Chapter 184 Mizuki Private High School (Fifty-six)
In the darkness, Bei Xi opened his eyes for no reason.
She rarely had such a sudden awakening, so the first thing she did was to check on Nan Huan in her arms.
The person in my arms seemed to be extremely tired and was sleeping soundly. His body was warm, and his face buried in my chest was slightly nodded, with his breathing steady.
Bei Xi then looked around. Everything was silent. Most of the players were exhausted from the previous battle. They relaxed their vigilance and fell asleep.
Bei Xi got up from the bed quietly, checked the doors and windows, and hid behind the curtains and waited for a few minutes.
There was nothing suspicious outside the window, and there was no threat further away.
It seemed that I was too cautious. Could it be that the suction cup just now caused me to have a temporary stress disorder?
Bei Xi thought for a moment, then tucked the quilt back into the person in his arms and closed his eyes.
The beach was not far away, so Uncle Nan was naturally happy when he heard that she wanted to go out. After a while, he sent people to prepare everything. However, Nan'an did not feel that it was real.
All we know is that not long after she came up with the idea, she and Morpheus were standing on the beach.
There were not many people on the private beach. The sun was shining brightly, the sea was sparkling, and seagulls were flying low from time to time, seemingly sizing up the potential owners below.
The long coastline is winding, like a curvaceous beauty lying prone, and every lapping wave is like a beautiful woman's smile.
In such an environment, even the most depressed person will feel more open-minded.
But Nan'an's eyes were always searching for something in this beautiful scenery, and he had no time to pay attention to the magnificent view.
Has she come here with Bei Wanchao?
Why does the scenery here look a little strange?
The seaside should be a suitable place for a date. Considering my relationship with Bei Wanchao, I should have been here before. Even Morpheus said that he and Bei Wanchao had been here before.
But why do I seem to have no impression at all?
What clothes did they wear when they came here? Did they swim? Or did they sit on the beach and chat? Or did they just hold hands, step on the fine sand with bare ankles, and chat about trivial things.
These things should have been vivid in my mind, but now there is no trace of them at all.
Nan'an couldn't help but feel a little confused. Had she and Bei Wanchao really been here?
"How is it?" Morpheus had been following Nan Huan, observing her reaction. Her attitude did not seem like that of a friend, but more like that of someone facing a research subject.
Observe the impact of subtle environmental changes on the experimenters.
But now Uncle Nan was waiting in the distance with his servants, not wanting to ruin the young lady's mood of relaxation, while Nan An was immersed in his own thoughts and didn't notice it at all.
"Are you feeling better? The doctor said you should get some fresh air. It's helpful."
Morpheus let out a long sigh. The long conversation finally elicited a response from Nan'an.
"Did I really come here with Bei Wanchao?"
Nan An did not hide his doubts and asked directly what was on his mind, "Why do I have almost no memories of this place, and even less and less impression of Bei Wanchao, it's like..."
Nan'an stopped on the beach and looked at a crab of unknown species that had just shed its shell and was moving step by step into the sea with its soft shell on its back.
"The past we had together is just an illusion and doesn't exist."
Nan'an has had this feeling since she woke up. As for her impression of Bei Wanchao, her body clearly had various stress reactions, and she couldn't even control it. But her own memories seemed to be separated from her body and all sunk into the soft clouds. It seemed like there was a lot of them, but when she reached out to scoop them up, there was nothing there.
"How could that be?" Although Morpheus was surprised, he concealed it very well. "Your past must be real. Didn't the doctor say that? It's because she left suddenly and you are not used to it. It's normal to have such forgetfulness."
This is already the third level.
Morpheus had an idea in his mind. If it were any other normal player, he would not have such a feeling, but he did not expect that the eldest lady's mind was so strong, and he did not expect that her feelings for the president would be so firm.
But her original plan had already been rolled out, and it was too late to regret or adjust it now. She had become a part of the situation, and the play had to go on.
"Yeah?"
Nan'an didn't hear what the doctor said, but when he heard Murphys say that his condition was caused by a physical illness, he instinctively doubted it.
"Of course." Morpheus turned around and put on the expression of a close friend. "Besides, you have such a big reaction just by seeing her photo. How can it not be true? That's your body reminding you how much you loved each other... Hmm..."
At this point she suddenly covered her mouth, then looked at Nan An a little embarrassedly, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't bring this up in front of you. After all, Bei Wanchao has left, and you still have your own life to live."
She lowered her eyes and turned sideways to hide the expression on her face.
The silhouette he left to the other person seemed like he really felt a little guilty for accidentally bringing up Nan'an's sad story.
"No, I'm glad you mentioned her. I'd like to hear more about her. After all, I have no impression of her."
Nan'an spoke decisively to comfort him, and raised his hand as if he wanted to pat the other person's shoulder twice, but for some reason, his hand ended up just hanging in the air.
After a while, she frowned and withdrew her fingers.
Why just now, a feeling of extreme disgust flashed through my heart. Although it was very brief, it was very real.
What do you hate?
Is it Morpheus or the past with Bei Wanchao?
Nan'an had no way of telling. Morpheus had already turned back shyly, looking at Nan'an with an apologetic look on his face, "The doctor said that you'd better not think about her any more now, as this will aggravate your condition. What if you..."
This time, it was an even more urgent brake. He interrupted the conversation directly and changed the subject in a hurry, "Are you thirsty? Uncle Nan has prepared some tea over there. Do you want some..."
"What if something happens to me? Finish your words."
Nan'an frowned, as if he didn't like Morpheus's evasive style of speaking, and he even disliked her indirectness, especially when she kept talking about her illness.
But apart from feeling that he didn't sleep well, Nan'an had no other health problems.
Morpheus did not answer directly, but first raised his eyes in the direction of Uncle Nan, with obvious hesitation on his face, as if he was weighing whether to continue.
"Aren't you my good friend?" Nan An asked in a serious manner, as if he really didn't understand what the other party was thinking about. "Shouldn't you consider these things from my perspective? I want to know now."
Her face was straightforward and frank, which made Morpheus look even more hesitant.
"When you first fell into a coma, the doctor told you that the sudden death of a loved one would cause great psychological pressure on the living, but everyone handles this pressure differently."
Morpheus seemed to be convinced by Nan'an's words. After sighing, he said seriously, "Some people vent their stress outwardly, making a lot of noise and crying. When the pressure is released, people are less likely to get sick. But some people, due to their personality or because the blow is too great, can't even accept the facts. They keep everything in their hearts and even think that the person who has left is always around. After a long time, they will have hallucinations, or in the hallucinations, they will do something to hurt themselves, or follow the other person when the hallucination is shattered."
"You kept calling Bei Wanchao's name in your sleep. Uncle Nan said that you were always in a daze, staring at a certain direction in the room. The doctor said that you also have this possibility. If no timely intervention is made, one day, you might..."
If there were any third party present now, someone would notice that Murphys spoke very artistically.
In her narration, she did not introduce Nan'an from her own first-person perspective, but frequently used the words "doctor" and "Uncle Nan Nan", which greatly increased Nan'an's trust in these words.
However, Morpheus did not convey the exact meaning of the purpose she wanted to achieve, nor the deeper meaning implied in her words, but let Nan'an guess it in this way.
So she stopped talking abruptly, not because she thought there was anything wrong with Nan'an hearing what she said later, but because she needed the young lady to understand the deep meaning of these words herself.
There was a lot of information in Morpheus' words. Nan An stood there for a while before he completely understood what Morpheus meant. "Maybe one day I will follow in Bei Wanchao's footsteps and leave this world?"
Nan'an didn't seem to think this was a big deal, so she spoke in a very nonchalant tone.
Because these words were like a fuse, igniting his slow thinking.
Why had he never thought of following Bei Wanchao's footsteps before Morpheus told him these things?
She has completely left this world. It is normal for me to like her so much and follow her, but why has this thought never existed in my mind for even a second?
Is it because I don’t love her enough?
Nan'an touched his heart, which was beating faster as he thought of Bei Wanchao, and denied this answer.
Is it that I don’t have the courage to do so?
Nan'an was not sure, because when she said the answer herself, she did not feel scared. She had no blood relatives in this world, and except for Uncle Nan, who was like a relative to her and watched her grow up, she did not seem to have any pressure in life to bear.
If I really choose this path, the only one I feel sorry for is Uncle Nan.
But between letting Uncle Nan not be so sad and being able to continue to accompany Bei Wanchao, it was obvious that she still preferred the second answer, and this alternative answer did not seem reasonable either.
She has courage and loves Bei Wanchao very much, but she has never had the urge for a second to end her own life?
Nan'an instinctively lowered her head and stroked the photo in her hand. This seemed to be her instinctive reaction when she encountered a problem. She wanted to listen to Bei Wanchao's advice and wanted to rely on him, but now she could only see a photo of the other party that was frozen forever.
The person in the photo still maintained the same posture as before, but his originally bright smile seemed to have been restrained a lot.
His eyes, filled with stars, seemed to have a lot more to say, and the look he gave Nan'an became much deeper.
After a moment, Nan'an felt that he might have really gone insane. How could he have such a weird idea just by looking at a photo?
She reached out and touched Bei Wanchao's face in the photo, then raised her head and asked Murphys, "Do you have someone you like?"
This question was actually very abrupt, whether it was in relation to the topic the two were talking about before, or to Morpheus's true psychology. Her plan had finally reached the most important step, and she really had no mood to talk about other things with the young lady.
But there was no way, because her current personality was that of Nan'an's good friend. Besides, she had not expected that Nan'an would ask her this question.
I don't know why, maybe it's because she knows clearly that what she said to the young lady now, the other party will never have the chance to tell others in the future, and it seems that Morpheus is unwilling to lie on this issue.
"Yes," she answered in a monosyllabic affirmative.
Although it was the same person before and after, Nan'an was keenly aware that the Morpheus who said this seemed different from the person she had met before. However, she could not notice what was different for a while.
"I'm sorry that I need to make this assumption. If it offends you or someone you like, I apologize in advance."
Nan An turned his head and looked at Morpheus, and solemnly confirmed the topic, "What if the person you like leaves like Bei Wanchao for unknown reasons one day? Will you follow in her footsteps?"
I don’t know if it was because there was no one else around to communicate with, or maybe as a good friend, Nan’an wanted to hear her opinion, so the question was a bit rude, but very straightforward and sincere.
Morpheus' hands behind his back suddenly clenched into fists, and his long nails unconsciously left marks on the palms of his hands. Even the expression on his face turned pale because of this sudden question.
It seemed that Nan'an's question hurt a soft spot in her heart, and it also seemed that this question made her have some associations.
Nan An really didn't expect that her question would have such a great destructive effect on Morpheus. She suddenly felt sorry and waved her hands, "I'm sorry, I didn't think it through. I take back my question..."
"No," Morpheus suddenly interrupted Nan'an. The defeated expression on her face had not been completely concealed, but the determination in her eyes pierced Nan'an's heart. "I will do whatever it takes to get him back."
Nan'an was stunned at first, but after hearing the other party's last words, he smiled helplessly.
"I also want to use every possible means, at any cost, to get Bei Wanchao back," Nan An raised his eyebrows and smiled bitterly, "but you know this is simply impossible."
She thought she had gotten the other party's answer from Morpheus, but that was the other party's answer, not her own.
Nan'an's last words were spoken softly, and it was unclear whether he was speaking to Zi or to Morpheus.
But Morpheus was indeed pulled out of her emotions by the other party's words, and her face did not look good.
Because the eldest lady's sudden question interrupted her plan. She was supposed to induce the other party, but now she gave a completely opposite answer in front of the other party.
This was a serious mistake, but Morpheus knew that even if she had to do it all over again, she would answer the same way.
"Why are you asking this all of a sudden?"
In just a few seconds, Morpheus had returned to his original appearance, and put on the appearance of a close friend, "Don't tell me you have any bad thoughts. We brought you out here to relax you..."
Morpheus understood the principle of not pursuing a desperate enemy. For some things, one cannot just keep rushing forward. Instead, taking a few steps back can bring good results.
As she spoke, she reached out to pull Nan'an's wrist, "Or maybe we've been out for a long time, how about going for a drink?"
Nan'an did not respond to her first question. He just glanced at the scene where the sea and the sky met in the distance. He naturally avoided Morpheus's body movements and agreed to her request to go to Uncle Nan for tea.
Morpheus was anxious and didn't notice Nan'an's little movements at all, but she knew that she couldn't fail at this moment, so she had to hide the expression on her face and patiently accompany Nan'an back.
In the following time, Nan'an kept holding a cup of tea, occasionally looking at the scenery in the distance, then looking back at the photos around him, and never spoke again.
Morpheus was unsure of what Nan'an was thinking, and he didn't dare to show too obvious inducement or ask questions with personal emotions at this critical moment. He had to be patient and accompany Nan Huan to see the scenery, but his mind was not on this at all.
She could only take a look at the situation on the president's side when Nan'an was not paying attention.
She didn't expect that the president would be so sensitive and woke up for no reason in that situation. Fortunately, she was prepared, so the other party didn't find anything strange for the time being.
However, to be on the safe side, she still reinforced the scenario of the president with one more layer, just in case.
When Morpheus's consciousness reappeared in this scene, the time here had been accelerated by her.
The originally azure sky had been replaced by a fiery red sunset glow. The golden light shone on the sea, making people wonder whether it was morning or evening.
"Miss, it's getting dark. We should go back. If you like, can we come back tomorrow?"
Uncle Nan was happy. Although the eldest lady didn't say anything the whole afternoon, it was not easy for her to be willing to walk out of the room.
Nan'an didn't object, and the group packed up and went home.
Morpheus saw that Nan'an left something on the beach. She was stunned at first, not understanding why Nan'an had been so obsessed with the thing, but now that he was leaving, he put it down.
But in just a moment, she knew what was going on.
It seems that the seed that my words in the afternoon had planted in Nan'an's heart has not only not been removed by the other party, but has taken root and sprouted, and is growing well.
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