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Unfortunately, it's too late.
Nan Ke had no choice but to let Xing Chen decide the time and place.
"Okay, see you at home at five?"
Nan Ke replied with an "OK".
After putting down the phone, Su Shuo had already started making dumplings.
Nan Ke told her the current situation.
Su Shuo nodded casually, then turned to look at Nan Ke and asked her, "How are you going to explain it to him?"
Nan Ke thought for a moment and replied, "Tell me the truth?"
As soon as she finished speaking, she felt that it was not appropriate. "No, Xing Chen likes to think too much. Anyway, nothing happened. Why not... tell him that our relationship is not that complicated..."
Su Shuo no longer had any feelings about what happened between them. He just told Nan Ke that no matter what, it was enough for her to remain rational.
These words left Nan Ke stunned for a while.
She never thought that one day she would become "irrational" because of Xing Chen.
She thought that compared to Xing Chen, she was the more mature one.
However, after meeting Xing Chen, Nan Ke regained this understanding.
Only one night and one day had passed, and Xing Chen looked much more haggard.
The whole person exudes a sense of listlessness and looks extremely depressed.
"Did you stay up all night last night?"
"Asleep."
Seeing Nan Ke's inquiring eyes, Xing Chen dodged a little, then changed the subject and said, "...it's just that it was hard to fall asleep, and I really didn't sleep for very long."
Nan Ke didn't say anything. Xing Chen quickly touched his face and asked her, "Do I look haggard?"
"A little."
Nan Ke didn't tell the truth. She had noticed that Xing Chen himself didn't care much about his personal image, but in front of her, he cared about it very much.
"I'm sorry..." Xing Chen apologized subconsciously.
Nan Ke chuckled, which made him freeze.
The two of them exchanged glances, and Nan Ke's smile seemed somewhat contemptuous. She asked, "You didn't take good care of yourself, so why are you apologizing to me? What kind of apology is that?"
Xing Chen's face was pale.
He couldn't answer.
Nan Ke felt bad again.
She took a deep breath and got straight to the point: "You saw the portrait I painted of Quan Xiu in the studio, so that's why you've been acting so abnormally lately, right?"
Xing Chen's pupils suddenly constricted, his lips trembled twice, and he didn't say a word.
He didn't know whether to answer or not, whether to answer "yes" or "no", he didn't know which one would bring about an irreversible ending.
"It's my fault for not telling you in advance. I knew if I told you in advance, you would definitely think too much, but I didn't expect you would still know."
Nan Ke paused, looked into Xing Chen's eyes and said softly, "He and I don't have the kind of relationship you imagine. We are far from developing to that point."
Xing Chen's eyes sparkled as he asked her, "Will it develop to that point?"
Nan Ke shook his head and answered decisively without hesitation: "No."
Xing Chen didn't show any sign of relief, but he did send out that signal.
"If you're going to give up what you really want to do and abandon yourself to be around me because of him, then there's no need to do that."
Xing Chen stared deeply into Nan Ke's face. "You don't like him, do you?"
Nan Ke really wanted to say "of course" decisively like before, so that maybe she could completely resolve the knot in Xing Chen's heart, but she didn't want to lie to him.
"My feelings towards him are probably like those towards a younger brother of a relative you don't interact with very often. Since you know him, you should know his current situation and what he's been through. I can't help but feel sympathy for him."
Seeing Xing Chen frowning slightly, Nan Ke sighed softly.
"It's really just like this. I don't want to lie to you. At first, I was confused about my feelings for him, but now it's very clear. Nothing happened between him and me."
Xing Chen didn't say anything, and Nan Ke was silent for a long time.
Seeing that the other party didn't seem to have any intention of speaking, she spoke again: "I don't know if you are satisfied with my explanation, but now... let me tell you about my story with you."
Xing Chen looked up at her.
Nan Ke pursed her lips and asked him, "What do you think we should do?"
Xing Chen's eyes flickered and he looked more and more sad. Nan Ke knew that he was imagining a lot of nonsense again.
She explained, "It's actually a good thing to talk it out now. Xing Chen, I don't want to break up with you, but I've noticed that you've almost lost yourself since you were with me, and that's not what I want to see. If you continue like this, breaking up is only a matter of time."
"sorry……"
It’s still these three words.
Nan Ke sighed, "It's my responsibility to make you feel insecure, but why... is it always you who has to apologize? Do you realize that?"
Xing Chen's Adam's apple slid up and down. "I will go back to school to continue my studies. Please don't say those two words again, okay?"
Nan Ke also felt very uncomfortable.
"Xing Chen, I'm not forcing you to do anything. I hope you can be completely yourself. Even without me, you can still be complete."
Xing Chen seemed a little confused.
Nan Ke understood that before he met her, he had his own self and goals.
But ever since they met... no, to be more precise, ever since he confirmed his feelings for her, he has set his life goals on her.
Nan Ke wanted to gently say some more words of advice to him, so that he could remember his original intention when they met.
But suddenly someone called her, it was an unfamiliar number.
"Sorry, I don't know who it is. Let me pick it up."
In order to prevent Xing Chen from getting suspicious, Nan Ke showed him the screen of his mobile phone.
"Hello."
Nan Ke greeted him and he spoke hurriedly. After hearing what he said, she was stunned.
"What's the situation now?"
Nan Ke's tone was too nervous, and Xing Chen couldn't help but think too much, and kept looking at her intently.
"Okay, I'll be right there."
Nan Ke didn't know what the other party said again, and his expression became gloomy.
"Okay, if you need any help, just ask."
After two seconds, Nan Ke hung up the phone and sighed deeply.
Xing Chen couldn't help but ask, "What happened?"
"It's Quan Xiu's brother. He said he took the wrong medicine and was sent to the hospital for gastric lavage. He won't eat well and hopes I can go see him and give him some advice."
Only then did Nan Ke realize that she was indeed wrong. Why did she think that this was a good opportunity for Xing Chen to find himself again?
Both of them became so unhappy because of her.
Xing Chen looked at her and asked, "Do you want to go? I can go with you."
He paused and added, "If it's not appropriate for me to meet him, I'll wait for you outside."
After this happened, Xing Chen understood Nan Ke's inner torment better than anyone else.
"Need not."
Nan Ke rubbed his face and looked very depressed.
"He must have suddenly discovered that his brother was talking to me, and he immediately agreed to cooperate with the treatment and didn't want me to go. His brother said, 'I can go see him when the time is right.' Fortunately, his condition is stable now."
Xing Chen nodded and asked her, "How could you take the wrong medicine? Was it him..."
"I don't know. His brother was vague about it."
Nan Ke's heart was in a mess.
Did I make Quan Xiu sad?
Would Quan Xiu be so fragile that he would have thoughts of suicide just because he was rejected by himself?
Xing Chen saw her lost in thought, licked his lips, and said, "Actually, I've seen him."
Nan Ke suddenly looked up at him and suddenly realized that they had indeed met before, just downstairs from her home.
Xing Chen knew what she was thinking and denied it, "It wasn't that time. He contacted me first and we met once."
Nan Ke widened his eyes slightly.
Xing Chen filled in the part that Nan Ke didn't know.
He finally said, "Maybe he's upset because I can't get over it, not because you rejected him."
Nan Ke closed his eyes and sighed.
Opening her eyes, she looked at Xing Chen and said, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you."
Xing Chen looked at her and nodded slightly, "I know that you are the person in this world who most wants me to be happy."
The next day, Xing Chen told Nan Ke that he had withdrawn all job applications and planned to continue moving forward according to his previous plan.
Nan Ke didn't know whether his behavior was due to his own rejection or because he had found himself.
For the time being, she didn't care what Xing Chen was thinking. She was very worried about Quan Xiu's situation.
Xing Chen naturally saw it and told her not to worry, comforting her that no news was the best news.
Life seemed to be back on track. A few days later, Quan Xiu's brother contacted Nan Ke and asked her if she could visit him before he was discharged from the hospital.
Of course Nan Ke said there was no problem.
She asked for a suitable time and bought a bouquet of flowers in advance.
She also told Xing Chen, who offered to drive her there.
Nan Ke nodded in response, and Xing Chen said, "I'll be waiting for you in the car. If you don't see me when you come out, call me."
Quan Xiu's hospital gown was dangling, and he looked too thin.
It seems that no one is having a good time during this period.
When Quan Xiu's brother saw Nan Ke, his expression was somewhat indescribable. He said to Quan Xiu, "Miss Nan Ke is here, you should cheer up."
After hearing this, Quan Xiu suddenly felt like he was fully charged. He sat up and turned to face the door.
Nan Ke called him and saw the other person's eyes light up very clearly.
"Nannan, you're here? I don't want my brother to disturb you. I told him not to let you come over..."
"Why are you so thin? Didn't you eat well?"
Quan Xiu's brother nodded to her and left. Nan Ke sat down on the edge of the bed.
"It smells so good, did you bring me flowers?"
"Well." Nan Ke handed the bouquet to him and said, "You haven't answered my question yet."
"No appetite."
Quan Xiu pursed his lips, looking extremely aggrieved.
Nan Ke didn't say anything. He quickly said, "I don't know what my brother told you. I didn't commit suicide. I really took the wrong medicine by accident."
He adjusted his hospital gown and said, "I lost my appetite because I was sick, so I lost weight."
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