I subconsciously touched my waist; the marionette Yang Sisi had given me yesterday was still hanging there. A pang of sadness struck me, so I frowned and lit a cigarette. Taking a deep drag, I asked her, "How much do you really know about the background of Yang Sisi's trip to Dali?"
"I don't quite understand what you're saying?"
“I think you’re testing me, and I sense that you two have a lot of contact in private, so you must already know about what happened today.”
Ye Zhi smiled, which was rare for her, and replied, "I can tell you're a very sensitive man."
“It’s not sensitivity, it’s keen awareness. I’m very concerned about this matter right now, so when you suddenly mentioned Yang Sisi to me and asked me to contact her, I couldn’t help but make a lot of connections.” After I finished speaking, I looked at Ye Zhi with concern. If she had contacted Yang Sisi, she would definitely know from her what choices Yang Sisi made after this incident. And I am indeed concerned, but I don’t want to take the initiative to contact Yang Sisi, after all, we had such a bad argument at noon.
After a brief silence, Ye Zhi replied, "I know about what happened today. I contacted Sisi."
"How is she?"
"Let's put aside what happened to her for now and talk about what you did."
I took a deep drag on my cigarette, then squinted and stared at the opposite shore for a long time.
Although I haven't been to the other side yet, I know that's Xiaguan. Cheng Ge and Li Jie told me that Xiaguan has the strongest and most famous winds, so I instinctively felt that the lights there were also shimmering, turning into beams of light that reflected in Erhai Lake, creating an unreal feeling. And in this unreality, the rights and wrongs we encountered seemed to be of little importance.
Perhaps, living is a particularly false proposition. Like Wang Lei, she did so many good deeds during her life, yet even after her death, many still gossip about her being a prostitute. What difference does it make between right and wrong, good and evil? We simply live forever in the mouths of others, while very few truly try to understand us.
I finally met Ye Zhi's gaze and replied, "I don't think there's anything wrong with what I did. Although Dali is a good place, it's not suitable for Yang Sisi to stay here at this stage. If one day she can stand at your level and come back as an investor, I think no one will oppose her then. So before that, studying abroad is a pretty good option."
"You care about her a lot, but you also deceived her."
"So what?"
“If she didn’t care about you, she definitely wouldn’t have done anything. But she cares about you quite a bit, which is why she feels that your deception of her is an insult. I think she at least considers you a friend, and you shouldn’t have treated her like that.”
I looked at her again and felt that behind her beauty, she seemed to have a deep understanding of human nature. However, because I still felt a little angry about Yang Sisi's willfulness, I still stubbornly replied, "With her active personality, she can become friends with anyone."
Ye Zhi looked at me with some disappointment. I flicked my cigarette ash and lowered my head. What I could see was no longer Erhai Lake and "Majiuyi" shrouded in night; all I could see were my own white sneakers and Ye Zhi's purple sandals. They formed a world of opposites in my senses.
Ye Zhi stood up, preparing to leave.
My heart tightened, and I called out to her retreating figure, "Did Yang Sisi stay in Dali, or did she go back to Shanghai?"
"If you can still contact her, don't ask me this question."
After Ye Zhi finished speaking, she didn't linger. Her slender figure disappeared into the crowd, bypassing the vendors' stalls. After I could no longer see her, I lit another cigarette.
At this moment, my heart is filled with a lonely feeling of being unwelcome. I ask myself: Have I really become numb to real life, which is why I have become somewhat heartless? Now, it seems that I am only weighing the right and wrong of things from the perspective of advantages and disadvantages.
When I looked up again, it was as if I saw a hideous version of myself reflected in the mirror-like surface of the water.
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