In my silence, the wind blew fiercely from across the sea again. I subconsciously squinted, and the world seemed to become ethereal. I remembered what Nicole had just told me: "A love triangle is the most painful and hurtful thing..."
I admit, I have lingering attachments; I can choose to let go of Ye Zhi, but that doesn't mean I no longer love her...
There's no pool in this world that can drain completely in a second. I don't know how long this process will take, and I might never forget her... She never truly hurt me, so I can't bring myself to hate her...
These days, I've been wearing the "green Submariner" she gave me, and thanks to her encouragement, I've been able to get back up from the mire of my career.
We've both given so much to each other. It's fate's arrangement that we can't be together, and it's precisely this kind of arrangement that's most tormenting. If she hurt me, or didn't truly love me, I could just forget about it. But this is the situation between us, making it impossible for one to get out or get in.
...
As if sensing something, Ye Zhi suddenly turned around and faced me. In the instant our eyes met, she whispered to me, "Michael, I'm pregnant. We'll get married because of the pregnancy... So there will be no more relationship between us. I don't want you to do anything for me anymore, and I don't want you to ruin your own happiness... I want to live a more relaxed life from now on. I can't bear this much psychological pressure... I don't want to feel guilty and remorseful when I think of you, so you must be happy, and you must be happier than me!"
I paused for a moment, then subconsciously looked at her abdomen. I couldn't see any signs of pregnancy... But suddenly, images of her embracing and kissing that man, entwined together, appeared in my mind.
My heart is broken. Before this, I had thought: would there come a day when I would stand in front of her without hesitation, grab her hand, and run away... just like Cao Xiaobei took Yang Sisi away.
There will never be such a possibility again, because she and that man have already reached the point of no return.
No, she must be lying to me. How could she possibly have a relationship with someone else? ...Throughout our relationship, I never dared to touch her. Even when I was incredibly agitated, I held back. How could she possibly have a relationship with someone else?
At that moment, I suddenly forgot that I was an adult, and my heart was filled with jealousy and sorrow.
I'd rather she remain a perfect image in my heart. I don't want to hear any of this; it's devastating and oppressive.
With this in mind, I finally spoke up and said, "I don't believe... you're a conservative woman."
“He is my fiancé, we are engaged, and the wedding is just around the corner.”
In a gaze brimming with countless emotions, she took a form from the bag I had given her; it was from a hospital.
The bill had her name clearly written on it; she was almost a month pregnant.
Faced with such irrefutable evidence, I had no choice but to remain silent. I felt dizzy and my mind went blank, but I still smiled and said to her, "Congratulations on becoming a mother... With this child by your side, you won't be so lonely anymore!"
"I'm sorry, I let you down."
"It doesn't matter, this day was bound to come sooner or later."
I didn't want to open my eyes again. I remembered a dream I had a long time ago, when I was in Jimo, before she came back. I dreamt that she gave birth to my child, and we took the child to Disneyland together... During the trip, she discussed with me that the child's education was a big deal, so she wanted to send the child abroad to her mother for upbringing. I disagreed, and we had a big fight. We even said the hurtful word "divorce."
It didn't seem like a beautiful dream, but when I woke up, I lingered in it for a long time because it felt so real. Every word and phrase felt like she was speaking right next to me, and even the events in the dream were so real and mundane.
At this moment, I'm certain this was a dream, because the child in her belly would never call me "Dad."
My heart grew colder and colder as I began to accept the truth, and my gaze towards her also turned cold.
I finally spoke to her, saying, "Before coming to Dali, I had already decided that I didn't intend to get involved in your affairs anymore. I simply accompanied Sisi to Cao Xiaobei's wedding. I never expected things to turn out this way... But I will accept it little by little and try to change things gradually..."
"That's good... Remember to go find Sisi. She's not the worst choice in your life. She's the woman in the world who deserves your kindness. She can take on any kind of love you give her."
...
Ye Zhi left just like that. I was in a daze for a long time, unable to believe it was real. Yet, I also felt that this wasn't a chance encounter; it was as if she knew I would come, which was why she was waiting for me here...
...
A moment later, An'an arrived. She looked very anxious, and as soon as she stopped beside me, she said, "Michael, help me decide what to do! I don't know what to do!"
"What's wrong?"
“He suddenly asked me to go to Singapore, saying that there was something very important for me to take with me… He told me to stay in Singapore and not come back, that he would come to find me and immigrate to Singapore with me.”
I immediately became alert and said, "You can't agree to him, he's trying to harm you... If I'm not mistaken, what he's asking you to take is probably evidence of his crimes... To tell you the truth, before coming here, I met with a friend who's a police officer. The local police have already started investigating Cao Jinbo, and she hopes I can take you to meet her... An'an, you absolutely have to go. This is for your own good, because..."
You used the money he gave you to make investments, which raises suspicions of money laundering. These are very sensitive times, and they're using the most severe penalties. If you get implicated by Cao Jinbo, the consequences will be dire... I'm not trying to scare you, but she's a criminal investigator; she's very professional in these matters!"
An'an was clearly disoriented, so I said urgently to her, "No matter what, come with me to see this police officer friend first... and then you can make a decision. This is your chance, the only one, and the last one!"
"Michael, did he sense it too?... That's why he suddenly sent me to Singapore!"
"Definitely, he's scared now... but this fear has come too late... he can't possibly immigrate successfully, he won't even be able to leave the country."
(End of this chapter)
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