I looked up, unable to bear to look at her...
Just consider me a scumbag... In my mental world, there's Ye Zhi in the distance and Lu Jia nearby... What else can I possibly give her?
Consider me a coward... If I want to love her, I have to give up everything I have now... I'll give up.
They wouldn't back down, nor did they have the courage to face the possible consequences.
Just consider me a cunning person... because everything I'm doing now is a choice made after weighing the pros and cons.
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Just consider me a fool... The best girl in the world stood in front of me, and I didn't want her!
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On such a heartbreaking night, Yang Sisi was truly hurt. She didn't go back with me anymore; her friend came and picked her up... After she left, I stayed by Erhai Lake alone for a long time and smoked half a pack of cigarettes.
I've heard that smoking too much can make you dizzy... I just don't want to be too clear-headed, because the pain in my heart is no less than Yang Sisi's, but I can't cry with her. I can only be a little dazed and get through the whole night in a daze.
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Whether it was a coincidence or fate, Cao Xiaobei, whom I hadn't heard from in a long time, sent me a WeChat message late at night, asking me how Yang Sisi was doing.
I was taken aback, and it took me a long time to reply, "Why don't you go and ask her yourself?"
"I feel guilty..."
I don't quite understand what you mean.
"Someone like me who dares to deceive even myself... what right do I have to ask her how she's doing in front of her..."
Are you unhappy with your current girlfriend?
"I've never been happy... She's not the woman I truly love... Love for someone doesn't change so easily; if it can change easily, it can't be called love."
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I read Cao Xiaobei's words over and over again, and suddenly I understood myself, Yang Sisi, and even Ye Zhi... I love Ye Zhi, so I've been stuck in a rut in our relationship for the past few years... Ye Zhi doesn't love me enough, so she changed first.
In fact, in the world of emotions, there is no right or wrong, only sincerity or insincerity!
(End of this chapter)
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