Emperor Jingkang quickly agreed to my request, and I went to the northern border with the army.
When I first arrived in northern Xinjiang, life was very hard, really hard.
Maybe he was used to a life of luxury in Wangjing City, so he couldn't adapt to anything after coming here.
The northern border is very dry. When I first came here, I was fucked so hard every day that my nose bled. The soldiers in the barracks laughed at me, saying that I was as fragile as a woman, with delicate skin and tender flesh, and did not look like someone who could go to the battlefield to fight.
I was not convinced, so I fought with them. Of course, I didn't fight privately. There were rules in the military camp that soldiers were not allowed to fight privately, but they could challenge each other.
First challenge those at the same level, then challenge those above you, and then challenge your way up one level at a time.
I fought countless battles in those days, some winning, some losing. Fortunately, I had learned martial arts as a child, so my foundation was not too bad. But they didn't know that every morning when I woke up, my hand holding the gun was shaking.
I'm so tired, really so tired.
Gradually, the soldiers in the barracks with me no longer looked down on me and were willing to share some of their martial arts experiences with me. I thought everything would slowly get better.
At this time He Yinxue came again.
I don’t know how He Yinxue escaped from the Yong’an Marquis Mansion, but she came.
I really hate her, I even hope she dies on the way here.
I don't know why she followed me here. She has no worries about food and clothing in the Yong'an Marquis's Mansion, and her mother doesn't want to pay attention to her. She is just supporting her. Why did she follow me here?
So I became a joke in the barracks again. They laughed at me and said that I brought my family with me to join the army.
In their eyes, I was just a playboy who came to gain military merit. I had a lot of trouble to change their opinion of me, but now I was exposed again.
I'm too lazy to pay attention to He Yinxue, but she doesn't give up. She often sticks to me like a dog-skin plaster, which is really disgusting.
People in the military camp joked with me, saying that He Yinxue was so beautiful and that I was lucky.
But I don’t think she is beautiful. I don’t think she is even remotely as pretty as Shen Liyue.
But it was inconvenient for her to live with those military wives who washed clothes, and she refused to go back.
Later, I finally made a contribution in taking over Luancheng. General Wang allocated me a separate tent, and He Yinxue moved in with me.
I didn't want to see her or live with her, but I had no choice.
I could only sleep on the floor with a quilt spread out every day, but the temperature difference between day and night in northern Xinjiang is large, and it gets humid at night, so when I wake up, the quilt is wet.
Later I had to go back to bed, but I never touched He Yinxue once.
Because this woman disgusts me, I always think that if I don't touch her, even if I still retain a trace of innocence, it will be easier for me to face Shen Liyue in the future.
But not long after, He Yinxue told me that Shen Liyue was engaged.
Moreover, the marriage was arranged by the emperor himself, so there is no room for maneuver.
The moment I heard the news, I felt dizzy. How could it happen so quickly? Shen Liyue was going to marry Prince Yi?
If it were someone else, maybe I would still have a chance to fight for her, but the person she is going to marry is Prince Yi.
I don't even have a chance.
Later, when He Yinxue approached me again, I was drunk and mistook her for Chen Liyue, so I didn't refuse.
But I know that I am with He Yinxue only to satisfy my physical needs. I really don't like her at all.
Even after meeting my needs and waking up the next day, I still hated myself for being like that.
I thought that this was how the days would go on. I even thought that after the northern border was recovered, I would never look back to the capital. I would bring my mother over and we would settle down in Luancheng.
But the court sent Lu Xingzhou again.
Chen Liyue, oh, is now Princess Yi. Prince Yi and Princess Yi came to Northern Frontier together.
I looked at their figures walking hand in hand, and I couldn't describe the feeling in my heart.
What's the difference between Prince Yi and me? Aren't we both pampered in Wangjing City and never seen the battlefield? Yet no one in the barracks dares to discriminate against him. Everyone respects him, completely different from when I first arrived.
Why? Because he was born better than me, he was born into an imperial family.
After Lu Xingzhou came, Wang Wentian no longer valued me as much as before. Before, he would consult me about everything, but now he just gave me orders and didn't tell me anything.
It would be a lie to say that I didn't feel lost. He Yinxue asked me why I had so much free time recently, and I didn't know what to say.
Later, He Yinxue went to the Fahua Temple to burn incense and met Shi Nan, and then used Shi Nan to get in touch with the second prince. I don’t know the specific process, I only know that the second prince really came to see me.
The Second Prince said he admired my talent and promised me a lot. I knew his words were only half trustworthy, so I kept all the letters we exchanged.
I really want to make military achievements. I want to go back to Wangjing, or bring my mother over. My mother has worked hard for the Yong'an Marquisate all her life, and it's time for me to support the family.
I know that fighting among the princes is bound to be risky, but I have no way out now. The peace talks between Lu Xingzhou and the Jin Kingdom are now pending, and I should also think about my own way out.
So I made my choice.
But I failed, and the Second Prince also failed.
Before taking action, I discussed with He Yinxue how to escape unscathed, but when I saw that the assassin had failed, I don't know what happened to me, but I decided to kill Lu Xingzhou.
I hope he dies.
If he dies, the second prince will be able to ascend the throne, and my future will be guaranteed. I can also let Shen Liyue remarry. I will not despise her for having been married before, and I am willing to marry her.
So I tried, but failed.
Lu Xingzhou captured me alive, but he promised to spare my life, which was already a special favor.
But I will definitely lose my title, and I can no longer return to Wangjing, but I can take my mother out and live our own lives.
It's funny to say, I used to feel that the burden of the Yong'an Marquisate was very heavy, but now that my title is about to be stripped, I feel relieved instead.
Finally, I don't have to carry such a heavy burden anymore. I don't have to worry about the livelihoods of more than a hundred people. I don't have to struggle to support that empty shell. Just thinking about it makes me feel relieved.
Lu Xingzhou kept his promise. He really let me go and sent someone to pick up my mother.
At first, the mother could not accept this result and felt ashamed, but no one in Luancheng knew her at all, and she lived like an ordinary citizen. Over time, she got used to it.
I only heard about what happened afterwards. I heard that Lu Xingzhou became emperor, I heard that Shen Liyue became queen, and I heard that they had two more children.
They should be living well, I am doing well too.
My mother urged me to get married, but I didn't agree. I didn't want to get married anymore.
If it weren’t for Shen Liyue, I wouldn’t want anyone else.
Now there is no title to inherit, so let there be no descendants.
But at night I often stare at the moon in the sky in a daze, and I wonder what kind of life Shen Liyue is living now?
But those days are already out of my reach, forever, out of my reach.
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