Chapter 46: Confession "Qiao Zheng, I just want you to love me, nothing else...
Qiao Zheng followed Qiao Zhizheng's gaze and was also stunned, then she calmly adjusted the collar of her loose nightgown.
Qiao Zhizheng was still watching.
Qiao Zheng stared at her intently. "Aren't they all the same? I have yours, and you have them too. What's so good about them?"
Qiao Zhizheng bit her lip and shook her head slowly, "This is different."
"I don't understand you."
"Qiao Zheng, you said before that you'd never been in a relationship, and I didn't quite understand. At 28, are you really completely without any romantic experience? Now I have no doubts."
Qiao Zhizheng sighed. In the past, she had many admirers, but she hadn't noticed. It was only when someone pointed it out to her, "Does he/she like you?"
Qiao Zhizheng just realized that she was being pursued. The pursuer secretly complained to his friends that Qiao Zhizheng was a blockhead.
After Qiao Zhizheng came to her senses, she secretly hated Qiao Zheng for being a blockhead.
"Qiao Zheng, although we are the same person, with the same body, the moment you appeared before me, your meaning in my life was completely different."
Perhaps due to preconceived notions, Qiao Zhizheng initially treated Qiao Zheng as another independent person. Later, when he found out that Qiao Zheng was himself ten years later, Qiao Zhizheng still felt that the two were different.
"I don't react when I look at my own body, but I do feel desire when I see your body."
For the first time, Qiao Zhizheng opened up and told Qiao Zheng directly, "I've always known you thought my feelings for you were just trust and dependence. You thought I only liked you because you always helped me and treated me well."
Qiao Zhizheng shook her head vigorously. "No, Qiao Zheng, it's not like that."
"Let me ask you, has anyone in your life ever been truly kind to you?"
Qiao Zheng nodded.
"Are you in love with her?"
Qiao Zheng answered decisively: "Of course not!"
"We are essentially the same. You wouldn't. So why would I like someone just because she treats me well?"
It would be fine if Qiao Zhizheng didn't realize it, but once she did, she would definitely stir up a huge uproar and make the person she liked feel the same way, with his heart in turmoil and no peace day and night.
"When I see your eyes, I only think how beautiful they are. I don't think that our eyes are the same. I selfishly hope that your eyes can only look at me."
"When I see your lips, I just want to kiss you," Qiao Zhizheng paused, feeling that what he wanted to say was a bit rough. After a moment of hesitation, he said it in a different way. "People's microbiota are different at every age. I want my microbiota to enter your body with my saliva. I will consume your microbiota and merge it with mine. Then we will become the same from the inside out."
Qiao Zhizheng originally wanted to say bluntly, "I kiss you to death," but it would be a bit awkward to confess to herself ten years later. If she really said that, it seemed that Qiao Zheng would only understand it to the extent of "licking one's own mouth." It would be better to make a distinction from a scientific perspective.
"I just saw your shoulder, and all I could think about was how wonderful it would be if I could touch your skin without any hindrance. Our body curves are inseparable, and my heartbeat is in sync with yours. I see in your eyes that there is another possible me, and you see in my eyes the old you."
"—The you that has been changed by you."
"I know you're very resistant to physical contact with other people."
Qiao Zheng didn't need to answer. The trance in her eyes at that moment was the best answer.
"But you won't do that to me. I am you, and you don't resist my approach."
"I don't know what happened to you that made you... unhappy. I know that you hope my life will go smoothly, but you can't see it go smoothly..."
These words are very contradictory, just like Qiao Zheng's behavior and Qiao Zhizheng's understanding.
Qiao Zhizheng thought that this was probably a kind of self-loathing and self-struggle on her part. She was trying very hard to live, but the suffering she had endured would always come out inadvertently, run to the nasal nerves, and her nose would feel sore. She would cry for the self who had once struggled in difficult situations. The tear glands of her eyes, which had shed too many tears, had dried up, and Qiao Zheng's tears could only flow into her heart. Those sad emotions could not find an outlet and could only be vented by turning into "bullying" that did not hurt her at all.
"Qiao Zheng, this is the first time I'm telling you, and it won't be the last time—I like you, I love you. It's not because I'm a baby, it's not because you're nice to me, it's not because I'm touched or for some other reason. I just like you, I love you. There's no barrier, no lies, because we're all clear in each other's eyes, and you understand me just as well as I understand you."
"Qiao! Zheng! I want you to love me as much as I love you!"
After Qiao Zhizheng finished speaking, he closed his eyes and waited for Qiao Zheng's answer.
Qiao Zheng smiled helplessly, "If you speak louder, people in the next room will hear you."
Qiao Zhizheng didn't wait for an answer. He opened his eyes and looked at Qiao Zheng angrily. Qiao Zheng held his forehead and sighed.
Ever since she met Qiao Zhizheng, she sighed more than in the past ten years. She was always helpless with her. She thought that she was the only one who knew what was going on in her mind, but she didn't expect that Qiao Zhizheng looked silly but knew everything in her mind.
Qiao Zheng felt a surge of sadness in her heart. She felt touched, distressed, and there was also an indescribable emotion that was even greater than the first two emotions combined: the feeling of being seen.
——She saw through every inch of me from body to soul. She saw through my contradictions, my false appearance, my dark inner self, my approach, my teasing, and the origin of my love and hate.
——I also saw her, her sincerity, her straightforwardness, her honest heart, her burning soul, and her sincere love for me.
"You clearly know my ill intentions towards you, yet you still want to continue loving me?"
Qiao Zhizheng spoke faster than her brain could think, "Yes! I think you love me."
Qiao Zheng let out a "tsk~" sound. Qiao Zhizheng sensitively realized that Qiao Zheng's next words would be the key moment of judgment in this relationship. Qiao Zhizheng's mood at this moment was like Louis XVI's anxious waiting under the guillotine, and also like Elizabeth II's relief and joy when the major event was about to be settled before her coronation.
Qiao Zheng crossed her arms and raised her eyebrows, "I'll give you a chance."
Qiao Zhizheng wanted to cheer, but knew it was inappropriate to do so, so she just jumped up and bounced around on the bed.
Qiao Zheng thought she was so silly, so cute, and the corners of her mouth kept curling up.
"Okay, stop, stop, it's time to talk about work."
"Good~" The word "good" came out of Qiao Zhizheng's mouth in a soft and gentle voice with a thousand twists and turns.
Qiao Zheng touched the goose bumps on her arms and lowered the camera, exposing only her neck and below. "Focus."
Qiao Zhizheng let out a resentful "Oh".
Qiao Zheng smiled again and emphasized again, "Focus."
Qiao Zheng was undoubtedly the person who knew Qiao Zhizheng best. She used her own understanding to tell Qiao Zhizheng several thinking points, and these thinking points formed a huge and complex thinking network in Qiao Zhizheng's mind.
Qiao Zhizheng expressed her new understanding: "Mu Ci wants to take Jiang Hao to a big city after this is over. He wants to treat her leg and help her live a new life.
Jiang Hao saw another possibility in life, but she could no longer turn back. She hated the people who bullied her even more and was even more ruthless in the subsequent killings. She was determined to go all the way since she had already made a mistake.
Jiang Hao would think, I could have lived a better life, but it was all because of you that I was in hell and could only see the warm sunshine but never have the right to touch her again.
When she said the last sentence, Qiao Zhizheng was a little dazed. At this moment, she was Jiang Hao, and this was her inner voice.
Qiao Zhizheng touched the heart of the character.
Qiao Zheng praised her, "You understand it very well. You can follow this idea in your subsequent interpretations."
Qiao Zhizheng said "hmm" in a deep voice.
Qiao Zheng said softly, "She is a character in the play."
"Is there anyone like her in real life?"
This is a pessimistic and realistic idea. Qiao Zheng didn't say no, because she had never seen it with her own eyes, but she didn't say yes either. This is a story that makes people cry for this girl when they think of it, but it is a story that is very likely to exist in real life.
"Act well and let more people see her. Let them know that there are many other Jiang Haos in the corners of the world that no one cares about. Go and help them."
Qiao Zhizheng clenched his fist firmly, "I will work hard!"
Qiao Zheng also clenched her fist and shook it in front of the camera, indicating a fist bump.
“Let’s work together!”
Qiao Zheng's words were not just talk, she really put them into practice.
A week later, Qiao Zhizheng received several images—a public welfare certificate supporting the Disabled Women's Rights Protection Program under the Disabled Persons' Federation, a certificate for support for the "Safety Protection Package," funding for the barrier-free environment safety renovation project, and customized training on preventing sexual assault.
Qiao Zhizheng calculated the amount of money he had invested, "One, two, three, four, five, six, six zeros!"
Qiao Zhizheng blinked and a sweet smile appeared on the corner of her mouth. This was the person she liked, the very good Qiao Zheng!
Qiao Zhizheng's eyes were hot, and a surge of emotions arose in her heart. She also wanted to do something for them.
But Qiao Zheng refused, "Do you have money? Have you paid off your debt?"
Qiao Zhizheng's enthusiasm was extinguished by a basin of cold water called "debt".
Qiao Zhizheng felt sympathetic, "Yeah, I still owe my boss money."
"Do you need my help?"
Qiao Zhizheng said in surprise, "Help me with what? Help me pay back the money? Forget it, you can do it on your own, and you still don't trust me?"
Qiao Zheng's eyes curved slightly, and there was a hint of smile in her words, "It's an expected answer."
"Then why are you asking?"
"I just... suddenly want to help you, okay?"
"No need! Qiao Zheng, I will reach the heights you can reach one day!"
"I will make tons of money, pay off my debts, and then give it all to you! Just wait for me, that day won't be far away."
Qiao Zheng looked at the ambitious Qiao Zhizheng with amusement, her eyes full of pride, "Well, I'll wait."
Qiao Zhizheng: “Hehehe~”
What Qiao Zhizheng didn't say was that the money Qiao Zheng earned through her own hard work was easily given to Qiao Zhizheng to use, which made Qiao Zhizheng feel uncomfortable.
Love is empathy.
——Why can I easily overcome all the hardships you have experienced?
——Qiao Zheng, the one who had no one to help, you felt so helpless every time you faced difficulties. You walked the bloody road alone, and you were sad day and night alone. I couldn't help you, but you came to help me. How could I easily enjoy your achievements?
"Qiao Zheng, I just want you to love me, I don't want anything else."
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The author has something to say: First edit: "Qiao Zhizheng's mood at this moment is like Louis XVI's anxious waiting under the guillotine, and also like Houyi's relief and joy at the conclusion of the great event as he drew his bow steadily towards the ninth sun before it was about to rise." When I wrote the first half of the sentence, I thought it was pretty good. After racking my brains and failing to come up with a matching one, I used the second half. Does any smart kid have a more perfect idea in mind and can give me some inspiration? [starry eyes][starry eyes][starry eyes] If you have any good ideas, please feel free to comment~ Love you love you [kiss][kiss][kiss]
I originally planned to write about the main plot in this chapter, but I unknowingly wrote about emotions [laughing and crying]. I feel that I am good at writing about emotions, but the plot is still a little weak, but I will continue to work hard! ! ! I will strive to have the plot and emotions go hand in hand in the future! ! ! [shy][shy][shy]
Part II:
Comment from the little angel "Apple Juice Saves the World": "The second half of the sentence reads okay, but the whole sentence gives me a sense of leaping from modern foreign history to ancient Chinese mythology. It might be better to increase the similarity of the metaphor a little. If it were me, I might choose some less popular foreign female characters to make them seem more niche and mysterious, hahaha."
However, I did not choose an unpopular one, but a popular one - the coronation of Queen Elizabeth II, because this was the first time that the British royal coronation ceremony was broadcast to the world via television. Elizabeth II was only 27 years old when she was crowned, and she had only been on the throne for more than a year. She was a relatively young crowned monarch in British history. From the images circulating on the Internet, it can be seen that the Queen was very excited, happy and happy at the time.
And then this is what the little angels see now——
"Qiao Zhizheng's mood at this moment resembles the anxious waiting of Louis XVI before the guillotine, and also the relief and joy of Queen Elizabeth II as the major event is about to be finalized before her coronation."
Push my pre-collection pit - Can you be my kitten (original: I love you more than the stars)
Introduction:
On a midsummer day with cicadas chirping, the hungry Cheng Sijin met a girl who asked him a strange question.
"Will you be my kitten?"
"Is food included?"
"Bag."
Cheng Sijin, who felt that being poor was more terrifying than death, agreed without hesitation, "I'll be your little cat."
Zhu Ping'an suffers from post-traumatic emotional apathy. She has been actively seeking treatment, but her condition remains the same. Her psychologist suggested that she get a pet.
Zhu Ping'an is looking for pets in her daily life. There are many stray cats in the school. Zhu Ping'an often goes to feed them, but the kittens ignore her. The person next to the kittens looks more pitiful than the kittens.
I wish you peace of mind, this is a nice "kitten".
I boldly stepped forward and asked, and got a satisfactory answer.
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After a long separation, the girl who could barely afford to eat has become a shining famous singer, and Zhu Ping'an has become a photographer who has just started his career after returning to China.
The famous singer Cheng Sijin took the initiative to lower her status to shoot a set of photos for Zhu Ping'an's small studio, which successfully made Zhu Ping'an famous in the domestic photography circle.
The appearance fee is just a meal to wish you peace.
I wish you peace and confusion.
But soon after, I got the answer from an old photo at home.
It was Cheng Sijin's affectionate half of her eyebrows, and there was a small black mole at the end of her right eye. Following her gaze, in the bright moonlight cast by the supermoon, the young Zhu Ping'an looked up at the moon, but she didn't know that someone next to her was looking at her intently.
Secret love comes true Cheng Sijin & a perfect match made in heaven wish you peace
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