Chapter 90 Xu Qingmin, Let's Get Married
On the way back, Wang Qianqian vomited twice after getting out of the car due to morning sickness.
I vomited bile.
Thinking back to how energetic Wang Qianqian used to be, in just a few months, she looked haggard and worried. It's definitely not a good thing that she can't have a good relationship; you could say she just met the wrong person.
Wang Qianqian covered her mouth and cursed, "Damn it, being pregnant is so hard."
Song Yilin handed Wang Qianqian a tissue and a bottle of mineral water: "Since it's so hard, why did you decide to go to Binzhou? Are you planning to have the baby without Gu Sinan's knowledge?"
Wang Qianqian dealt with her disheveled state and wiped away the tears in her eyes.
Try to calm yourself down.
Suppressing her discomfort, she took a few sips of water and nodded: "At my age, having my own child is quite nice."
Song Yilin couldn't offer any advice, but Wang Qianqian was an adult, and she had to take responsibility for her choices: "Get ready and get in the car."
Wang Qianqian turned to look out the car window. The city's reflection was in her eyes, but she felt that she couldn't fit into this city. She was just a passerby, even though this was the place where she grew up.
She was only there for revenge, and she was halfway there. Wang Jingjing had lost everything, her stepmother had lost everything, and her father's business was barely surviving under Gu Sinan's suppression. Things were going smoothly, but not as she had expected.
Gu Sinan did everything for her, but she couldn't feel moved. If it weren't for Wang Jingjing's provocation, she might have married her boyfriend from Yishi. Now she has fallen for Gu Sinan again, but in the end, she feels sorry for that other person, who also loved her wholeheartedly.
It wasn't because she set a trap, but because Gu Sinan set a trap for her to enter. The trap has been broken, and the people should leave as well.
Unexpectedly, she had a child, which became a source of comfort for her in her later years.
Song Yilin asked the driver to turn off the air conditioning, rolled down the car window, and turned to massage Wang Qianqian's acupoints to make her more comfortable: "You want to have a child only because it's Gu Sinan's, not because you want a child or want to be a mother?"
Wang Qianqian remained silent for a while.
"That's part of the reason, anyway, I don't want him to know I'm pregnant with his child. You have to keep it a secret for me, and you're not allowed to tell Xu Qingmin either."
"I won't say it, but as someone who's been there, giving birth alone is very, very tiring, not just physically, but also mentally. Your hormone levels drop drastically after giving birth, and many people can't handle it and become depressed. Raising a child alone means there's no one to share the joy of the child's growth, and there's no one to share the hardships with. You have to be prepared for that."
When she gave birth to Bai Guanqun, she received help from Bai Ye's family and her mother, but she still had a very hard time. Wang Qianqian was giving birth alone, and before it even started, Song Yilin had already foreseen the hardships she would face. However, she couldn't bring herself to ask Wang Qianqian to abort the child. The child was innocent. Giving birth is incredibly difficult, but a hug or a sweet kiss from the child can dispel all the bitterness in life.
Wang Qianqian's tears flowed again: "I know it will be very, very difficult for me, but I can't let myself suffer. I don't want people to point fingers and say I'm a mistress. My mother died because of the harm done by a mistress. I will never forgive Wang Jingjing's mother, and I will never forgive my father."
Song Yilin hugged Wang Qianqian tightly, listening to other people's stories while thinking about her own.
She had said before that she and Wang Qianqian were very similar. She had no choice in the past; she really wanted to live life to the fullest.
When can life ever go as planned?
After taking Wang Qianqian home, it was already past one o'clock when she got home.
She didn't have to work tomorrow because it was the weekend, so she could sleep in a little later. When she got home, Xu Qingmin was still awake.
When they got home, Xu Qingmin poured her a bottle of milk.
"Drinking some milk will help you sleep better."
Have you figured out how to resolve the conflict between you and your daughter?
Xu Qingmin gave a wry smile and sighed, "No, Yilin, raising a child must be quite difficult, right?"
At their age, it seems like everyone is focused on their children. Song Yilin shook her head, her eyes filled with sorrow: "We've already gotten through it. Women have a special skill: no matter how hard things were before, they forget the pain and the difficulties they faced. This is probably a superpower that God gave to women for the continuation of humankind. If they didn't have this ability, I guess after a woman has given birth once, she wouldn't want to have a second child."
Xu Qingmin stepped forward and hugged her: "But the fact that you can say that means your suffering has exceeded God's expectations."
Song Yilin smiled and shook her head, recalling the people and events she had encountered that day.
"In this world, who has it easy? Even if you possess wealth that others can only dream of, you still have your own hardships, don't you?"
Xu Qingmin also drank a glass of milk: "My life has been pretty smooth except for your matter."
"Xu Qingmin, is there anything you regret?"
Xu Qingmin looked at the photo of Bai Guanqun and Song Yilin on the wall; "What I regret? It's probably losing Guanqun for thirteen years and losing you for fourteen years."
What are her regrets? I don't know, there are too many, too many to even think about.
"Yilin, I'm sorry, my family has caused you distress. It won't happen again."
Song Yilin shook her head. She knew Xu Qingmin loved her very much, but in life, it's impossible to abandon one's mother for a wife. He had already moved on from his family. That was enough. The root of their problem wasn't his mother, but the gap in their social status and the 13 years they had lost.
Song Yilin patted Xu Qingmin on the shoulder: "You've done so much for me. From now on, I'll work hard with you too."
She may have to learn to face different opinions. She can choose not to care, thinking that if she doesn't marry Xu Qingmin, no one will care whether she is good enough for him. But now it seems that not only Xu Qingmin's mother thinks that way, but society as a whole thinks that way. This not only hurts her, but also her daughter.
Since we can't avoid hearing such things no matter what, let's build up our mental fortitude.
"Xu Qingmin, let's get married."
Xu Qingmin wasn't as surprised this time, after all, this had happened once before. He said indifferently, "Are you lying to me or are you serious?"
Song Yilin met his eyes: "I'm serious. You should get your prenuptial agreement notarized, and then we can find a time to get our marriage certificate. I'll give Guanqun a complete family."
As for her guilt towards Bai Ye, let him repay it slowly after he dies. She can only be nicer to her mother-in-law and great-grandmother.
She couldn't let her daughter suffer because of her debts, nor could she make her daughter suffer because she wanted a love where they were equals.
As for what she wants, she can only work twice as hard.
If this world requires compromise to achieve perfection, then let her do it.
In any case, it's much better than the past thirteen years.
Perhaps it's time to move on to the next stage of life.
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