Upon learning that Ye Zhi had returned alive, I was unable to express my feelings in words... At one moment, I suddenly calmed down, and then I thought of those days of waiting for her return... It was like waiting for a ray of dawn in a dark and hopeless hell.
I was incredibly sad. I was sad because the first person she contacted after she came back wasn't me, and a whole month had already passed...
Jian Zihan saw through my thoughts and asked me, "Are you very sad right now?... Because she didn't come to find you, and she didn't even ask where you were!"
I remained silent, forced a smile, and replied, "I'm not sad... as long as she's alright!"
Will you go to see her?
My emotions were on the verge of collapse, but I desperately held back, at least I couldn't cry in front of Jian Zihan. I said to her, "More than a year has passed, so many things can change. Maybe she's not the same person she used to be... And I've always been the one waiting. Logically speaking, she should be the one to come to me... Since she hasn't come to me, I shouldn't force it."
After a moment of silence, Jian Zihan replied, "It's not what I expected... I thought that upon hearing this news, you would rush to find her without hesitation, because we've been through so much together... So, I know better than anyone how important she is to you!"
"Now is not the time to talk about these things... I still maintain that as long as she is back, that's good enough."
Jian Zihan sighed softly and asked again, "Where are you now?"
"It doesn't matter... let it be."
"Don't hang up yet... Maybe Yezi will come looking for you!"
I didn't want to listen to Jian Zihan's meaningless words, so I hung up the phone...
I'm not stupid. A month is enough to explain everything. If she still has feelings for me, Michael, she wouldn't be living in Shanghai indifferently... I'm not petty, because even Jian Zihan could find my new number, let alone her.
She forgot about me, or to put it another way, she no longer cares about me.
Of course I'm sad. I don't know what I've been waiting for all this time... It certainly wasn't for this result.
...
There is a pain that cuts to the core, right now... I lay heavily on the rocks, covering my face and weeping bitterly!
The fish head next to me looked at me blankly.
He wouldn't understand; in his eyes, I'm just a greasy, eccentric old man... And that's exactly how I acted in front of them, so no one can empathize with me, and no one knows what I've been through.
So, just consider me a sad clown.
I thought she still loved me, but that wasn't the case at all... I finally understood that the most painful kind of wound in the world is heartbreak... It's utterly devastating!
I cried and cried, then I laughed again... because she was still alive... wasn't this exactly what I had always hoped for?!
...
"Brother Mi... You're a grown man, you can't be that serious... It's just asking you to leave the club, not asking you to leave your wife."
"Do you have an eye sore... didn't you see I answered the phone?"
"You're such a freak!... Have you been mentally disturbed?"
I looked at the fish head, wanting to say something, but I had no mood for it at all... So I shifted my gaze to the direction the fishing boat had returned from, feeling utterly empty inside...
The news that Jian Zihan brought completely drained me, especially after venting. I felt as insignificant as a drop of seawater in the face of the ocean, as if I could be evaporated by the temperature at any moment.
The fierce sea breeze dried my face in no time, and everything suddenly calmed down, including my emotions... I took out a cigarette from my pocket, lit it, and then said to Fish Head beside me, "Have you ever heard of Dali?"
"Who hasn't heard of Dali...? Well, the movie 'Breakup Buddies' was filmed there."
“That’s where I’m from.”
"Why would you choose such a nice place and come to this little fishing village?"
"Each has its own merits..."
After pausing for a moment, I continued, "These past six months in Jimo have been the most comfortable period of my life... I feel like I'm someone who can live above the mundane, so I don't care what you think of me."
Fish Head was a little speechless, probably because he had never seen me say something like that before.
I smiled to myself and said to him, "Everyone in the club, it's my treat tonight. You can choose any place you like."
"Did I hear that right?"
"You heard me right, those words came from my mouth... I'm not only treating you to dinner, but after today, I'll also get you a decent motorcycle and have some fun with you."
Fish Head stared at me in disbelief, and after a long pause, replied, "I don't believe it..."
"Is Liu Chao selling his KTM790? ...I'd like to buy his."
"His car has only run a little over 8,000 kilometers, and it wasn't cheap to sell."
"As long as I'm happy, the price doesn't matter."
"You must have gone through something... You don't work, where did you get so much money?... Don't tell me you're going to treat us to a meal, you'll just make us pay for it ourselves!"
“I won’t cheat you. Go and call for help… We absolutely have to get Liu Chao. I want to talk to him about buying a motorcycle.”
Fish Head looked at me with a hint of disbelief before walking back to where he had parked his motorcycle...
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