Chapter 357 Gan Yanyu’s hypocritical mask?

As soon as this sentence came out.

There was a visibly hint of panic across Gan Yanyu's expression.

"No, not at all."

Gan Yanyu said in a low voice.

“I’m upset.”

Lin Tian said.

Obviously, Gan Yanyu's problem this time is very obvious and realistic.

In fact, Gan Yanyu seldom takes the initiative to confide to Lin Tian about her worries about the upcoming competition.

In the beginning, Gan Yanyu would actually openly express her nervousness and uneasiness to Lin Tian, ​​but as the two of them became more and more proficient in the ensemble, she almost didn't show that anymore.

Maybe it’s because he doesn’t want to let negative emotions affect Lin Tian, ​​or maybe Gan Yanyu doesn’t want to express it.

In short, when it comes to the mentality towards the game, Lin Tian rarely hears Gan Yanyu actively confide negative emotions to her.

But this does not mean that

If Gan Yanyu didn't say it, she would be gone.

In fact, Gan Yanyu has always been very strong-willed.

She never expresses her desire for victory in words, but always puts it into practice through practical actions.

"There's no way."

Gan Yanyu sighed softly.

"I've tried very hard to adjust my mindset, but the voice in my head is really loud."

"What's that sound?"

"If we lose here, all our efforts will be in vain, our dreams won't come true, and we'll feel sorry for Grandpa."

Gan Yanyu spoke while gesturing seriously with his hands.

The girl had an innocent look on her face, but the determination in her eyes was genuine.

“.”

"Too."

After hearing this, Lin Tian finally understood the cause of the problem.

The song "Moonlight" itself is a scenery that requires one to calm down and appreciate.

What Gan Yanyu needs to do is change his mindset.

The previous narrative substitution has been transformed into one that requires stepping out of the scene and standing from a God’s perspective to present this beautiful scenery.

For Gan Yanyu, such a change breaks her inherent way of playing and may be difficult.

But it is definitely not so difficult that there is no solution.

And now, it was Gan Yanyu's inner uneasiness and anxiety that affected her, making it impossible for Gan Yanyu to extricate herself from the scene.

So, Lin Tian said that she was - upset.

Even though Gan Yanyu didn't seem to be affected by this in her life.

But the performance doesn’t lie.

Lin Tian heard the uneasiness in Gan Yanyu's piano playing.

“.”

Lin Tian took a deep breath and came in front of Gan Yanyu.

He placed his hand on Gan Yanyu's shoulder, reached along the girl's hair, and touched her neck.

The girl's body seemed to be electrocuted and she suddenly shrank her neck.

However, looking into Lin Tian's eyes, Gan Yanyu slowly straightened her neck.

"Teacher Gan, listen to me."

Lin Tian said,

"This game is not everything for us."

"Even if we lose in the semi-finals of the Longqin Cup, we still have another chance in two years. It's really okay."

"Like I said, no matter how many years it takes, I will fight with you!"

Lin Tian knew the best way now.

Just let Gan Yanyu treat this game as an ordinary game! Excessive pressure has made Gan Yanyu lose the ability to judge.

The word dream is too heavy.

Without realizing it, I have become completely tied to the competition.

“.”

Gan Yanyu didn't say anything, his eyes were slightly downcast.

"Didn't you say that?"

Lin Tian said,

"Our dream is to let more people hear our classical music. The Kerr Cup championship is certainly a good platform, but it's never a multiple-choice question, right?"

This is what Lin Tian has always wanted to say to Gan Yanyu.

This game has never been the only one.

They don't have to win the championship to realize their dreams.

Of course, they will strive for the championship.

But even if we lose, it won't be too bad.

"Even if we lose here in the semifinals, we have done enough so far."

"We broke the sales record of classical music in China, and we held the most amazing classical music concert. Aren't these very close to our dream?"

"Um."

Gan Yanyu nodded, "Yes, it's very close."

Gan Yanyu murmured, but her expression did not show relief.

Lin Tian knew that it would take time for Gan Yanyu to adjust to all this.

This may not be an easy thing to do, but Gan Yanyu must do it.

She was the only one who truly didn't care about winning or losing the game.

They can win this game! At this time, Lin Tian stood up.

"Let's go out for a walk."

"Walk?"

Gan Yanyu looked at Lin Tian in surprise.

"If you play like this, shouldn't you practice more?"

The car just overturned so badly.

If it were Gan Yanyu herself, she would definitely practice the piano all night long.

Lin Tian wanted to take her out for a walk.

There are only a few days left before the competition! "You just said that your problem now is not that you can't play the piano well, but your mentality."

Lin Tian raised his index finger and said seriously,

"Since it's a mentality problem, then you must go out and adjust your mentality!"

Go out for some fun and relax your nerves.

Maybe everything will be fine once Gan Yanyu figures it out.

"Why don't we try again?"

Gan Yanyu said weakly that she would feel uncomfortable going out in her current state.

"It's okay. You'll have plenty of time to practice again when you come back in the evening."

Gan Yanyu wanted to say something else.

Lin Tian turned his head and suddenly said mysteriously, "I found a great dessert shop in Beijing on Xiaohongshu."

Colorful and highly saturated wallpaper.

The store is decorated in a cartoon style.

Lin Tian held two ice cream cones in his hands and came to the table and chairs in the corner.

At this time, Gan Yanyu was already holding a small spoon in her hand, scooped out a piece of crystal clear pudding and put it into her mouth.

“.”

The girl held her face in her hands, her eyes curved, revealing a happy expression.

“Good times!!”

Gan Yanyu smiled sweetly, as if all her worries just now were swept away.

“I didn’t expect that Baijing has such delicious pudding. It turns out that you can only discover treasures by visiting the store offline.”

“Visit the store offline?”

Lin Tian sat down and realized the problem with this sentence, "No, you also ordered takeout?"

"Yeah."

Gan Yanyu said, "I ordered desserts from several dessert shops, but they didn't taste very good."

After saying this, Gan Yanyu immediately felt Lin Tian's somewhat unhappy look.

Thinking of how Lin Tian had recently come to Baijing and had been urging her to pay attention to her diet, eat less desserts, and be careful of a recurrence of bronchitis.

The girl adjusted her expression and said seriously,

"It would be hard not to reward myself with a pudding after the game!"

But it was hard for Lin Tian to refute this statement.

After all, he knew Gan Yanyu's habit.

After such a big victory in the preliminary round of the Longqin Cup, if Gan Yanyu hadn't been given the chance to eat, she might really have felt like "the game was won in vain."

"So when you said 'try it', how many restaurants did you order?"

“You can probably count them on your fingers.”

"Is it the fingers of one hand or the fingers of two hands?"

"Um"

Gan Yanyu's eyes began to dodge.

“There aren’t any toes left, are there?!” Lin Tian shouted.

"No, no, two hands. Two hands."

Gan Yanyu panicked, pursed her lips and started to play dumb, "After all, I wanted to try the difference between Baijing's pudding and Qingzhou's, but I ordered one and found that the taste was not good, so I suspected that I might not have ordered the right one! Then I changed to another one, and kept changing like this."

"So how many Baijing's puddings did you eat?"

"Eight."

Gan Yanyu raised her face proudly. A qualified pudding appraiser should have such a spirit of exploration.

"You want to take the postgraduate entrance exam?!"

Lin Tian was too weak to complain, so he raised his hand and rubbed Gan Yanyu's head.

"Eat less, it's really bad for your health."

"I know."

Gan Yanyu held her head and said weakly.

Lin Tian put his hand away and smiled helplessly.

Now, he sometimes gets really curious about the relationship between him and Gan Yanyu.

They are definitely not a couple, as they have always been moving within the drawn line.

Moreover, with the arrival of the Longqin Cup, the two's minds were filled with thoughts about the competition every day, and they had no time to think about anything else.

This point is in line with their original intentions.

I'm not talking about it now because I'm afraid it will affect their dreams.

As it turned out, they were very successful in implementing it.

But to say that they are just partners is even more unreliable.

Sometimes, Lin Tianzhen felt like he was Gan Yanyu's parent.

This guy always makes me worry.

But fortunately, she is very sensible, understands my difficulties, and can help me when I need it.

But sometimes, Gan Yanyu would suddenly seem like a different person.

In certain situations and at certain times, she becomes particularly proactive, like a little witch.

Often at this time, Gan Yanyu is the most confusing to Lin Tian. She always does things that make Lin Tian imagine something unrealistic, but Lin Tian dare not confirm it and just thinks he is overthinking.

Many times, Lin Tian couldn't tell whether it was the Gan Yanyu who was as obedient as a younger sister in front of him who was the real one, or the Gan Yanyu who occasionally showed initiative that surprised Lin Tian who was the real one.

In any case, the relationship between the two people seems to have been temporarily determined.

fine.

For Lin Tian, ​​they all knew that the most important thing now was his dream.

In the face of dreams, nothing else matters.

Because of this, they can now work together without any barriers and be in sync with each other, moving towards the competition.

“.”

When Gan Yanyu finished her fourth cup of pudding, she put down the spoon.

Then, his eyes became tender.

At this time, Lin Tian put down the sundae he was eating and looked at Gan Yanyu.

During the time just now, neither of them mentioned anything about the performance, but just briefly enjoyed this leisure time.

And now, he knew what Gan Yanyu had thought of after eating.

"Lin Tian, ​​do you think I'm hypocritical sometimes?"

"ah?"

Lin Tian never expected that Gan Yanyu would say such a puzzling thing. He thought Gan Yanyu would continue to discuss the cello issue with him.

"Why do you say that?" Lin Tian asked.

At this time, Gan Yanyu lowered his head with a guilty look on his face.

She whispered, "Actually, Lin Tian, ​​I know everything you said to me in the apartment just now."

"It's because I know that that I feel so uncomfortable."

“I’ve always said that as long as I can perform my music, it will be fine. In fact, even if we lose here, there are still many ways to realize our dreams.”

"But now I feel that I have to win. It's like our dream will be ruined if we lose the Cole Cup."

Gan Yanyu rested her head on the table, playing with the empty cup with her fingers. "I said it was for this and that, but my obsession with winning the game seems to be much deeper than I thought."

"I have been trying to convince myself all along the way, but I failed."

“.”

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Lin Tian was silent.

This is indeed not the first time Lin Tian has noticed this matter.

Lin Tian had felt it as early as the Star Cup.

Gan Yanyu's aura was so low after losing the game that it was far beyond Lin Tian's imagination.

Although Gan Yanyu later said that she was worried that Lin Tian would be taken away at the time, so she had such wild thoughts.

However, Lin Tian could still feel that Gan Yanyu's desire to win was not consistent with her character.

"Lin Tian, ​​do you think it's possible? Actually, my real dream is to win the Kerr Cup. I just want to win the competition and get the highest honor for the cello. Other things are not that important. I am not as noble as I think I am. So I don't feel anything at all about what you said just now."

Gan Yanyu's eyes were dim and she murmured softly, as if she was talking to Lin Tian, ​​or as if she was talking to herself.

Before I finished speaking,

Lin Tian immediately stretched out his hand and covered Gan Yanyu's mouth.

The girl raised her head and saw Lin Tian's slightly angry eyes.

"Don't say that!"

“.”

Gan Yanyu was stunned and his pupils suddenly widened.

"Fool, just because you didn't play "Moonlight", you've already started to doubt yourself?"

"No one knows you better than me! You are not that kind of person!"

"Otherwise, how could I have come all the way with you till now!"

Lin Tian was angry.

After he finished speaking in one breath, he stared at Gan Yanyu.

“.”

If Gan Yanyu is really a hypocritical person as she says, she is just using the beautiful excuse of "wanting more people to hear her music" to make excuses for her worldly goal of wanting to win the highest championship.

It is impossible for Lin Tian to follow her all the way to this day.

Because Lin Tian never participated in the competition with Gan Yanyu just to "accompany her" - maybe it was like that in the past, but it is no longer the case.

Lin Tian came here purely because——

He himself also had a dream of classical music.

He also had the idea of ​​presenting such a beautiful work to the world! Lin Tianle was happy with this dream, and he could really experience such happiness.

And all of these were influenced by Gan Yanyu.

It was Gan Yanyu who made him feel such happiness.

Lin Tian has seen it all, and no one knows it better than him.

He knew how genuine Gan Yanyu's feelings were.

She truly loves classical music, loves its beauty, and wants to give this kind of music to all people who love music.

It is precisely because of the collision of spiritual worlds.

That's why Lin Tiancai fell so deeply.

So, when Gan Yanyu said those words that he thought were hypocritical.

Lin Tian was really angry.

"If you really think so, I will write a new song right now. We will record this song "Moonlight" later and will not submit it for the competition!"

"don't want!"

Gan Yanyu grabbed Lin Tian's hand.

The girl bit her lip, her expression struggling.

Finally, he slowly loosened his hand.

"That doesn't explain why I'm like this."

"Obviously, you're right. We don't have to realize this championship dream to do those things, but I just can't convince myself."

Gan Yanyu covered her face, she really couldn't figure it out.

Why, no matter what, she couldn't suppress the desire to win in her heart.

Could it be that I have really been doing things that are contrary to my words and thoughts all along?

“.”

“No conflict.”

Just at this moment.

Lin Tian's words made Gan Yanyu raise his head.

“I think the two are not in conflict.”

Lin Tian said firmly, "Whether it is to spread classical music or to win the Kerr Cup, both are our dreams!"

"Won the Kerr Cup as well?"

Gan Yanyu had never heard Lin Tian say this before, and was a little dazed, "Isn't that championship a way for us to realize our dreams?"

"Fuck, can't that also be part of the dream?!"

"Part of the dream?" Gan Yanyu was still a little hesitant.

"What's wrong with that?"

Lin Tian cursed, “As a professional player, my dream is to become a world champion—is that shameful?!”

Dreams are not just about spreading classical music around the world, which sounds cool.

The world championship can also be part of the dream!

As a professional cellist,

If you want to win the championship that represents the world's best cellist,

There is absolutely no shame in this!

The two are not in conflict, both are dreams that Gan Yanyu wants to realize from the bottom of his heart.

Lin Tian understood.

He finally figured it out! The real culprit that prevented Gan Yanyu from playing "Moonlight".

It’s not that Gan Yanyu is too nervous or under too much pressure.

It is not necessary for Gan Yanyu to calm down and look at this game with a normal mind to solve the problem! This may be one of the methods, but it is not the only method.

She didn't need to convince herself that winning or losing didn't matter.

What Gan Yanyu really needs to let go is the guilt she feels about wanting to be the champion.

I want to win the game, I don't want to lose, I want to win! Where is this shameful?

Thinking of this, Lin Tian found it humorous.

Damn it!

Our little Gan is a top-notch cello player and has excellent performance skills. At the age of 18, he beat up those stinky old men in their twenties and thirties!

What's wrong with wanting to win a championship? Is it something shameful? If you have the ability, you should fight for it! We want to be the world's number one cellist!

Just now, Xiao Gan was still feeling frustrated because he couldn't take the outcome of the game lightly.

All of this is Lin Tian’s responsibility.

Gan Yanyu is unable to face her own heart, so she needs Lin Tian to help her.

Please!

Gan Yanyu, who wants to win the championship to prove that he is the strongest, is super handsome, okay?! Lin Tian should have thought of it earlier.

because,

"Moonlight" is such a song.

Real classical music is never an emotional massage chair, but a code book that needs to be actively decoded.

Break the stereotype that equates "Moonlight" with "aesthetics" and "healing" and restore its essence as a metaphor for the dilemma of modernity.

Just like——

The soul dancing in a mask in Verlaine's poem reflects the tearing between people's external masks and their true selves.

Only when the performer is willing to take off the hypocritical mask used for defense and face his own inner feelings.

He is qualified and capable.

A perfect interpretation of the song "Moonlight".

“.”

In Gan Yanyu's still dazed gaze.

Lin Tian stuffed an entire unfinished sundae into his mouth, and it was so cold that the ice cream almost slipped out of his mouth.

After covering his mouth with his hands and swallowing the ice cream with force, Lin Tian stood up and held Gan Yanyu's arm.

"Let's go back!"

"Where are you going?"

"ensemble!"

Lin Tian raised the corner of his mouth.

"In the game, let those old guys who are targeting us see our determination to win!"

sunny.

The sun is shining and the refreshing breeze blowing on your face is refreshing.

It's a good weather to go out.

Christine Nunnally picked up her cello and walked out of the apartment.

Just walked out of the hotel building.

In front of him, he was surrounded by a large group of bodyguards in black suits.

Everyone stood on both sides of the hotel stairs.

Bow together -

"My Lady!"

Pedestrians passing by on the road were frightened by this scene and quickened their pace. Some even thought they were witnessing a movie filming and took out their mobile phones to take pictures out of curiosity.

Nanali just glanced at him indifferently and turned to leave.

However, they came with this group of black-clad bodyguards.

There was also a black sedan.

The car stopped at the end of the stairs. Although the window was not open, the figure of a blonde woman could be vaguely seen from inside.

A white-haired old man wearing glasses got out of the car from the passenger seat and trotted up to Nanali.

Said respectfully: "(Miss, please get in the car, we will personally take you to the competition venue)"

"You're going through all this trouble to block me, just to give me a ride?" Nanali sneered.

"(this.)"

The butler never expected that Nanali would have this attitude, and he quickly said,

"(Before the game starts, my wife wants to talk to you about something)"

"No."

Nanali said, "If you have anything to say, let's talk after the game."

"The venue is very close, I can walk there by myself."

After saying that, Nunnally strode forward.

"(This. This.)"

The housekeeper was stunned for a moment.

He never imagined that the young lady who used to be obedient and well-behaved would become so bold in this Celestial Empire.

He turned his head and looked at the car, wanting to confirm the woman's condition.

However, Nanali just happened to arrive in front of the black car at this moment.

The girl just glanced inside through the blurry window.

Then, he turned around and walked in another direction.

The butler hurried to the rear window of the car.

He squatted on the ground, raised his head, slowly opened the car window, and said,

"(Miss.)"

"(Let her go.)" the woman interrupted the housekeeper.

She had a dark face and sneered as well - this expression was 90% similar to Nunnally's.

"(I really want to know who gave her such courage.)"

"(Anyway, after today's game, her journey to China should be over.)"

(End of this chapter)