...
Five minutes later, I tried sending Yang Sisi a WeChat message again, but she didn't reply. She probably had already boarded the plane... I lay half-reclined in my chair, my mind filled with the scenes I had experienced with Yang Sisi over the past six months.
I'm heartbroken, but I can't deny that her leaving the country so quickly was largely due to my actions...
I thought this was her life... But now, my expectations have been fulfilled, yet I feel no joy at all. All I see is an endless wait, everything seems so far away...
Five minutes later, for the first time in my life, I posted a WeChat Moments update related to Yang Sisi... I simply said "Goodbye".
We may not need to see each other again, but she must live a good life!
And that is my greatest expectation for her.
...
I sat in the chair, staring blankly out the dark window for a while, and then fell asleep... so much so that I didn't know how much time had passed when I heard a knock on the door.
The door opened, and standing outside was Cao Xiaobei, a cigarette between his fingers, his expression complex.
I asked listlessly, "What's the matter? Why are you looking for me so late?"
"Let's fight, right now."
I'm used to his neuroticism. I just looked around the room and replied, "No, it's too small. I can't even unleash my full power with the Eighteen Subduing Dragon Palms."
"Do you think I'm joking with you?...I'm not fucking joking..."
Before Cao Xiaobei could finish speaking, I grabbed his right hand and pinned it tightly behind his back, saying fiercely, "If you're not joking, then I'll strike first."
"You fucking bastard... If you've got the guts, let's fight openly!"
"With your build, I'm afraid I'd accidentally kill you in a fight... So, what's wrong with you calling me late at night?"
"I'm just so angry, I want to beat you up, you idiot."
"Well, you've certainly made progress. You didn't call for dozens of people; you dared to come all alone... But I just don't understand. I earn my money through hard work, eat coarse grains, and live a law-abiding life. Why are you always looking down on me? Do we have some kind of grudge from a past life that we haven't settled yet?"
"We had no grudge in our past lives, but we do in this one... You fucking let go of me, today it's either you or me who dies."
"I understand now, I can't survive no matter what, right?"
As I spoke, I released Cao Xiaobei… But Cao Xiaobei suddenly slumped down. He sat on the steps, then pulled out a cigarette, lit it, and after a long while said, “Sisi is gone… really gone… I fucking don’t know why…”
At this point, he looked up at me and then said angrily, "Knowing she's gone, I'll think of you, you piece of trash... You're the one who 'forced' her to leave."
"Which eye of yours saw that I 'forced' her to leave?"
Cao Xiaobei yelled at me, "This doesn't need to be seen with your eyes... You know it better than anyone else in your heart."
"I don't understand... but if you really want to fight me, don't choose tonight... I'm in a bad mood and I'm afraid I won't be able to control myself."
Cao Xiaobei threw away his cigarette and clenched his fists so tightly they cracked.
I turned around and went back into the house, then took out two bottles of Lao Cun Zhang from the refrigerator. I handed one of the bottles to Cao Xiaobei and said, "There are many ways to vent. I think drinking is more manly than fighting... If you're really tough, drink me under the table right now."
Cao Xiaobei took it from my hand.
I unscrewed the bottle cap first, tilted my head back and drank half the bottle in one gulp, then smacked my lips and said to Cao Xiaobei, "There's plenty of wine in the room... It's your turn... Whoever collapses first is a coward."
...
This rainy night was darkly humorous. I couldn't keep Ye Zhi, but I ended up attracting Cao Xiaobei... This guy's alcohol tolerance is really bad. He only drank two 125ml bottles of baijiu with me before passing out.
I settled him in his room and went to the room next door.
But when I actually lay in bed, I couldn't sleep. I thought of Ye Zhi and Yang Sisi... I met them on my way to Dali. Time really flies. It felt like just a moment ago that Yang Sisi went abroad. And Ye Zhi, whom I had respected for a long time, suddenly became angry with me for no reason.
well!
A loser, a night of failure.
Compared to feelings of frustration, sadness feels more real... This makes me understand human relationships even less.
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