Chapter 50 Kiss, I will try my best to live - before I become you. ...
"Do you know that even if you take him away today, you can't kill him, and you'll end up like Ren Qingxue?"
Ren Qingxue - a famous actress who was once extremely popular but fell to her death naked at the peak of her career.
When Ren Qingxue was alive, she stood out among all the actresses with her cool and elegant temperament. The domestic first-line newspapers at that time praised her as "her name suits her, Gao Shan Qingxue."
After Ren Qingxue's accidental death, people initially observed a moment of silence for her passing. However, as photos of the death scene were leaked, many specious comments online began to spread the so-called inside truth.
"I heard that she was too excited after taking drugs, so..."
“I can’t tell…”
"Being a celebrity is like this, isn't it? They look glamorous, but they're actually under a lot of pressure. So, you know..."
"I'm only telling you, don't tell anyone else. My colleague's brother's neighbor's cousin worked as a cleaner at the hotel where Ren Qingxue died. I heard Ren Qingxue went out with a lot of people... Tsk, tsk, tsk, tsk, I don't even want to say those two words. They sound dirty."
"real?"
"Guaranteed authenticity."
"Have you seen it?"
“Some people have seen it.”
…
The source of the so-called "truth" is no longer traceable. If you walked to a crossroads and looked around when the rumor was at its peak, you would find that everyone was talking about it, whether they were passing students or white-collar workers getting ready for work, outside newsstands or in stores.
People cannot bear to see equally humble people soar to the sky, and are happy to see those who are high and mighty fall into the dust. The "truth" is often spoken on the lips, but the truth is always buried deep in the heart.
It doesn’t matter whether the official releases the so-called truth or not, because people already have the so-called “truth” in their hearts.
Ren Qingxue was drowned by overwhelming negative public opinion. He was praised during his lifetime, but caused an uproar when he died. After his death, the door of his home was engraved with countless insults and abuse.
Yang Xiao shed tears, which rolled from the corners of her eyes to her chin, and slid into the dust on the ground, creating a splash of water in the dust.
Qiao Zheng and Qiao Zhizheng looked at each other, and in tacit understanding, one of them grabbed Yang Xiao with his backhand, and the other stepped forward to cover her mouth.
Standing at the crack of the stairwell door, Yang Xiao saw a group of bodyguards quickly come out of the elevator, help Murong Bo up, and escort him back to the room.
Qiao Zheng's voice was like a cold blade, slicing through Yang Xiao's throbbing eardrums. Her words were realistic and cold, "Before you find a chance to kill him, you will be subdued by his bodyguards and then thrown from a tall building."
Yang Xiao's tears wet Qiao Zheng's palms.
In the story of "Snow White", the queen tempted the princess to eat a beautiful poisonous apple. The princess hesitated, but could not resist her true thoughts. She completely ignored the advice of the dwarfs echoing in her mind, ate the poisonous apple, and suddenly fell to the ground.
Yang Xiao stands at the crossroads of fate. On the left is a stable and carefree ordinary life, and on the right is the thrilling and restless life in the entertainment industry.
Yang Xiao closed the door to her ordinary life and opened the door to the entertainment industry. Inside the door, there was a beautiful illusion that others could not see, accompanying her. Whenever Yang Xiao could not hold on any longer, she would think of her and look at her, and her mind would suddenly become clear and energetic as if the snow in early winter had fallen.
When Yang Xiao learned that he had a chance to get close to Murong Bo, he headed towards the "Red Apple" without hesitation.
"Ren Qingxue...who is she to you?"
Yang Xiao was silent for a moment, "...He is my benefactor."
She was the gentle elder sister who gently brushed the dust off the corners of little Yang Xiao's clothes in the dilapidated welfare home, the beautiful elder sister who said that the purple nails on Yang Xiao's nails were the most unique and beautiful color, and the reliable elder sister who donated money to Yang Xiao to cure her congenital disease.
It’s…the best Ren Qingxue.
——It is you who gave me a second life, a new life, and allowed me to see the splendor of the world.
Yang Xiao felt that expressing any other emotion was blasphemous, and only gratitude seemed somewhat sincere.
Qiao Zhizheng saw the admiration in her eyes - just as when Qiao Zhizheng looked at Qiao Zheng, Qiao Zhizheng understood Yang Xiao's thoughts and sighed for her in her heart.
She could do more than just sigh, she could help.
Qiao Zhizheng said, "Someone is already working hard, and I believe the day when he will be punished is not far away."
When Yang Xiao heard this, he didn't know whether he had become numb after hearing it for so long, or whether he had been deceived so many times that he had become indifferent.
"Will I ever see that day?"
“That day will definitely come.
Yang Xiao was brought in front of Li Tianyi, who gave him a puzzled look. Qiao Zhizheng and Qiao Zheng simultaneously raised their hands to pinch their ears, then folded their arms and said the same thing:
"Leave it to you!"
"Leave it to you!"
"...You are reliable, she is relieved, and hopes that this matter can come to an end soon."
After bidding farewell to Li Tianyi, Qiao Zheng sat in the passenger seat, looking coldly at the colorful neon lights flashing outside the window.
Qiao Zhizheng didn't dare to disturb her, knowing that she was not in a good mood. She raised her hand and tuned up the cheerful and lively cartoon theme song. The rhythmic and childlike joyful song flowed in her ears.
Qiao Zheng chuckled and said, "Ms. Qiao Zhizheng, how old are you this year?"
The corners of Qiao Zhizheng's mouth curled up, and he smiled because of Qiao Zheng's smile.
"No more, no less. In a few days I'll be nineteen," Qiao Zhizheng paused and changed the subject, "Qiao Zheng, how are you planning to celebrate your birthday?"
Qiao Zheng seemed to suddenly realize this, "Ah... I haven't celebrated my birthday in a long time."
It was clearly just an ordinary sentence, but Qiao Zhizheng felt sad for no reason.
Qiao Zhizheng asked cautiously, "Why not?"
Qiao Zheng opened her mouth silently, then gently closed it. At the moment when she thought she wouldn't get an answer, she spoke, unveiling a corner of the mystery of the past. "...I was cyberbullied for a few years. Every birthday I'd be hounded by trolls, followers, and paparazzi. Later, around the time of my birthday, I'd find a secluded place to disconnect from the internet for a while, and I stopped celebrating my birthday."
Qiao Zhizheng's lips trembled, and the world before her eyes turned into a flashing river of light.
There was an itch on her chin, it was tears flowing down there. It turned out that the world was not moving, but tears were sliding down from the corners of Qiao Zhizheng's eyes.
Qiao Zhizheng pulled over and leaned over the steering wheel, ready to let her tears flow for a while. The moment she leaned over, the steering wheel made a long "beep" sound.
Qiao Zheng was originally looking out the window with a blank look in her eyes, lost in a whirlpool of memories. She was brought back to her senses by the sound of "beep". Looking at Qiao Zhizheng's tearful face, her heart moved.
"It's all in the past, there's nothing to cry about."
Although she said that, her body had its own thoughts. By the time Qiao Zheng reacted, her fingertips were already stained with Qiao Zhizheng's tears. Qiao Zheng licked her fingertips, the tears tasted salty and bitter. Qiao Zheng squinted her eyes, enjoying the tears Qiao Zhizheng shed for her. She felt inexplicably happy in her heart, but also a little reluctant.
Qiao Zhizheng described the tears as "bitter."
Qiao Zhizheng stared blankly at Qiao Zheng's series of actions. Like a goose with its neck strangled, he made a move that he would never dare to do under normal circumstances. Qiao Zhizheng slowly stretched his body, reached over the central armrest of the car, and held Qiao Zheng's fingertips in his mouth.
Unexpectedly, Qiao Zheng didn't hide.
Slowly, Qiao Zhizheng gave in.
Qiao Zhizheng described Qiao Zheng's saliva as "sweet."
Qiao Zhizheng's eyes were blurred with tears, the corners of her eyes were slightly red, and she even spoke with a tearful tone.
Qiao Zheng thought, all this was because of me.
Her love, her hate, her sorrow, her joy, her tears, her laughter, everything about her, all happened because of me.
Qiao Zheng's heart was a lonely night. The moon controlled the tides, and the moonlight grew larger and larger with the bustling thoughts in Qiao Zheng's mind. Finally, at a certain moment, the moon's light illuminated her entire heart. The moonlight was so bright that the tide surged to the high sky.
Qiao Zheng decided to give Qiao Zhizheng a chance, which was also a chance for herself.
"If one day I disappear from this world and return to my original timeline, what will you do?"
Qiao Zhizheng answered seriously, word for word, "I will try to be like you, thinking of you in the mirror, and I will try to live my life—before I become you."
Qiao Zheng laughed at her, "Little pervert."
Qiao Zheng laughed at herself, "I'm a pervert too."
Qiao Zheng put her arms around Qiao Zhizheng's neck, stuck out her tongue to open Qiao Zhizheng's lips, and exchanged saliva back and forth, just tasting it lightly.
"Now, is it still sweet?"
Qiao Zhizheng's mind went blank. She knew every word of what he said and could read them smoothly when put together, but she just didn't understand what he meant.
A long, long time passed, or perhaps only a few minutes. Qiao Zhizheng, who had no idea how quickly time passed, swallowed her saliva. After tasting the sweetness in her mouth, she tried hard to swallow it down, and finally said, "Again."
Qiao Zheng: ...
Qiao Zheng reached out to turn off the engine and lock the car, and the interior of the car suddenly fell into darkness.
The faint light from the street lamp shone through the front window of the car, and the outline of Qiao Zhizheng's face was half bright and half dim inside the car.
Qiao Zheng thought, this is me, and this is not me either.
"I" and I have had exactly the same eighteen years of life, the same parents and relatives, the same thoughts, and the same face.
The tip of Qiao Zheng's nose touched the tip of another nose of the same curvature.
The hot air sprayed back and forth against the philtrum.
The tip of their noses rubbed against each other gently, then tilted, and their soft lips touched. Qiao Zheng's kiss came quickly and fiercely, as if she was asking for something from Qiao Zhizheng's body.
The root of Qiao Zhizheng's tongue felt numb and painful, and his back was shaking wildly with excitement, but he let Qiao Zheng take what she wanted.
There was a sigh of satisfaction in my heart, "I'll give it to you, I'll give it to you, all of it, as long as you are mine."
A big drop of water hit the car window.
Qiao Zheng was stunned.
Qiao Zhizheng grabbed her head and pushed it down hard, pressing it against his swollen lips. His anxious movements expressed his uneasiness.
Qiao Zheng sank into the wet, hot, sweet demand.
The raindrops were getting heavier and heavier, and under the glow of the street lamps, the rain flowed like a river of light on their faces.
——We and I, transcending time and space, met here and fell in love at this moment.
——From now on, the rainy days in my life are the brightest sunshine in my life.
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The author has something to say: I can’t even open my eyes. I’ll finish the rest tomorrow. My eyelids are drooping. My mind is a mess right now. I’m going to sleep. I’ll read it again tomorrow when I change my mind.
Second Editor: Here it comes. I think the greatest joy of writing is that while writing, I unexpectedly hit the theme. It feels like the characters have slowly grown flesh and blood. I created them, but they have their own life development. It's really wonderful.
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