As the setting sun shyly hid behind the Cangshan Mountains, Erhai Lake, however, became wild under the evening breeze, and the grass beneath our feet was already soaked by the surging tide of water...
Taozi had already smoked several cigarettes, while I remained silent, thinking of Wang Lei many times in that silence. Then, at one moment, I felt that it would be nice to live a secluded life with her in Dali, setting aside worldly opinions.
But the thought of having to face my parents and the public opinion of society shattered that illusion immediately. I had a headache because of it. It seemed that I could be best friends with Wang Lei, like family, but we just couldn't be lovers... At the same time, I also understood that this was not just my inner demon. Everyone would have such an inner demon when faced with this situation, because we are not noble and we are unwilling to be corrupt!
Peach spoke again, her voice sincere yet sorrowful: "Actually, I really want to stay in Dali, but I know I won't meet someone who doesn't mind my past at all. You and Wang Lei are already so close, but you still mind her past. So who else can I expect to accept me openly? ... I might as well wallow in decadence and make enough money!"
"No, your thinking is absolutely wrong... If you still crave love, you should immediately leave this profession and get a proper job or career. First, you need to forget this shameful past so that others won't bring it up or pursue it... Your body may never be truly clean, but your soul can be purified. You can become a normal person again!"
After I finished speaking, I unconsciously clenched my fist, because these were the words I had wanted to say to Wang Lei, but had never been able to say.
"Um……"
After a moment of silence, Peach whispered to me, "Michael, you should go back first. I want to be alone here for a while."
"No problem, but please don't think of this in a negative way..."
“I know… I want to be a normal woman again, but I don’t have confidence in myself… Hehe, do you believe me? Even though it was only for a day, I really like Tie Nan. I think he’s a very interesting man, and quite handsome too… But I’m worried that Dali is making me sentimental, which is why I have this illusion, because he doesn’t seem like a very reliable man.”
I smiled and replied, "When you become sentimental, it means you've fallen in love... If you don't trust your first instinct, you can go back to Shanghai first. If you calm down and still have these feelings, then you can go back to Dali."
"Do I really have a choice?"
"I can't give you the answer, but you now have the time and space to figure it out for yourself."
Peach nodded, and the next moment, I left her and Erhai Lake as night quietly fell...
...
On the way back to the inn, Tie Nan called me and said he wanted to take Tao Zi to a friend's bar tonight. I didn't want to deliberately stop him, so I told him Tao Zi's whereabouts and asked him to pick her up himself.
I don't know what kind of beginning this will be, but I do know that if they truly fall in love, they will endure a lot of pain beyond love itself. This will be a huge test for Tie Nan. If he can withstand the pressure and stay with Tao Zi in the end, then he will have truly accomplished what I couldn't do. (Will Tie Nan and Tao Zi, these two people with such complicated fates, end up together? I'll give you a spoiler at Tank's bookstall and reply to Tao Zi and Tie Nan.)
...
Back at the inn, it was unusually quiet. The huge courtyard, ten guest rooms, and a storage room were all occupied by me alone. I knew Coach Ma had gone to sing at Bailu's bar, but I had no idea where that rascal Yang Sisi had gone.
I ate a simple dinner and then lay down on the bed. This was probably the first time since I came to Dali that I had the intention to go to bed early before 10 o'clock. But as soon as I turned off the light and closed my eyes, I felt dizzy all over again, and then all that little bit of sleepiness disappeared.
Suddenly, I felt an overwhelming urge to confide in someone. But there were things I couldn't tell those around me, so I thought of my enemy: the strange woman who had taken Lu Jia's number. She'd already insulted me badly enough, so I didn't mind laying bare my most vulnerable self in front of her. I instinctively felt that we'd never meet, so I didn't care what image she had of me.
This time, I took the initiative to send her a message: "I have a female friend, but I can't figure out what my feelings for her are."
"There is no such thing as pure friendship between opposite sexes in this world."
"so what?"
"So you're a complete scumbag... Do you remember the messages you sent me before? You said you missed your ex-girlfriend, but now you suddenly have this ambiguous female friend. Do you really think you're so popular with the opposite sex?!"
"My ex-girlfriend dumped me, so why am I considered a scumbag?"
"Then go and be with that ambiguous female friend of yours."
"She's gone... she died in an accident!"
The other person was probably a little surprised, so it took them a long time to reply: "If she's doing well, would you be with her?"
"This is the problem that keeps me up at night... She is the most sincere woman in the world to me, but my ex-girlfriend left me because I was poor."
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