"You don't feel anything at all?... He pursued you for three whole years!"
"Not three years, a little over two years."
I didn't say anything, but I kept looking at her.
Yang Sisi avoided my gaze, looking out at the street. After a long while, she smiled and replied, "To be honest, of course I'm a little sad... but this feeling has nothing to do with romance. It's just that I feel like I've lost someone who used to take good care of me... He has a girlfriend now, so it's not as convenient as before. I can't just leave him the keys when I leave, and I need a legitimate reason to invite him out for a meal... But other than that, there's nothing else..."
"Is that so?"
"Of course, I'm even quite happy for him... I'm not going to be his woman, so why should I hold him back?"
"I'm afraid he doesn't truly love that girl, and in the end, he'll get hurt, and so will the girl!"
Yang Sisi looked at me incredulously, then sighed, "I can't believe these words came out of your mouth... Don't you understand that in the world of relationships, there aren't that many mutual feelings... I've come to understand this, which is why I don't like to deliberately create pain for myself anymore... Just follow your heart, even if one day you can only choose regret, when you look back at your past self, you should have a clear conscience..."
At this point, Yang Sisi smiled and then said to me, "So, everything I'm doing now is so that I won't regret it later... Maybe one day I'll end up like Cao Xiaobei... Only we ourselves can truly understand how tired we are... That feeling of constantly wanting to give up, but gritting our teeth and persevering, is really unbearable!"
"I understand."
Yang Sisi laughed loudly: "You must understand... Actually, we are all bad people, and then we are tormented by someone even more bad... So no one is noble, and no one is pitiful!"
I nodded in complete agreement...
This is what life and love should be like. Maybe one day, Yang Sisi will become the next Cao Xiaobei, but I don't know if I can be as at ease as Yang Sisi is now when that day comes.
...
Halfway through their rice noodles, Chen Jin and Yu Tou, who were also looking for a place to eat breakfast, passed by. Yu Tou spotted Yang Sisi first, and he couldn't quite believe his eyes, so he showed her to Chen Jin...
After Chen Jin confirmed it, he was like a man possessed, pushing aside the two delivery guys standing outside waiting to pick up their food, and walked towards where Yang Sisi and I were.
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