Shengxia was pale to begin with. She was frightened by herself. Her face looked bloodless and pale. She hugged Qin Ge: "Qin Ge, I'm scared..."
Qin Ge didn't understand what was going on and hugged her: "What are you afraid of?"
What was Shengxia afraid of? She was afraid of returning to the little Western-style house. She was afraid of facing the place where she had made such a huge mistake, a place where she could never make amends. In her previous life, if she had been just a brainless, foolish vase in the first few years she and Qin Ge were together, then in the years after they moved into the little Western-style house, the knife she had stabbed into Qin Ge's heart, in retrospect, was worse than even an animal.
After her rebirth, she has been deliberately avoiding her past. The house is like the filth that she tried so hard to forget and erase. Now it will be laid naked in front of her again, like a slap in the face, reminding her how she has gradually trapped herself in the quagmire, reminding her that she once lived such a pampered life, but was not satisfied, did not distinguish between good and evil, and deeply betrayed her husband who loved her time and time again.
Shengxia's lips pressed against Qin Ge's neck: "Qin Ge, what if one day I make a mistake?"
Qin Ge frowned and touched the hair on the back of her neck soothingly: "Then admit your mistake. I won't blame you. It's okay."
When Shengxia heard Qin Ge say "it's okay", her eyes suddenly became wet, and tears welled up in her eyes like a sour tide. In her previous life, she had believed that little singer and stole a huge amount of money from Qin Ge. The next morning, when the police came to her house, Qin Ge touched her head and said to her, "It's okay, he will be back soon."
Shengxia never told anyone about it. Even when she ran away with that singer and lived in poverty for several years, she was tortured to the point of wanting to die every day. She never dared to think about that morning in her mind.
She didn't dare to think about it, and he didn't dare to think about it. When the police came, she dodged the police's questioning. Could it be that Qin Ge beside her really didn't notice anything?
Shengxia had been lying to herself that Qin Ge didn't know about it. Otherwise, that would be a crime that would have put Qin Ge in jail. If Qin Ge had even the slightest suspicion, he would never have let her go...
But she knew clearly in her heart that Qin Ge knew her so well. They fell in love when they were young and snuggled up to each other for warmth. Just by looking at her, Qin Ge knew whether she wanted to cry or laugh.
Her poor acting skills at the time could not hide her guilt and fear at all. With Qin Ge's eyes, it was impossible for him not to see that there was something wrong with the people around him.
But even though Qin Ge saw it, he still said to her: "It's okay."
In the years that followed, that morning became a knife hanging over Shengxia's heart at all times. She thought countless times that she would rather Qin Ge was unaware of what happened that morning, and she would rather be seen as an ungrateful person in Qin Ge's eyes from then on. She didn't want that, she didn't want Qin Ge to see her deceive him in order to escape from him before he was taken away by the police.
"Hey dear, don't cry. Why are you crying all of a sudden?"
Shengxia kept crying without saying a word. Qin Ge wiped Shengxia's tears with a tissue and said anxiously, "What happened? Tell me first..."
Sheng Xia choked up, "Qin Ge, what if I made a huge mistake... so huge that it can never be made up for, and you'll never forgive me, or even never want to see me again... What should I do?"
Shengxia grabbed Qin Ge's shirt tightly, as if she was grabbing her life-saving straw.
Qin Ge saw that she was holding her fists tightly. "In my heart, you haven't done such a big thing. As long as you tell me, I will forgive you. I won't miss you... What did you do? You are afraid that I will get angry and lose my temper with you, so you dare not tell me? I'm not angry, I won't lose my temper. Don't cry first, tell me what happened first..."
Qin Ge lowered his voice to coax her. Sheng Xia was thinking about what she couldn't bear if Qin Ge didn't want to see her anymore. She couldn't bear it at all! When she thought of this, Sheng Xia felt as if a piece of her heart had been dug out. "I really know I was wrong, Qin Ge, I really know I was wrong! I have no brains, I'm such a fool, so stupid, but I swear I really know I was wrong! I know it doesn't matter if you want to kill me, please forgive me, no matter how painful it is, I can bear it, really, I swear I will never hide again, I will never do it again, please forgive me?"
The whole car was filled with Shengxia's crying. It was difficult for her to calm down when she was so emotional. She couldn't help but think that she was already twenty years old and would soon be twenty-one. At this time of the year, she was bored at home and went out to play, and got a scar on her arm that would never go away.
Now that she is in college, she no longer runs into those people. Naturally, there are no scars on her arms, and her skin is even more delicate than in her previous life. But thinking of their destiny in this life, it seems that she will have to repay them in another way for avoiding them.
Shengxia wiped away her tears and rolled up her sleeves: "Qin Ge, hit me! Okay? Hit me hard! I swear I will change! I definitely won't scream..."
Shengxia started crying again. She couldn't even keep the promise she made... She cried and said, "I'm sorry, Qin Ge, I lied again. I might scream because it hurts so much! I really can't help it... But I will definitely let you finish beating me. I will take off my coat by myself. Qin Ge, please don't leave me. Just forgive me after you're done, okay? Okay?"
Shengxia's tears and snot mixed together and flowed down. She couldn't hear what Qin Ge said and could only cry incoherently.
Qin Ge's head was about to explode. Seeing Shengxia crying uncontrollably, she frantically took off her coat in the car and even took off her short-sleeved shirt to be shirtless. He grabbed Shengxia's wrist and angrily said, "Shengxia, stop crying!"
The anger and intimidation in Qin Ge's subtly lowered voice were obvious. Shengxia, who was deeply immersed in her own emotions, was also startled, and even her hands that were taking off her clothes froze at her ribs.
Qin Ge continued, "Put on your clothes."
Shengxia lowered her head, slowly put down her hands, and fell silent.
Qin Ge then took a breath and said, "Shengxia, have I ever fought with you in the past two years?"
Sheng Xia was stunned. Thinking about how Qin Ge had doted on her over the past two years, he would never have dared to touch her.
Shengxia shook her head, her voice a little hoarse: "No..."
"Why are you crying here when I didn't even hit you?"
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