Qi Nian looked at me with mixed emotions in his eyes. There seemed to be a mixture of resentment and helplessness. "You are so slippery. This way you don't have to be morally condemned, right?"
"Maybe." I avoided her gaze and lowered my voice unconsciously.
"Just hanging on like this... It's really hard to forget someone you like when you're young and in love. I didn't want to waste time on you like Yiyi and Xueqin did, but who knew you would..." After saying that, she looked at me and sighed, her eyes full of disappointment: "You ran away and scared them away again. At that time, I wanted to bite you a few times... and then let Ye Yao know who you are, but I was afraid that you would quarrel with her... Every time I saw you quarreling, you cried bitterly, and I felt very distressed... So, why bother..."
I smiled awkwardly, but there was no warmth in my smile, and raised my hand to touch my nose.
After a moment's silence... I slowly raised my head and my gaze met her eyes... The deep affection and loss hidden in them made my heart tremble.
After a long time, I reached out my hand and gently placed it on her shoulder, my fingers trembling slightly: "Qi Nian, I have let you down over the years, I..." Before I could finish my words, my throat felt sour and I couldn't say any more.
Qi Nian trembled slightly, and her shoulders shook gently under my hands. She turned her head away, and tears slid down her cheeks, dripping onto the ground, splashing small water droplets.
I once naively thought I had a clear conscience. Aside from my parents, I had never owed anyone anything.
Looking back, I realized that I was just immersed in my own world, chasing my inner thoughts... but ignored the feelings of those around me.
Even if I couldn't be with those girls, my possessiveness was still strong and almost paranoid...As long as I had a crush on any of them, I didn't want to see them have any interaction with other men.
Qi Nian gently took my hand and took me to a random place to sit down.
There was a hint of tenderness in her eyes, and she whispered, "Can you sing 'Red Rose' for me? I really want to listen to it now... I don't want to listen to 'Steady Happiness' anymore..." Her voice was soft, but it seemed to have an invisible power that made me unable to refuse.
"Okay." I took a deep breath, cleared my throat slightly, and adjusted my state.
Qi Nian held his chin with both hands and looked at me quietly, his eyes full of concentration...as if at this moment, there were only the two of us left in the whole world.
"Dreaming of dreams from which I cannot wake up, red imprisoned within a red line... The unattainable are always the most agitated, while the favored are fearless..."
After the song was finished, the lingering sound still lingered in the air.
I slowly opened my eyes, but saw that Qi Nian was already crying... tears were sliding down her cheeks... dripping onto the back of her hand.
Yes... "Those who are favored are fearless." This line is like a sharp knife... It accurately cuts through the softest part of people's hearts, revealing the emotions and helplessness hidden deep in their hearts...
Good lyrics always touch people's hearts and reveal the truth of life mercilessly.
After an unknown amount of time, Qi Nian slowly raised his head, his voice still choked with sobs. He asked softly, "How are you and that girl doing?"
I was slightly startled, my eyes dimmed instantly, and I subconsciously turned my head away. There was a hint of imperceptible loneliness in my tone: "I don't want to answer this question."
"Then I won't ask." Qi Nian didn't insist at all...just responded gently.
She is always so understanding and never forces me to do anything. No matter what decision I make, she gives me full respect.
….
The car drove slowly and finally stopped near Qi Nian's house.
Qi Nian turned her head and looked at me quietly: "Classmate Lin Yu, you can't be as willful as before, okay? You must take good care of your injuries. I sincerely hope that we will have the chance to work and live in the same city again in the future. I also hope that by then you will have grown into a truly mature man and will never be entangled again. Do you understand what I mean?" Every word she said was full of affection, like a warm breeze, gently blowing through my heart.
"Okay...but you must show up...there's no need to get wet if it's not raining." I tried hard to force a smile, trying to use this teasing remark...to cover up the reluctance and sadness in my heart.
Qi Nian nodded gently, tears glistening in his eyes, but also with a smile.
She slowly unbuckled her seatbelt, opened the car door, got out, turned around, and waved to me...
She gradually disappeared from my sight, leaving me alone sitting in the car, looking at the direction she left... and was reluctant to leave for a long time.
…
"Lin Yu, what on earth are you going to do!" Ye Yao suddenly opened the passenger door and sat in...her voice was filled with obvious anger.
I was filled with depression... I met her eyes that seemed to be able to spit out fire and sighed helplessly.
"I say, why did you suddenly come here?" I really didn't expect her to appear in this way.
"Qi Nian called me and said you were acting strangely, so I quickly took a taxi here." Ye Yao frowned and asked anxiously and worriedly, "So... what are you planning to do?"
I smiled bitterly and looked in the direction where Qi Nian left with a depressed look... This girl, after so many years, is still the same as before, always paying attention to details about my affairs... She can even notice that something is wrong with me and she even called Ye Yao over.
"Then why did she call you?" I couldn't help but mutter...I felt a little amused and helpless at her nosy behavior.
"She said she couldn't control you and asked me to do it." Ye Yao replied to me unhappily.
"Can you control me now?"
Ye Yao sat up straight, folding her arms across her chest. "Can't I control you now? Why don't you try?"
"Why do you care about me...I just want to see her and reminisce the feeling of the past." I curled my lips and muttered unhappily.
"So what? Are you done reminiscing?" Ye Yao frowned, her tone full of impatience...it seemed that she was very dissatisfied with my inexplicable nostalgia.
"No, I didn't even kiss her once." I said half-jokingly on purpose to annoy her.
When Ye Yao heard this, she reached out and grabbed my ear. Her eyes widened as she loudly demanded, "What! You still want to kiss her!"
She pulled my ear so hard that it hurt, and I looked depressed... I thought to myself: It's not like we've kissed before... why get so excited?
"So, you kissed her often back then?" Ye Yao's eyes seemed to see through me.
"No, it's unfair!" I quickly waved my hands, looking innocent, and anxiously defended myself, "Don't think too much." But I was a little panicked in my heart... afraid that she would continue to delve into it.
"How many things are you hiding from me?" Ye Yao raised her voice and then changed the subject, "What about you, Shen Yiyi, and Jiang Xueqin..."
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