Chapter 243 Liu Yue's Past
However, Liu Yue's shyness did not last long.
Then a feeling of panic overwhelmed her like a surging tide.
She was afraid that Lin Sinan would dislike her for not being a virgin.
When I think of this possibility,
Her heart seemed to have fallen into an ice cellar.
Cold and desperate.
Although she only had one boyfriend in college,
That was a memory of a young love.
In that relationship,
They used to travel together.
Several hotel booking experiences during the trip,
Like indelible marks engraved in her memory.
At that time, she was young and ignorant.
I thought that was all there was to love.
But now,
These past experiences stood before her like huge mountains.
This made her feel full of fear and anxiety when facing Lin Sinan.
She didn't know how to face Lin Sinan's possible disdain.
Her heart was like the sea ravaged by a storm,
Turbulent and helpless.
The possible expressions of Lin Sinan kept flashing through her mind.
Is it disgust, disdain, or indifference?
When she thought of this, tears welled up in her eyes.
She knows that in this seemingly enlightened world where traditional ideas are still deeply rooted,
A woman's chastity is still extremely important in the eyes of many people.
"Will he think I'm a frivolous woman?"
Liu Yue kept asking himself in his heart.
She tried to defend herself.
In her opinion,
Love during college is just an impulse of youth and ignorance.
Those hotel room experiences were not what she expected herself to be now.
But how could she make Lin Sinan understand all this?
If Lin Sinan alienated her because of this,
She didn't know how she could bear such a consequence.
These were all before I met Lin Sinan.
She hadn't worried at all.
Who hasn't passed?
If you get along, get along; if you don’t, separate.
But when he met his enemy Lin Sinan,
I feel like I can't leave him.
I began to worry about gains and losses,
Should I confess everything to him?
Or are you hiding it from him?
Frankly, when this idea came up,
Like a sharp lightning flash across the night sky of her heart,
It made her feel a tingling sensation.
She imagined the scene where she mustered up the courage to tell Lin Sinan everything.
What a difficult time that would be.
To share my love experience in college,
Including the details of opening a room,
Speak out without reservation.
She was afraid to see Lin Sinan's eyes change from gentle to indifferent.
She was afraid that his face, which was once full of love, would be twisted into one of disgust because of her confession.
She knew that once she confessed,
It's like putting yourself at your most vulnerable,
The most unbearable side was exposed nakedly in front of Lin Sinan.
This is nothing short of a gamble.
The stakes are the budding relationship between her and Lin Sinan.
If Lin Sinan cannot accept it,
Then she will lose him completely.
Losing the one who made her heart beat,
Someone she looks forward to every day.
This fear of loss is like a huge black hole.
It kept eating away at her courage.
But, what if we hide it?
This thought also made her heart full of entanglement and anxiety.
Hiding from Lin Sinan,
It was like a time bomb was buried between them.
I don't know when it will explode.
She didn't know if she could remain calm in the future.
Without revealing any flaws.
Every time I have an intimate interaction with Lin Sinan,
It might remind her of the secret.
Would her eyes betray her at that time?
and,
If one day Lin Sinan learns the truth through other channels,
Would he feel that he was a hypocritical and dishonest person?
If that happens, the trust between them will be gone.
She will also lose Lin Sinan.
She didn't want their relationship to be based on lies.
But concealment seems to be a way to temporarily avoid the problem.
Although this escape can bring her a moment of peace,
But it was like drinking poison to quench thirst, and the hidden dangers in the future made her dare not think about it too much.
Liu Yue's heart was wavering between confession and concealment.
She felt like she was standing on the edge of a cliff. No matter which direction she took a step,
She didn't know how to choose.
I can only struggle in this endless entanglement and pain,
Every minute and every second was a torment for her.
After thinking for a while,
Liu Yue decided to confess the matter to Lin Sinan.
Two people get along,
The most important thing is sincerity.
If Lin Sinan cannot accept his past,
After I helped him complete this project,
Just leave quietly.
Thinking of this,
Liu Yue took a deep breath.
As if gathering all the courage in my body,
Then he slowly raised his head,
He looked at Lin Sinan with trembling but firm eyes.
Her lips trembled slightly.
It's like trying to control the tension and anxiety in my heart.
It took her a while before she mustered up the courage to speak.
"Sinan, I...I have something to tell you."
Liu Yue's voice was a little hoarse.
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