She was already a person without any ties in this world. How could sacrificing herself for the sake of enlightenment not be a kind of perfection for her?"
"Bullshit," Li Mai's mother said, "Bullshit."
The woman finally stopped hiding it. She took off her shoes and threw them at Bai Yan, hitting him on the head. Bai Yan closed his eyes and said nothing.
"You don't understand what it's like to be a mother," the woman said. "You're a beast in human form."
The woman said, "It was wrong of me to send Li Ya away, but I just wanted her to have a better life. If I had known that one day she would live like this, how could I have sent her away? Li Mai is still in her cradle, and I can only afford a few dozen yuan a month for her living expenses. If it were you, what would you choose? Do you understand if you've never been a mother?"
Bai Yan sneered: "That's easy, exchange your life for hers."
He pulled out a bottle of purple, unidentified liquid from his pocket, shook it in his hand, and said, "This is the antidote. You devour her desire for her, and I'll let her go."
The woman was slightly stunned.
Zhang Deng immediately said, "You are lying."
"There's no antidote for the offshore Qi-dolphin," Zhang Deng said. "Offshore Qi-dolphin males have always been used by the World Tree to erase their memories. If there really were an antidote for something that would destabilize memories, they wouldn't use it."
Zhang Deng looked at Wei Yuanye, and Wei Yuanye nodded.
Wei Yuanye said, "If there's no antidote for male beasts, there's certainly no antidote for female beasts, who are so rare."
Bai Yan smiled and said, "That's what you thought."
"You don't understand the Supreme God. He has made every possible preparation for this cause," Bai Yan said. "He possesses divine power comparable to that of the Creator. How can mortals like you compare?"
But that’s not the case. Zhang Deng knew that this matter was not as simple as Bai Yan imagined.
If there really is an antidote for offshore Qitun, the changes it will bring to the world will be unprecedented.
For the saviors who rely on the World Tree for survival, erasing their memories is something they fear, but something they have to do.
Take Wei Yuanye for example. Wei Yuanye doesn't like to clear his memory, even though the managers told him that this is to alleviate the wear and tear caused by his mission.
But Wei Yuanye didn't like it. After experiencing too many erasures, he had memory confusion, emotional indifference, etc., which was very painful for him.
If he had a choice, Wei Yuanye would definitely not clear it.
Zhang Deng didn't know why he was so obsessed with erasing the savior's memory, but he knew that there must be many people who thought like Wei Yuanye.
Is there really an antidote?
Zhang Deng was also moved, so is that -
Just as Zhang Deng was thinking this, he heard Li Mai say, "I'll drink it."
"Don't you just need a container?" Li Mai said, "I'll do it."
Li Ya held her hand weakly and shook her head gently.
Zhang Deng then realized that Li Mai had been holding Li Ya with both hands, gritting his teeth, and had not let go until now.
Bai Yan suddenly felt as if he was feeling dull and boring. He waved his hand and said, "Forget it, all of you go to hell."
His body suddenly exploded, and countless tentacles emerged from all directions. Those tentacles emitted black air, as if they were a call from hell.
Wei Yuanye took out a gun and shot him in the forehead. Bai Yan's tentacles blocked the bullet layer by layer. The bullet passed through several layers of tentacles and finally stopped. Bai Yan's face was revealed, his lips were tightly pursed, and a tentacle stretched out to rush towards Wei Yuanye's face.
Wei Yuanye rolled on the ground and turned around to see that the floor under him was smashed to pieces.
Li Mai put Li Ya in the corner and took out a small knife from his pocket.
She took out the scabbard and let Li Ya hold it in her hand. Li Ya saw Li Mai's surname engraved on the back of the knife, a very small character "Li".
Li Mai stood up and left, and Li Ya held her hand. At that moment, they actually didn't need words to communicate.
Over the years, Li Ya and Li Mai seemed to have never been separated. It was as if they had never been apart. They could understand each other just by looking at each other.
Li Mai turned and left.
As Li Mai rushed towards the battlefield she had never experienced before, she suddenly realized, "She has never retreated."
Her life wasn't particularly good; she wasn't beautiful, had no money, and no love. But she worked very hard, constantly striving to live a life no less than average. No matter what difficulties she encountered, her first thought was to solve them, not to back down. She wanted to fight to the death, and her life plan included being on the same level as her sister, and she believed her sister felt the same way.
No matter whether they are poor or rich, what cannot be severed is the blood ties between the women in their family.
In the chaos, Songhua grabbed her mother's hand and said, "Get out quickly."
Her mother asked, "Are you pregnant?"
Songhua was stunned for a moment.
Her mother seized on this opportunity, thinking she must be pregnant again. She looked at Songhua with contempt and said, "No wonder you can't run away."
Songhua said, "I'm not pregnant."
"I haven't slept with any man," Songhua finally felt discouraged, "It's up to you."
Songhua's mother held her hand and said, "You've found a good man. He's quite capable and better than the previous one."
"Isn't he rich?"
Songhua looked at her and felt that she was extremely strange.
She knew her mother was not a good person, but she didn't expect her to be so confused.
The word "lack of money" has completely destroyed her mother and also destroyed the umbilical cord connecting them.
Bai Yan has gone crazy. Songhua knows this. Men will always go crazy in the end, it's just a matter of sooner or later.
Bai Yan said, "Li Mai," but Bai Yan was so completely crazy, so completely crazy that even Songhua, a woman who was used to seeing crazy men, felt scared.
Mai cut off one of Bai Yan's tentacles and felt the sticky blood soaking into her skin. Zhang Deng pulled her over and said, "Let's hide first."
Li Mai broke free from his hand. She looked at Zhang Deng with a determined look in her eyes and said to him, "I won't."
Yes, she doesn't. She won't hide behind a man and let him protect her.
Zhang Deng realized his offense, but he didn't mean anything else. He even thought that Li Mai was a little too sensitive.
Zhang Deng had no choice but to shout, "Bai Yan, what exactly do you want to do? How far will you go before you stop?"
Bai Yan appeared in front of him in an instant. He seemed to be taking pleasure in torturing them, admiring their reactions in difficult situations and savoring their pain.
Bai Yan said: "Mortals live in this world with their ten toes touching the ground. The circumstances they get are never in line with what they seek. This is where suffering arises."
"To die in a beautiful dream—I wonder how many people dream of it," Bai Yan said. "Some people, afraid of death, pray for a meteorite to hit the Earth and end everything. It seems that in a group, their self-destruction isn't a crime."
Bai Yan said, "I could have ended their lives directly, but I still wanted to give them a sweet dream before they went to sleep. I guess if merit could really be calculated, I would have already achieved immeasurable perfection."
Zhang Deng said vulgarly, "You're full of shit!"
Zhang Deng rarely uttered such vulgar words, and at this moment he was really furious.
Zhang Deng said, "It's a record for someone to live as shamelessly as you do."
"You like discussing meaning, then I'll discuss it with you," Zhang Deng said. "Even if life is like Sisyphus pushing a rock, punished by the gods to live a purposeless and absurd life. Pulling as hard as you can amidst the absurdity, breathing every inch of air with all your might, caressing the grass, walking through the sand and gravel, like you said, digging your toes into the ground, feeling the excruciating pain, dying of exhaustion amidst the absurdity and intimidation, despite the pain, leaving no regrets."
Zhang Deng asked, "Who do you think you are? Can you decide life and death for others?"
"When people say they don't want to live anymore, you assume they really do," Zhang Deng said. "You could say that if I could leave without regrets, I would do so. But I don't need you to give me that opportunity. When it's time to live, I will never back down."
While Zhang Deng was talking, Wei Yuanye quietly walked around behind Bai Yan. He raised his pistol and pointed it at the back of Bai Yan's head. Bai Yan turned his head slowly and said, "Do you think you can kill me?"
"I'll let you do it," Bai Yan raised his hands slightly, his tentacles slowly moving, "I won't die. I represent the Way of Heaven."
Zhang Deng said, "If you let him shoot you three times, we will believe what you say."
Bai Yan sneered and said, "Do you think I'm playing a game with you?"
"I don't have the power of a god, otherwise I could make you see your own sins," Bai Yan said. "Killing you is easy, but making you submit is difficult."
Bai Yan said: "Do you feel that your life is meaningful and hopeful?"
"Let me tell you, this world's path to ascension has long been closed," Bai Yan said. "Even if you accumulate virtue and do good deeds, you will never ascend to the Tao. Even if you practice diligently, you will never become a Buddha or an immortal. Being born into this world means your life is over. Fighting in purgatory, even if you win, you're still a loser."
Bai Yan saw the hesitation in their eyes and said, "The class division has long ended. The Earth is now nothing more than a large prison with guards everywhere. I really am trying to save everyone, but unfortunately no one wants to believe it."
Zhang Deng had a slightly different feeling. He felt that Bai Yan might really know something, maybe just the basics, or maybe it involved the core things, but there was no doubt that the solution he proposed was definitely crazy and terrible.
Zhang Deng said, "You only have the right to decide your own destiny, not the life or death of others."
Bai Yan said: "How many people in this world are truly sober?"
On the other side, Li Sui stood in front of Li Mai, preventing Li Mai from going to find Bai Yan.
Li Sui said: "Li Ya's sacrifice was for our happiness. Don't let her sacrifice be in vain."
Li Mai kicked him in the chest, Li Sui grabbed her feet and threw her to the ground. Li Mai grabbed his lower body and Li Sui cried out in pain. The two of them wrestled on the ground.
Li Mai was much stronger than him. She pressed him down under her body, took out a knife and stabbed it into his ear. She did not intentionally injure his flesh, but cut off his ear.
Li Sui was stunned for a moment, then touched his ear and saw blood on his hand. He yelled like crazy. Li Mai slapped him in the face and said, "Waste!"
Li Sui said, "You monster!"
Li Mai put a knife against his neck and he was immediately speechless.
"I'm better than you," Li Mai said calmly, "and smarter than you."
"If there really is a way in this world to relieve pain and quickly ascend," Li Mai said, "I would definitely know it before you."
Li Mai said, "There won't be any good way out. It's fools like you who know it first."
She leaned close to Li Sui's face, her false eyelashes almost fanning Li Sui's nose, and asked, "Do you understand?"
Perhaps it was because of her strong aura, Li Sui was inexplicably frightened and nodded subconsciously.
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