"Are you blushing when you say these things?"
"In your heart, am I so deserving of death?"
“You’re not guilty of anything that deserves to die. Your mistake was that after you had a choice, you still kept bothering me… I don’t believe in the idea of drunken promiscuity. If you don’t give him a chance, he won’t even have the possibility of having dinner with you…”
"You're just saying all this to try and gain a moral high ground and get the house back."
"Shouldn't I get it back?...Is it that in your eyes, isn't that house in Chengdu enough to settle all our scores?"
"I don't want a house... I want you!"
Lu Jia suddenly broke down, she lowered her head and cried, tearing at her hair violently...
"Michael... I was wrong... I shouldn't have done such a stupid thing... Please forgive me... I was really wrong!"
I didn't want to see Lu Jia like this, so I stood across National Highway 14, gazing at Erhai Lake... I lit another cigarette. I didn't want to say anything... nor did I want to recall the past that I had wronged her.
Because I can see my own heart, which is not only clean and decisive, but also consistent from beginning to end.
Now that I no longer owe Lu Jia anything, I will no longer indulge her pain. I just want to get this house back and start my own business... I don't deny that I am very realistic.
I finally spoke to Lu Jia, saying, "Last night, I had a dream... In my dream, I found an old box that used to store toys, filled with green plastic soldiers—artillerymen, infantrymen, paratroopers... The soldiers asked me timidly, 'Excuse me, have you seen our commander? We haven't seen him in a long time.' I pondered for a while and replied, 'Yes, I have, but he won't be coming back...' The soldiers cried and asked me again, 'Did the commander sacrifice himself?'... I also shed tears. The commander didn't sacrifice himself; he just grew up!"
Exhaling the smoke heavily, I continued, "This isn't entirely my dream... I saw this passage somewhere... and then this scene appeared in my dream... I admit, before leaving Shanghai, I still had a stubborn, immature streak, always thinking only of you, living in the world you wove for me... But the day I decided to leave Shanghai, I changed... I didn't want to live in your ideal world anymore, now I only want to live for myself... I want to do what I like, marry the woman I love... I don't love you anymore... So, I won't look back."
"No matter what I do, will you never turn back?"
"Won't!"
(End of this chapter)
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