After sitting with me for a while on Wednesday, he went to attend to his own business. He said he needed to go to the company first to talk to his supervisor about resigning, and then go to the supermarket to buy some things he might need for his trip to Thailand...
It's ironic for me, because even when it came to going to Thailand, I wasn't as decisive as Zhou San... I'm still thinking about who else I need to meet.
Perhaps Zhou San doesn't have as deep feelings for Dali as I do. I've met so many people here and experienced so many things that could change my life. Now that I'm moving to a new place, it's hard not to feel reluctant.
So before I left, I wanted to see as many people as possible, as a way of commemorating my long experience in Dali; and now that I'm leaving, I don't even know if I'll ever return to this place, or what else besides Cangshan Mountain and Erhai Lake, the wind, flowers, snow, and moon, can remain eternally in my heart.
Unlike Brother Ping, who has a house in Jiulongju, he at least has a place to stay when he wants to come back. But I, apart from a lot of joys and sorrows, really haven't left anything behind in Dali.
I felt an indescribable sadness, and my eyes welled up with tears. What I couldn't let go of the most was Yang Sisi... I wondered what she was doing in that foreign land. I hoped she could go back soon, and I would be at ease when she returned to her parents.
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Chen Jin was the second person to visit me after Zhou Sansan. Unlike Zhou Sansan, he didn't complain about me. As soon as he sat down opposite me, he lit a cigarette and said, "When you were just about to go to Shanghai to find Yang Sisi, I already knew this would be the result, so I won't say much about your relationship. I just want to ask you what your plans are for the future... Didn't we agree that you would stay in Shanghai for treatment? Even if you and Yang Sisi broke up, don't come back now. If you delay your treatment, who can bear the responsibility?"
"A broken heart is more agonizing than a leg injury."
"Stop talking nonsense, you're just being willful... If you think Shanghai isn't good enough, then hurry up and go to Beijing, just don't stay in Dali."
I laughed and said, "Actually, when you think about it, there's no real pain in this world. When Zhou San came, he kept talking about me and Yang Sisi, and you kept talking about my leg. Zhou San thought my leg wasn't an injury, and you thought Yang Sisi wasn't my injury... To put it bluntly, it's just that we're focusing on different things. So as long as it's not something you really care about, it's not considered pain... At least, that's how it is for people other than me."
"At a time like this, you're still trying to play logic games with me! ... Can't we focus on saving your leg first? You weren't even there when the doctor was talking about this the other day, don't you know how serious it is?"
I laughed and said, "Don't worry about me, I'm heading to Bangkok in a few days... Brother Ping has already arranged a hospital for me there... It's perfect that you're here, let's chat."
Chen Jin nodded, as if relieved, and then replied, "Brother Ping really knows how to treat you... But if you're going to Bangkok, how do you arrange your one-click travel project?"
"I'll leave it to fate. I hope that when I'm finally able to do it, the market will still give me a chance."
"It's good that you understand. I'm not very optimistic about your one-click travel project either... First of all, it's too expensive, and it's exhausting... But if you can really do it well, it will be a great boost to your personal development. You're just too ambitious, which is why you live a more tiring life than me!"
I looked at Chen Jin and replied in a very serious tone, "Since you put it that way, I'll tell you a few words from the heart... I'm actually a person who lacks a sense of security. I understand the anxiety that comes with that lack of security, so I really want to give the people around me a sense of security... Speaking of which, how much ambition can a man really have in his life?... To put it bluntly, through thick and thin, we want power, money, and face... In the end, isn't it all for our women and families?... So when I was unwilling to stop, I was actually ready to start a family... Unfortunately, things didn't go as planned, and this has brought me back to square one... I'm feeling particularly lost now, and I don't know what I should be fighting for."
Chen Jin pinched his chin, pondered for a while, and then said, "That sounds like the truth... I didn't realize you actually have such deep feelings for Yang Sisi!"
I lowered my head and remained silent... I remained silent because of remorse. No matter how justifiable my reasons were, I had still hurt Yang Sisi in the end.
It wasn't until Chen Jin put his hand on my shoulder to comfort me that I spoke to him, saying, "I'm your cautionary tale. You should settle down and stop wavering between Nicole and Ia... None of us can predict the future. We really don't know whether tomorrow or an accident will come first."
"Letting go of either of them would be a painful experience for me!"
"Someone like you wouldn't last two episodes in a TV drama before getting arrested by the police... Your behavior is morally reprehensible!"
Is it really that rare to like two people at the same time?
"Isn't that surprising?"...
After chatting for about half an hour, Chen Jin left because the bar was too busy. I don't know who the next person to come will be. I hope it's Nicole because she still has some money she lent me. Once I pay her back, I'll have one less thing to worry about.
Another half hour passed, and Nicole still showed no sign of returning. Perhaps because the bar was busy, I couldn't sit still any longer and decided to go for a walk in the old town by myself.
The scenery of the ancient city is also something I cherish. I especially like to wander around "Renmin Road". There is the smell of cigarettes and alcohol there, as well as sad people. "Renmin Road" is like a big container. When I throw all these unpleasant things into it, it helps to dilute them and then dissolve them in the wine and color.
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I chose a shop that served braised pork rice, sat by the window, and silently watched all sorts of people on the street until my phone vibrated in my pocket.
This message was sent by Lu Jia. She really is a persistent woman, insisting on getting the answer from me about my future plans. If I were her, I would never ask. I would feel guilty because half of my current predicament is due to her.
She used unethical means to seize my property in Dali; otherwise, I would still have a place to live in Dali. So the more she asks, the more I suspect she's crocodile tears. To chat with more like-minded people about "My Tenant Sister," follow "Hot Articles" or "rd444" on WeChat to discuss your favorite books with other book lovers.
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