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Xing Chen felt like he was about to suffocate to death before Nan Ke started talking again.
She smiled and said, "But you can't have the same idea as me."
Xing Chen couldn't tell whether he felt relieved or immediately felt unspeakable frustration.
"I have special reasons. As for you, remember to socialize and make more friends when you get to college. If you meet a girl you like, get along with her well. If you're willing, you can bring her to meet me in the future. If it's not convenient, forget it."
Xing Chen felt his heart being cut by these words, bleeding profusely.
And Nan Ke was still talking.
"But when you get married, you must invite me, unless you don't want my big red envelope anymore."
Her smile was beautiful, but cruel.
"Alas, I don't know when you will get married, and I don't know what I will be doing by then..."
Xing Chen started to have tinnitus and could not hear clearly what Nan Ke said next.
It turns out that the feeling that I had recovered from my illness just now was just an illusion.
Not only did it not get better, it seemed to have gotten worse.
He felt a little breathless.
Nan Ke noticed it and tilted her head to look at him.
"What's wrong with you? Are you feeling unwell?"
"A little..."
Xing Chen forced a smile to face Nan Ke.
Then he saw the worry and... reluctance in Nan Ke's eyes?
Almost instantly—
Xing Chen wondered if Nan Ke knew something?
Was her main purpose in saying this to reject me gracefully without hurting me? Did she sense something and want me to back off?
Xing Chen immediately looked away.
"This place doesn't seem to be very breathable."
Nan Ke looked at the progress of the infusion and said, "Can you bear it? If not, let's move to another place."
Xing Chen nodded: "It's okay."
Nan Ke urged him to eat something more.
"Maybe you're hungry." She taught Xing Chen like a parent: "No matter what happens in the future, you can't skip meals. Look how thin you are."
In fact, Xing Chen eats much more during the days he's been with Nan Ke than before.
He wanted to grow taller, to become stronger, and to be able to stand next to Nan Ke one day without anyone subconsciously thinking that they were siblings rather than lovers.
If someone misunderstands that they are a couple, he hopes that as many people as possible will misunderstand.
But Xing Chen really has no appetite at all now.
He has always been reluctant to waste food.
But I really can't eat today.
Nan Ke saw that he was really uncomfortable and stopped trying to persuade him.
Sit quietly aside and read an e-book.
Xing Chen couldn't help but look at her from time to time.
Every time Nan Ke looked over, he would quickly look away.
But one time it failed, and their eyes suddenly met in the air filled with disinfectant.
Nan Ke raised an eyebrow and asked him, "What's wrong? Are you still feeling bad?"
Xing Chen swallowed, shook his head, and asked her, "What happened today? What made you suddenly feel this way?"
When this question was mentioned, Nan Ke's expression instantly became uncomfortable.
Xing Chen's heart was in his throat, and he asked anxiously, "What did that bastard do to you?"
“No…”
Nan Ke's voice was very low.
After a moment, she sighed. "Whatever he wanted to do, it failed." She said, "I refused."
Noticing that Xing Chen didn't seem to understand what she said, Nan Ke curled her lip and teased, "No matter what, you're still a boy. You don't really understand anything, do you?"
"……What?"
Xing Chen really didn't understand anything. He didn't understand why gender was suddenly brought up.
Nan Ke had no choice but to make his words more clear.
"Men, deep down, you really agree that 'a girl agreeing to go out to the movies and dinner with me is equivalent to agreeing to have sex with me,' right?"
"Of course not!"
"Keep your voice down!"
Xing Chen was so angry that he didn't care whether he was in a public place or not.
Nan Ke scolded him softly and pulled his arm to prevent him from jumping up suddenly.
Xing Chen already understood what happened.
"That bastard...I won't let him go just like that!"
"never mind."
"impossible……"
Xing Chen gnashed his teeth in hatred.
"I mean, I didn't let him go myself, so just forget it."
Xing Chen calmed down instantly and asked her, "What do you mean?"
"I was also very angry, so I couldn't swallow this anger after thinking about it over and over again, so I told Susu. She was also furious. She knows a lot of people and has already made arrangements. In a few days, that guy will get a beating, and there is no way he will suspect me."
He can't just get beaten up, Xing Chen thought.
However, after receiving such news, Xing Chen's mood was indeed better than before.
Nan Ke seemed to have calmed down completely, but Xing Chen felt distressed.
He could imagine how disgusted, shocked, and angry Nan Ke was at that time.
"Are you okay?"
Nan Ke shook his head: "I'm fine."
She looked up at the sky and sighed: "When he said that to me, I felt disgusted. In fact, nothing happened, but I just felt harassed..."
"That's sexual harassment."
Xing Chen concluded categorically: "What he said, even the look in his eyes, made you feel uncomfortable. Regardless of whether it actually happened, it was indecent and harassing."
Nan Ke smiled, she was very relieved: "I am very happy that you have such awareness."
She touched Xing Chen's head as if comforting a big tiger.
"I'm fine now. It's a good thing to see a person clearly this way, isn't it? If he'd been smarter and more patient, the longer it took, the greater my losses would have been."
Xing Chen deeply agreed with this and believed that this result was indeed a good thing.
He couldn't imagine that in the future there would be a man who was not worthy of Nan Ke standing by her side.
He is better at concealing things, more patient, and more adept at telling lies than the one today. He lurked for a long time to trick her into his trap, and then hurt her severely.
If a beast like that can have a chance, why can't the man next to her be me?
Maybe because of the fever, Xing Chen suddenly felt a sore throat.
"Nan Ke."
He couldn't help but call out Nan Ke's name.
"Um?"
Those beautiful eyes looked over.
"I never agree with that kind of talk. Those who do agree with it are bastards and beasts."
Nan Ke smiled: "I know, you are different from that kind of scum."
She also apologized to him: "I shouldn't have said that to you just now. He is no match for you. You shouldn't be lumped in with him."
"I don't mind that."
Xing Chen said: "I want you to know that I have never thought about it that way."
He likes Nan Ke very much.
He longed to be Nan Ke's recognized boyfriend, to stand beside her openly, to be liked by her, and to receive her unique gaze.
He never thought of deceiving Nan Ke. He didn't expect temporary pleasure with her.
Xing Chen has always been very clear that he wants to be with Nan Ke for the rest of his life.
But saying this might scare her.
Xing Chen hated the age difference between himself and Nan Ke.
I met the person I love most at an age when people don’t believe me when I say I love you.
At this stage, the love he expresses seems very cheap.
"I know."
Nan Ke touched his head again.
Xing Chen looked into her eyes.
The gentle gaze that fell on him burned his soul very hot.
Xing Chen realized a long time ago that his love for Nan Ke might hurt her.
But after today's nightmarish experience, he felt that if he continued to hide this love, Nan Ke might be hurt by others.
Those people were not him.
I won't love the person in front of me like he does.
Even if she doesn't acknowledge your love or doesn't believe in you, speak it out and let her start considering you.
"I like you."
Xing Chen's voice was very soft, and he was not sure whether he made any sound at all.
However, after seeing Nan Ke's pupils dilate instantly at such a close distance, Xing Chen was sure that he had really said it.
At the same time, Xing Chen realized that Nan Ke was not completely ignorant.
Although I don’t know when.
But she had discovered this fact before.
Because there was not only shock but also panic in Nan Ke's eyes, and she was trying her best to find a way to cover up the matter.
She pretended not to hear at first.
Trying to give him another chance to make amends.
"I said, I like you."
Xing Chen did not accept this opportunity and repeated it seriously.
Nan Ke's chest heaved up and down, and from then on she became the one having difficulty breathing.
She could barely maintain her smile; it was forced.
"What do you mean?"
She was still giving Xing Chen a way out.
Xing Chen seemed to hear Nan Ke's thoughts.
Go down, don't say anything more, don't explain, don't repeat, just act like nothing happened.
If there was a better choice, Xing Chen didn't want to confess to her so hastily here today.
If possible, Xing Chen hopes that she has prepared a bouquet of flowers in advance, hopes that there is no pathetic stubbornness in her eyes, and hopes that everything will go on naturally.
But at this moment there is nothing.
There are no ifs in the world.
The place for confession was the hospital.
The reason for confession is unwillingness and fear.
"It was my fault."
Xing Chen said, "In the beginning, I really just wanted to see you as a kind sponsor. I know I shouldn't have fallen in love with you, but perhaps this was the outcome when we first met."
Nan Ke's eyes were full of sadness, and anger at him for not fighting back.
She said, “You really shouldn’t.”
Xing Chen's heart was hit by a hammer.
He was hit so hard that he saw stars and was staggering.
Fortunately, I can still speak.
"sorry."
Xing Chen said: "But I really like you."
I don’t know if Nan Ke said anything.
He didn't have the chance to know.
After saying the last word, Xing Chen lost his strength and fell off the chair, falling to the ground amid Nan Ke's exclamation.
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