Bai Lu then asked me, "Being with her must be very stressful, right?"
I smiled and replied, "There's pressure, but there's also motivation..."
"Honestly, what do you like about her?"
"Do you have to have a very specific reason to like someone?"
Bai Lu smiled. She seemed to want to say something more, but in the end she didn't speak. Perhaps she felt that it was inappropriate for her to express too many opinions on relationships between men and women.
Actually, I know that she prefers Yang Sisi, which is why she asked the questions mentioned above in a somewhat pointed way.
I felt a bit upset. If I told them that I had deleted Yang Sisi from my contact list and that it had caused quite a bit of trouble, they would definitely feel indignant on Yang Sisi's behalf. After all, people are all made of flesh and blood, and they had seen Yang Sisi's sacrifices for me in many ways.
I also feel that I was a bit too harsh on Yang Sisi, but besides that, is there any better way to lessen the harm?
I can't think of that.
...
Since no one drank much, the meal didn't last long. After the meal, Bai Lu and Tao Zi went to the "Women's Flower" bar, while Coach Ma and I went to Longkan because Coach Ma wanted to see the inn that had been demolished.
I know he is a nostalgic person, and although I am also nostalgic, I am generally willing to look forward, so after the inn was demolished, I rarely came here to reminisce.
I handed Coach Ma a cigarette and then laughed, "You've given up drinking, but you haven't given up smoking, have you?"
"I've quit too."
Coach Ma pushed my hand away as he spoke.
I looked puzzled: "I feel like something's wrong with you... What's wrong with you?"
Coach Ma sat down on the rock where we used to eat together, and looking at the rising and falling waves, he said to me, "This time when I go back to Dali, I don't plan to leave again."
"This is a good thing...Does Bailu think so too?"
Coach Ma shook his head and replied in a low voice, "I think I've seen through it all... This time I'm coming back, I plan to become a monk at Jizu Mountain, and I've already made arrangements with the temple."
I was truly shocked by Coach Ma. I felt that what I was experiencing was more unreal than a dream... because I had never met anyone who would entrust the rest of their life to Buddhism... We all love to eat meat, drink alcohol, and enjoy this colorful world... What's more, I just heard from Taozi that he and Bai Lu have already registered their marriage.
After standing there for a long time, I finally asked Coach Ma, "Does Bai Lu know about your idea?"
"I haven't told her yet."
"You must be fucking kidding me... I just heard from Peach that you and she got married."
"Yes, I received it..."
"What about her?... If you divorce her again, she'll have been divorced twice... Are you trying to ruin her life?"
“I’ve always thought of others my whole life… I’ll be selfish this time! At least I had the title of husband and wife with her, so I have no regrets.”
I angrily said to him, "This isn't just selfishness, it's being a bastard... Tell me, why did you suddenly have this idea?"
Coach Ma looked up at me and said, "You've seen through it..."
"I've seen through it all, I've seen through it all... But even if you've seen through it all, there has to be a damn reason, right?"
I'll explain it to you later.
I spread my hands helplessly and said, "I'm really shocked... Just before dinner, I was looking up to you and Bai Lu as role models, and then you suddenly told me this... Seriously, you've completely shattered my worldview!"
"Life is unpredictable... Please respect my decision."
A sense of helplessness washed over me, and after a long pause, I said, "I hope you're there; the food must be good... Anyway, I'm not going to visit you."
Coach Ma remained silent, while I racked my brains trying to figure out why he made this decision...
I am not him, so I can't guess how he is... But I know that the Buddhist atmosphere in Dali is indeed very strong, and I know a lot of Buddhists. I guess Coach Ma was influenced by someone... Or maybe he really saw through himself.
His life was actually quite bitter! His brother-in-law died in depression because of his collaboration with Bai Lu's ex-husband, and Bai Lu lost her family and children because she eloped with him.
In his mind, these were probably all sins!
Since there is sin, there is a need for redemption...
But I still can't understand his decision... It's outrageous!
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