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Since when, Zhou Qianling didn't know, the world he saw seemed to be covered with a layer of dust, his mind was always groggy, and he had no interest in doing anything.
Rather than playing games with her friends, she prefers to sit on the rooftop and quietly look at the blue sky and white clouds.
She also became more and more sentimental. The playfulness of her classmates under her feet had nothing to do with her, but the dancing leaves in the air made her cry.
No one knew about this, and there was no change in her interactions with her friends. She cheered herself up and joked with them, but... she was so tired.
So on the day of heavy snow, she used the excuse of being on duty to send away her friends who were coming to dinner and karaoke.
It was also that day that she helped a girl who was being bullied, but the girl abandoned her.
The heavy snow froze her pain nerves, and the beatings, kicks and insults seemed like things from another world, leaving no trace in her heart.
The only slight fluctuation in his expression was probably the urge to grab the girl by the collar and ask her why she left him.
I helped you.
Kindness has no meaning.
There is no point in being deliberately cheerful just to fit in with others.
The world has no meaning.
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After returning to school after her leave of absence, Zhou Qianling lost her usual patience as she looked at her friends gathered around the table, concerned about her. She greeted them politely, smiling when everyone laughed.
But this was not enough, she was very tired and she could hardly control her impatience.
Fortunately, a girl named Jiang Chunmei came to her. She cut her hair and used her poor acting skills to play the role of a cheerful schoolmate who invited her. Her timid eyes always drifted when she looked at her directly.
Want to make amends?
To be honest, I hate her, but I can be nice to her if it helps.
We went to and from school together, ate together, and went to the toilet together. I rejected my friends' invitations in her name.
Great, finally I don’t have to waste my energy anymore.
And Jiang Chunmei?
No, this guy doesn't need any extra energy.
As expected, Jiang Chunmei once again cowardly and shamefully pulled herself out of the whirlpool of sexual orientation.
This idiot, huh.
With her "evidence," I confirmed the rumors that I had approached her with ulterior motives. Friends who had previously had physical contact with me now looked at me with curious, inquiring eyes, and wherever I went, there was always a wave of gossip.
I don't care, it's nothing to worry about, or rather, it's just what I want.
But Jiang Chunmei doesn't think so.
She is really a fool. She is evil but not cruel enough, and kind but lacks courage.
I often caught her eyes looking at me in the cafeteria and on the playground.
Feeling guilty, right?
I sighed and pitifully invited my classmates to join me, but secretly wiped away my tears after being rejected.
But in my heart I was laughing wildly at those who were silently paying attention to me: Be more ashamed.
This is my only pleasure, observing Jiang Chunmei's guilt and pain.
But after entering high school, I lost my sense of fun.
Jiang Chunmei is one grade below me, and I don’t think she will go to my high school, as I said.
She is stupid.
High school is boring. Life is just about doing exercises over and over again. Piles of books and test papers have accumulated on the desk, as if the world is only as big as the desk.
This is true for all my classmates, but there may be some differences.
College is their motivation to study, and bullying classmates is their way to relieve the stress.
I didn't have any of these. I only studied to meet my parents' expectations. As for bullying classmates...
I am this classmate.
The rumors from junior high school were carried over to high school. In other words, I was bullied.
In the third year of junior high school, everyone just whispered behind their backs, but after entering high school, it became more than that.
So when faced with direct hostility towards me, I was torn: should I speak harshly or cry for mercy? Which would satisfy them more?
It was really nerve-wracking, so I decided to respond in a friendly and smiling manner, as if nothing had happened. Obviously, this didn't satisfy the bullies; they seemed completely enraged and their behavior became even more aggressive.
As time went on, I began to feel bored. Is this going to be the case forever?
At the beginning of my second year of high school, I received a reward of 5,000 yuan for my first place score in the entire grade of freshman year at the flag-raising ceremony. Unlike the second place winner in the next class who received applause, the class was silent when I stepped out.
I heard students from other classes discussing, "This person has such a bad reputation. He must be very proud of his grades."
Great, another bunch of idiots, I thought.
At the same time, I had a feeling that the bullying at the class level would soon spread to the entire grade, or even the entire school.
I politely accepted the bonus, feeling vaguely scared.
Tsk, so annoying, I want to go crazy.
As expected, after school that day I was blocked in the toilet by several people who were not from our class.
"Are you a lesbian? Do you like women?"
Smiling, "Yes, please let me pass."
The girl didn't move, but took a step closer and asked, "What do you think of me?" As she spoke, she stuck out her tongue, which had a tongue piercing on it.
"It should hurt." I felt my tongue was also pierced.
"Haha." The girl waved at her accomplices, and several of them came forward and grabbed my arms to restrain me. "You won't know if it hurts until you try it."
She pinched my chin and said with a smile, "Why don't you resist?"
"Can you let me go if I resist?"
"Won't."
I lowered my eyes and watched her slowly pull down my zipper.
"Very talented." She said contemptuously: "They say you are arrogant, well, it's true." Then she reached into the school uniform.
I knew she did it on purpose. When the physical pain couldn't break me down, they started trying other methods.
I admit, it works.
"Let go." I warned coldly.
However, it was useless and only made a few girls laugh.
So boring, I want to go crazy.
"Let her go!"
The toilet door at the edge was pushed open suddenly and hit the door panel next to it with a bang.
Jiang Chunmei clenched her fists and I saw her legs shaking.
"You, let her go." She repeated it again, her teeth beginning to chatter.
I was a little surprised that she actually came to this high school.
"Junior sister, I advise you not to meddle in other people's business. Perhaps you can run and tell the teacher right away. Maybe it will still be in time when you come back." After saying that, she moved aside to make way.
A few people were laughing again. The girl grabbed my hair and forced me to look up. "To tell you the truth, I don't want to go to this crappy school anymore. It's not a bad thing to drag a hypocritical good student into it before I drop out, haha."
The ugly look made me sick to my stomach, so I spit in her face.
The next second, I felt a sharp pain in my abdomen.
"Ahhhhhhhhh! Disgusting thing!" The girl kicked me to the ground.
Oh, here we go again, so annoying.
The sound of fists banging could be heard continuously.
But it didn't fall on me. I turned around in surprise, and Jiang Chunmei had rushed over at some point, bent down and hugged the girl's waist, pushing her a few steps away, and her fists were hitting her back again and again.
The other girls reacted, pulled her away and pushed her onto me.
Several people were angry and surrounded us and kicked us.
Jiang Chunmei burst into tears and cried loudly with her head in her hands.
I stared at her miserable appearance, and for some reason, I suddenly felt like laughing.
Amidst the clamor of angry curses, I said, "Jiang Chunmei, I don't hate you anymore."
"Wuwuwuwu, what is wuwuwuwu..."
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