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After his first confession failed and he was humiliated, Xing Chen avoided Nan Ke for a whole week.
He no longer asked her whether she would come home for dinner in the evening, but instead prepared meals in advance.
If Nan Ke hadn't moved that day, he would eat the leftovers continuously to finish them off.
He no longer considered himself the master, but quietly became a temporary resident.
He cleaned the house more diligently than before, and briefly forgot Nan Ke's advice and found a part-time job.
He seemed to know that what he did was wrong, and Nan Ke would definitely be angry if he knew, but he still did it.
Xing Chen thought with self-loathing, maybe he just wanted to use this method to make Nan Ke talk to him actively and go back to the time when she cared about him before.
But in fact, this embarrassing situation was caused by myself.
It’s not Nan Ke’s fault that she doesn’t like herself.
She never touched the meals prepared for her every day, but she still prepared them on time every day.
Nan Ke doesn't go home most of the time, and even if he does, it's very late.
When I went to school the next day, Nan Ke was still sleeping, and the two of us had no chance to meet.
That period was the darkest moment in Xing Chen's life.
It was a time he never wanted to recall again.
But we have to admit that some things cannot be built without destruction. If we want to reach our destination, we must experience all the scenery along the way.
After autumn, the temperature difference between day and night increased. Xing Chen felt the pain of being ignored day after day, and was also worried about whether Nan Ke remembered to put on more clothes in time and whether he would catch a cold.
He began writing notes to Nan Ke and sticking them on the refrigerator.
But unfortunately, from the first day he wrote the note, Nan Ke never came back.
Xing Chen panicked.
I still remember that time when I fainted in the hospital due to a fever and had just finished the three-piece confession. When I woke up, Xing Chen was not surprised to see Nan Ke's face.
She silently helped him to go through all the procedures for the hospital, brought him food and clothes, and forced him to stay in the hospital for three days.
After returning, Nan Ke suggested that they needed to have a good talk.
But Xing Chen refused.
He knew that the main point of the conversation was that there would be no place for him in Nan Ke's future, and Nan Ke also wanted to clearly separate his future from his.
Xing Chen didn't want to face that cruel consequence while awake.
In the stupidest way—
Escape from all problems.
Nan Ke did not give up and persisted for two days, but that was all he did.
Xing Chen will always remember what she said while leaning against the door frame of her room.
"You're still young and haven't interacted with many people. The dividing line between you and me isn't clear, which has led you to deify an ordinary person like me. But when you think about it later, you'll realize I'm not worthy of your affection."
Xing Chen remembered every one of her soft sighs.
"Xing Chen, I can cut off all ties with many people in this world and never contact them again, but I don't want to do that with you. I can't be friends with my ex, and I don't want to agree to you now and become a stranger to you in the future."
Those words entered Xing Chen's ears without missing a word. No matter how much he resisted, he still heard the rejection spoken by Nan Ke himself.
His eyes were red and he sat on the edge of the bed with his head down, crying silently.
When I looked up, I found that Nan Ke had left without me noticing.
Xing Chen thought his behavior was shameful, and perhaps that was how Nan Ke saw him.
Trying to sell her beauty and body in exchange for longer-term protection.
Nan Ke left her home, her house, and Xing Chen became a shameless sojourner.
In order to get Nan Ke's attention again, he deliberately made Nan Ke angry, worked part-time, left early and came back late, avoided her and refused to talk.
But Nan Ke was not angry, she completely ignored him.
But I haven't forgotten to transfer living expenses to him.
In more than half a year, Nan Ke was free.
Xing Chen once thought darkly, what if he didn’t get into university?
Based on his usual performance, Nan Ke would definitely think that it was an accident with an extremely low probability.
Then they still have one year to be together...
But no. That idea was too dirty.
The starting point of this matter has been tarnished. Nan Ke is willing to help him, isn't it just to enable him to get into university as he wishes?
He was thinking of coveting her and deliberately deceiving her. Xing Chen couldn't do that.
Unable to wait for Nan Ke to come home, I plucked up the courage to call her, but her phone was turned off.
Xing Chen couldn't wait and went to her school first.
Then I was shocked to find that Nan Ke had not been to school for a month.
She registered under the name of a teacher's studio and asked for leave in the name of going to the mountains to collect materials and create works. The group set off with seven or eight people.
Nan Ke’s roommate asked him who he was.
Xing Chen was silent for a long time and said that he was Nan Ke’s younger brother.
The identity that he once rejected so much.
Now it has become the last connection between him and her.
Xing Chen returned home covered in dust and dirt, not knowing whether the trip to collect folk songs was real or not.
She hasn't been to school for a month, but she still came back to stay from time to time a while ago.
Xing Chen still called Nan Ke's cell phone, but got no response.
In the end, he was unable to contact Su Shuo.
Su Shuo's phone call was connected.
"Collecting folk songs? It seems like that happened, but I don't know the details."
Xing Chen asked anxiously: "Is she at your house now? Has she contacted you?"
Fortunately, Su Shuo's emotions sounded relatively stable.
"She's not with me, but don't worry. She seemed to be busy painting some time ago, but these days... you can't contact her. She must have gone home."
Xing Chen was stunned. "Go home?"
He never thought that Nan Ke would be related to these two words.
But if you think about it simply, you will understand.
Xing Chen no longer has a home and is living in Nan Ke's house. They have spent the New Year together in the past two years, so he tacitly assumes that Nan Ke has no family.
But that's not the case.
Nan Ke has a home.
She is different from herself.
Xing Chen didn't know what to say, but he was unwilling to hang up the phone.
"If I go home, why can't I get in touch with you?"
Su Shuo said, "It shouldn't be that you can't contact her all the time, right? We chatted yesterday, but she didn't say much. Did you contact her yesterday?"
Xing Chen couldn't open his mouth.
Fortunately, Nan Ke is Nan Ke. If it were Su Shuo, he would have been kicked out early for his series of actions that rebelled against Tian Gang.
Without waiting for an answer, Su Shuo understood.
"Don't worry, it's okay. If you're really worried and don't want her to know, I'll tell you quietly when I can contact her."
Xing Chen thanked him quickly, but he was still not satisfied.
"Sister Susu, is there any other way to confirm her current condition? I'm really worried."
Su Shuo was silent for a moment.
"Or...you can also go to her house and see her. I can give you the address."
Xing Chen's heart was lifted.
"Is that okay? She...she barely talked about her family."
Xing Chen didn't even know that Nan Ke had family in this world.
What would Nan Ke think if he rashly broke into her restricted area?
"It's okay. You just want to check on her condition and avoid being discovered by her family. You're a smart person, so you should be able to figure it out."
Su Shuo hung up the phone decisively and sent a string of addresses.
Xing Chen checked on his mobile phone and found out that it was a villa area.
Just when he was thinking that he would not be able to get in, Su Shuo sent another string of messages.
He said that if anyone questioned him, he should just say that he was looking for Miss Su, No. XX, Row XX, and tell the security guard that they had made an appointment in advance.
Su Shuo said that he had already informed the servant at home and asked him to leave immediately after confirming Nan Ke's condition and not to cause trouble.
Xing Chen had never felt such a strong affection for Su Shuo as he did at that moment.
He expressed his gratitude profusely and sent out a long list of words of thanks.
Su Shuo just responded with a simple expression.
Xing Chen deliberately changed into a new set of clothes that Nan Ke had bought for him before, and then headed towards the unknown address.
On the way, he kept thinking about what Su Shuo reminded him.
"Although I'm not sure whether Nan Nan's parents know about your existence, whether they know or not, you must hide your identity. You must never appear in front of them openly and tell them that you are living with Nan Ke. That will cause big trouble."
Xing Chen kept this in mind.
Even if he lived with Nan Ke under the false identity of being his cousin, it was not appropriate.
What's more, their relationship is so strained now.
It is even more impossible for him to joke about Nan Ke's reputation.
Even though they both knew in their hearts that nothing had happened between them... almost nothing had crossed the line.
Before his secret crush was exposed, the two of them had always been harmonious, like good roommates.
Thanks to Su Shuo's help, entering the community was not difficult.
Xing Chen was trying to identify the address in the dark, but before he found the exact location, he saw that familiar figure.
Nan Ke was sitting dejectedly in front of a fountain with his head lowered.
Xing Chen looked at her from a distance for a long time and found that she was crying.
He raised his hand to wipe away his tears from time to time, looking extremely embarrassed.
Xing Chen's heart tightened.
He wasn't sure if Nan Ke had his own reasons for doing this, but he thought there was.
No matter who hurt her and made her sad and cry alone, I also have an unshirkable responsibility.
It was already autumn, and Nan Ke was not wearing a coat. Even from such a distance, Xing Chen could almost hear her sniffling.
She must be cold and tired.
Xing Chen walked up to her and put his coat on her.
He could clearly feel Nan Ke's body stiffen for a moment, and then she looked up at him.
"Xing Chen?"
Nan Ke frowned: "Why are you here?"
Xing Chen sat beside her in a single layer of clothing.
I wanted to be polite and maintain a proper social distance, but my body's instinct was to get closer and closer to her.
He was struggling.
"I couldn't contact you, and I was very worried. I asked Su Shuo, and she said you..."
After thinking about it, I decided to tell the truth.
"...She said you went home. She originally didn't want me to come over, but I asked her to give me the address. I wanted to come and see you and make sure you were okay."
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