This was probably a case of trying to be cool, mainly to look cool. Honestly, I didn't really care why she was crying; I simply thought it was cool, like something out of a movie, and I was imagining it like crazy. (Hakiyo was actually born out of this mentality.)
But the girl didn't say anything, she just kept crying and crying. I thought to myself that I was a good person, so I stayed with her. After all, it was dark there, and there were not many people around, so it didn't feel very safe.
Later she stopped crying and started chatting with me casually. I later learned that she was a freshman at Henan University and was crying because of some family problems (her father was in debt and someone was causing trouble at home).
In the end, we got to know each other slowly and fell in love with each other.
At that time, really, I didn't even dare to hold hands with her when we walked on the street. If she put her arm around me, I would pull it away immediately, like a wimp.
A year passed like this. Since we were in different places, I would go to Kaifeng to see her whenever I had time, and feed her entire dormitory.
However, suddenly, for a period of time, I felt that she began to become a little cold and sometimes she didn't reply to my messages.
I was very panicked at the time, so I asked her roommate and best friend privately. Because her best friend had received a lot of benefits before, she told me the truth after I promised to keep it confidential - my first love has been very close to a senior recently, and they often have dinner together.
At that time, I really felt like the sky was falling.
Later, we started to quarrel over some trivial matters, and in the end she unilaterally deleted all my contact information.
I felt bad for a long time. Later, a junior girl, who was my second girlfriend, started to care about me frequently. Maybe it was also to move on from the relationship, so I got together with her.
It was sweet like this for more than a week. Suddenly, one night, my first love came to my school, asked me to go out, and said he had something to tell me.
I was really conflicted at the time. She said she wouldn't leave unless I came out. I was a pure indecisive idiot, so I went to see her.
As soon as we met, she squatted down and started crying.
It was just like the first time we met, the sense of déjà vu was so strong.
She said she was wrong and shouldn't do that, and she insisted on getting back together with me.
I definitely wouldn't agree at first, but she insisted on crying like this at around two in the morning. To be honest, I really shouldn't have been soft-hearted at that time.
But it was my first love after all, and after a year of relationship, I finally couldn't bear it anymore, so I agreed to get back together (you can call me a scumbag here, I admit it).
But I didn't know how to tell my second boyfriend, so I hesitated and struggled for several days. Finally, I had no choice but to confess (I was two-timing during this period, which I found disgusting, so I can criticize it as I please. Therefore, when I wrote about the protagonist's indecision, I felt very involved and it was very difficult to write.)
The result was that I got back together with my first love, but I found that I couldn't treat her as selflessly as before. I always felt a little uncomfortable.
Just like that, in the end she used some very excessive emotions and spent two hours driving me crazy. I was so angry that I scolded her. It turned out that it was originally her fault, but because I scolded her, it became my fault... She kept holding on to the fact that I scolded her, and started a fight.
This is also the source of a plot in the Public Service Department in the novel.
After the incident, Haki became single.
So...how should I put it...never mind, everyone has their own story.
What Haki realized is
——Volume 3: "Gentleness is a Sin"
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