I've loved beautiful things since I was born. Before Luo Qingyun was born, I had never seen such a beautiful baby. She was like a sculpture of white jade, a natural beauty.
But she completely captivated me.
He had to watch his younger brother while eating, while drinking water, while sleeping, while going out to play, while practicing martial arts, and even while relieving himself. He would keep a distance of three zhang (approximately 10 meters) to avoid disturbing his younger brother with the smell.
She cherished him even more than his own mother, treating him like a precious gem, almost as if she had tied him to her body with a rope. She truly adored him.
At that time, Luo Qingyun loved to laugh, and her laughter was exceptionally beautiful, like a celestial being descended to earth.
Not only that, he was also very smart and knew how to please people. By the age of five, he was already a famous child prodigy in Luo Fengtang. He could learn and master almost anything. There was nothing he couldn't learn.
And he's very clingy to me and very obedient to me. If I say one, he won't say two; if I tell him to chase the dog, he will never chase the chicken.
He's absolutely my darling; no one can compare to him.
Therefore, for a very long time, I was very proud to have such an outstanding younger brother.
It wasn't until I was six years old that I first learned what it meant to be cuckolded, and that's when I started to drift apart from Luo Qingyun. The older I got, the more I learned, and the more distant we became. Eventually, we couldn't stand each other anymore and became complete enemies, never to be close again.
Gradually, Luo Qingyun became unruly and dissolute, frequenting brothels, transforming from a child prodigy into the little tyrant of Minchuan.
He never laughed with the same pure and radiant innocence as he did in childhood. Later, his laughter became even more captivating, mesmerizing, and breathtaking, but it carried a hint of frivolity. It had lost its original innocence and purity, its brilliance and warmth, and instead became cold, indifferent, and distant.
I know it's because of me. My indifference created his indifference. I closed my heart, and I closed his too. We each put on a mask.
Later, my second aunt gave birth to my third brother, and our relationship grew increasingly distant. Later still, I ran away from home and never saw him again. I heard that after I left, he searched frantically for me, threatening to take me back, break my legs, lock me in my family's cellar, and never let me go out again.
So when I saw him again, my first thought was to run away.
I never expected that he would travel so far to find me in the capital. Although he may have come to find Princess Anguo and it was just a coincidence that we met, I have to say I was touched. It feels good to have someone worry about you.
Back then, I didn't understand why my father would marry a woman who was pregnant with another man's child. I just felt ashamed, willingly cuckolding him and raising another man's child better than his own daughter. This caused my daughter to be pointed at and cursed, called a wild child who was raised by someone but not cared for by anyone, and even worse than a bastard brought by someone else.
Now I've come to terms with it. No matter what happened back then, it was a matter of the previous life and has nothing to do with Luo Qingyun. He really never owed me anything. It was I who transferred my resentment towards my father onto my second and third brothers and my second mother.
Now, my father is old, Luo Qingyun is dead, and I've grown up. There are some things I should have let go of long ago.
I should have apologized to him seven years ago. We were drinking together and watching the sunrise together last time. I never imagined that we would be separated by death so soon.
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