Chapter 116 Extreme Cold. Confession
After Gu Ye came back from the police station, his sleep quality dropped sharply.
Sometimes I dreamed that my mother was pushed down the stairs, sometimes I dreamed that I was strangled to death by Gu Tianming, and sometimes I dreamed that Chu An was shot to death.
I used to sit in the corner of the stairs for half the night, but now I sit there for the whole night.
When Chu An caught him not sleeping, he had no choice but to grab him by the ears and carry him to the bed.
"Xiao An..."
Chu An looked at his dark circles that were almost as dark as Guo Bao's, and his voice softened, "Are you thinking about... Mom?"
Gu Ye wrapped himself in a blanket, like a cocoon, and said in a muffled voice: "Xiao An, I used to have a lot of ideas. I wanted to buy a luxury car and a yacht, travel around the world with my family, see the aurora, and hold an art exhibition in the Royal Palace of Milan.
But now...none of this is possible. I'm a pauper, without a family, and I don't need to work hard for anything, not even to protect you."
Chu An sighed. Humans are primates because they have emotions. And because of their rich emotions, they often fall into self-loathing, doubt, and denial. In short: This is a complex phobia of the end of the world.
Most ordinary people are divided into three stages.
Stage 1: Doubt everything you see. No longer believe in the law and conscience, and don't understand the events in the news. Why are passers-by so indifferent? Why don't they save her? Why do they do such a cruel thing? She just wants something to eat.
The second stage: I can’t bring myself to do it. My awareness of prevention has improved, and I know I need to protect my family or myself, and I can’t be too kind. But I still can’t bring myself to do it when someone robs me, let alone kill me, and I’m still trying to get them to change their ways.
The third stage is doubting one's own ability. The consciousness and behavior have been adjusted. If there is something, hide it immediately, never tolerate those who steal things, and always be vigilant. But then you find that the previous knowledge and ability are nothing in the face of barbarism.
Especially after the failure of the first self-defense war, I began to have serious self-doubt. Can I survive in the apocalypse with my family? I don’t have any skills to survive in the apocalypse, and I will become a burden to my family or friends. They will definitely abandon me as a useless thing. No one will want me, no one will help me, I am just a waste of food.
Some people will never get out of a certain stage, and lose the best time to survive. The most difficult ones are those in the first and second stages, but fortunately Gu Ye is not one of them.
Gu Ye should be in the third stage now, which is better.
Chu An, the life mentor, starts to act like a “Well… I won’t tell you to be strong and brave. Look at the time now. You have no right to say such things.
You can continue to be yourself here with me. I don't need you to protect me, nor do I need you to become so strong, so you don't have to have any psychological burden.
I just hope that all your actions and decisions will be based on the safety of both of us and will be carefully considered, understand?"
"I won't meddle in other matters." He hurriedly explained, hiding in his heart, "You are the only one I have, and I will value your life more than mine." "Xiao An, I'm just afraid... that you think I'm useless."
In Guotai and Fuyuan Mansion, everyone is looking for strong teammates to form alliances. There are also many such remarks on the Internet, that one must quickly enter the apocalyptic state, withdraw from all emotions, kill decisively, and showing a sympathetic look is a sin.
Chu An didn't know that he had so many thoughts in his mind, and said helplessly, "I never disliked you for being a poor student before."
"That's different. Now it involves lives. I saw on the Internet that even close friends and relatives cannot make mistakes and cannot drag us down." He said weakly, "Only...only useful people remain in the team."
“…”
Gu Ye lowered his eyes, "I'm afraid I can't meet that requirement."
Chu An understood that everyone’s life trajectory was different. Some people might have been really deceived by their relatives and friends, and were heartbroken and could no longer accept anyone.
Thinking of this, she was very grateful to Lao Chu for not abandoning her when she was young and not blindly blaming her when she made mistakes out of ignorance.
Mou Ci, Gu Ye and Zhuona never looked down on her background, nor did they treat her as a freak because of her cold and distant personality.
In her lonely life before, there was a little starlight falling on her head, which kept her from going far. Whether in the last life or this life, because of this little starlight, she retained the last bottom line.
Perhaps the only difference between her and those people is that she knew what she wanted from the beginning - her family is always around her and she has good friends to accompany her occasionally.
She shouldn't look down on them for just entering the apocalypse, she should teach them how to survive in the apocalypse. As for ability, it's enough for her to have it.
What she has to do now is to continuously strengthen herself and reach the ultimate by taking advantage of the opportunity of space and golden finger.
If one day they went astray, she could pull them back. If they went far away, she would see them off for the last time. If they had to poke a hole in the sky, she could calmly say: It’s okay, as long as you are safe, I will go to the Ninth Heaven to fight the gods and Buddhas.
Oh, how should I explain to the big dog in front of me that she really doesn’t need him to be great. As long as he is willing to listen to her and they can understand, respect and treat each other sincerely, that will be enough.
As the saying goes, when things come together, they stay together; when things separate, they separate; it has nothing to do with ability.
Finally, she uttered five words after a long pause, "Spend less time on the Internet in the future."
Gu Ye emerged from the cocoon, his handsome face tense, "Xiao An, can I ask one last question?"
"explain."
"Are you really willing to take me in and live with me?"
In her previous life, when she had the ability, she would also take people with disabilities on missions. Just like herself, without the captain's tolerance, she would not have lived for more than four years.
"Gu Ye, I am officially telling you this now, and I will only say this once. I am willing to let you live with me. Of course, if one day you want to leave, I will not force you to stay."
"I won't leave. I will study hard and become stronger." Gu Ye finally breathed a sigh of relief. From now on, Xiao An will be his only family.
The big dog's eyebrows and eyes look pretty good when they are relaxed. However, now we have to find a way to distract his attention and stop him from always focusing on things that don't suit him. It's better to relax than to block. An immature idea came to mind.
That night, Chu An brought down a basket of ingredients from upstairs. The two of them closed the doors and windows tightly and cooked some hot pot base.
Gu Ye peeled potatoes, sweet potatoes, lotus roots, and cucumbers, and Chu An cut them into slices. Other beef, mutton, tripe, shrimp, luncheon meat, scallops, squid, mushrooms, and noodles were all ready.
After the soup was cooked, they put the ingredients into the pot and watched the ingredients slowly change color in the boiling soup, with the corners of their mouths rising constantly.
A month ago, Gu Ye couldn't even imagine this. Now, there are not many people out there who can eat such delicious food, so he cherishes every bite.
After eating hot pot, Gu Ye cleaned the table and washed the dishes. Chu An mopped the floor and made the bed. She decided to sleep downstairs today because it was warm.
When the lights were turned off at night, Gu Ye turned his head to look at her frequently, and was finally hit with a pillow.
Gu Ye smiled foolishly, picked up the pillow, stood up and walked to Chu An's bed, carefully lifted her head, put the pillow down, "Good night."
Maybe he will never be a hero in this life, but he can be a clown that belongs only to her.
After returning to bed, my eyelids started to droop after a while.
He had another dream, not a nightmare nor a sweet dream. He dreamed that his mother went to the head teacher and insisted that the top student in the class be his deskmate, but he was not happy about it.
[Mom, please be my child in the next life. ]
Time passed quickly and it was already early September. The temperature dropped to minus seven degrees Celsius with a few snowflakes falling occasionally.
There is a small blackboard on the wall of room 1111.
"You have to study even if you don't have a school. Knowledge is the primary productive force. Opposition is futile. I don't care whether others study or not, you have to study."
The most common scene recently is that Gu Ye lowers his head and Chu An frowns.
"This question is wrong. I have explained it before. The algorithm is too long-winded. The grammar is obviously wrong. This is a grammatical error."
Happy families are all alike; each unhappy family is unhappy in its own way.
Chu An felt that her "immature" idea was a good one. It could not only kill her boring time, but also consume Gu Ye's vigorous energy.
“Boom boom boom…”
The knock on the door saved Gu Ye. He rushed to the door in one step and asked, "Who is it?"
"I'm Tang Xiao."
Gu Ye hurriedly opened the inner door and confirmed through the security window that it was Tang Xiao before opening the outer door.
"Brother Tang, is there anything?" In order to avoid classes and do papers, Gu Ye often visited Yin Tianlin and Tang Xiao's homes these days, saying that today this brother needed his help hammering nails, and tomorrow that brother needed him to help carry water. The few of them have become very familiar with each other.
Recently, because of the trading market, social order has been restored to some extent, so Chu An doesn’t care too much about it.
"We want to go to the trading market in the afternoon. Would you like to go?" Tang Xiao asked.
Gu Ye suddenly became interested, and his face was beaming with joy when he turned around and talked to Chu An.
That was exactly what she meant. The trading market had been open for more than a week, and everyone who wanted to buy had already bought. The probability of danger happening was much smaller.
Continue read on readnovelmtl.com