Chapter 45 Flirting
Ji Mian's breath was stuck in his chest, almost forced out: "Not yet."
Fu Chenyu was silent again: "Then, can I know why not?"
Ji Mian's heartbeat was amplified, deafening to herself. She was afraid that Fu Chenyu could hear it: "I... I don't know if he likes me yet."
Fu Chenyu turned his head to look at him. Ji Mian had his eyes tightly closed. The darkness covered his face, and his face was red from neck to ears. "Have you asked him?"
Ji Mian's body trembled slightly, and he said timidly: "I haven't asked yet."
Fu Chenyu took a deep breath: "Why don't you ask first? If you don't ask, how do you know if he likes you?"
Ji Mian buried himself in the quilt: "Fu Chenyu, stop talking. I don't want to ask now."
Fu Chenyu let out a long breath and looked at the ceiling for a long time.
Ji Mian's eyelashes trembled violently, and no one could sleep that night.
Only the amplified heartbeat echoed throughout the room.
Ji Mian didn't go to bed until five o'clock. He had just dozed for two hours when it was dawn outside.
While he was drowsy, he seemed to hear Fu Chenyu getting up. The air conditioner was on in the room, so he didn't feel cold.
An hour later, Lin Yun's low voice was heard again: "Brother Mianmian, haven't you gotten up yet?"
Fu Chenyu replied: "No. Keep your voice down."
Later, Ji Mian was awakened by the aroma of food.
He stretched comfortably, and thinking about what he had done last night, his bones became stiff with a "crackling" sound.
Then, his face turned red from his neck to his ears. The door of the room clicked, and Fu Chenyu looked up at him: "Awake?"
Ji Mian: ...
"Um."
Fu Chenyu deliberately asked: "Is the room hot?"
Ji Mian: "No. Why do you think so?"
Fu Chenyu pointed to his face: "Your face is very red."
Ji Mian:!
"I just got up...I felt stuffy under the quilt." Ji Mian looked away and pretended to be calm.
"Oh." Fu Chenyu thought thoughtfully: "It seems that my quilt is quite thick. Hurry up and get up to have lunch."
Ji Mian nodded, and then suddenly said: "Fu Chenyu! Wait, last night, I... "
Fu Chenyu's eyes were heavy: "I remember everything."
Ji Mian: ...
It seems that it is not my illusion...
"Click." The door finally closed.
Ji Mian suddenly covered his face with his hands, and his pretended calmness was completely gone. He rolled over on the bed several times, shouting silently: Aa ...
His hair was a mess, with clumps sticking up here and there.
Ji Mian rubbed his face and placed his hands dejectedly on the quilt.
What should I do... My heart was beating so fast when I saw Fu Chenyu just now.
Am I really so bent?
Oh my God, how should I face Fu Chenyu? The boss treats me as a brother, but I want to treat him as my wife!
While eating, Ji Mian was absent-minded.
I always feel that after I became gay, I see the world differently.
For example, why hadn't he noticed before that Fu Chenyu's eyelashes were so long...
Fu Chenyu seemed to notice his gaze and looked over.
Ji Mian quickly lowered his head to eat. Fu Chenyu: ...
"Ji Mian." Fu Chenyu sighed.
Ji Mian: “Yeah.” He said he was eating.
Fu Chenyu said, "There's no food in your bowl. Does dry rice taste good?"
Ji Mian chewed a few mouthfuls with difficulty: "It's okay. I quite like eating dry rice. It's nutritious."
Fu Chenyu smiled, a little mockingly: "Why didn't I know you had this hobby before?"
Ji Mian said, "Maybe it's because you don't pay much attention to me."
Fu Chenyu: "Oh. How do you think I should pay attention to you?"
Ji Mian poked the white rice with chopsticks and thought to himself: I shouldn’t look ugly now, right?
I glanced at my clothes and pants. Well, they were neatly dressed and nothing indecent.
After dinner, the heavy snow outside did not stop. Ji Mian was not in a hurry to leave, so he sat on the sofa with Fu Chenyu to watch the replay of the Spring Festival Gala.
Lin Yun went upstairs to play on the computer. Lin Jianyi was out doing an interview and had not returned. Lin Xi was abroad. The huge villa was very quiet.
Now that Ji Mian was alone with Fu Chenyu, he had some hidden thoughts on his mind, and his heartbeat had not calmed down.
He was not focused on watching TV, always finding excuses to drink water or eat oranges, and then glance at Fu Chenyu.
Fu Chenyu suddenly asked: "Does it look good?"
Ji Mian shuddered and quickly said, "I wasn't looking at you."
"Oh." Fu Chenyu suddenly smiled: "I asked you if the TV was good? Who asked if you watched me?"
Ji Mian felt that he was being fooled by Fu Chenyu, but he couldn't tell what was wrong.
He was sitting cross-legged peeling an orange when he was suddenly pinched on the back of his neck. Fu Chenyu was the only one at home besides him. Ji Mian didn't hide and asked obediently, "I didn't look at you first this time. Why did you pinch my neck?"
Fu Chenyu raised his eyebrows: "Don't you want to be my rabbit?"
When Ji Mian heard him mention what he said yesterday, he felt a little restless.
Cotton Rabbit died, and he made a promise because he saw that he was so sad. But thinking about it afterwards, he felt that the promise was too ambiguous.
Who in their right mind would say that they would be a rabbit for another person?
How shameful...
Ji Mian's ears were getting redder and redder.
Fu Chenyu felt no burden and said, "He didn't even let me touch him. Officer Rabbit has a bad temper."
Hearing his complaining tone, Ji Mian really thought he had done something extremely evil.
"I'm not saying no." Ji Mian sat closer to Fu Chenyu and placed Fu Chenyu's hand on her thigh: "Let me touch your thigh. You don't even need to raise your hand."
"I don't want to touch it anymore." Fu Chenyu was quite difficult to please. He withdrew his hand, but after thinking about it, he felt it was a pity and simply rubbed Ji Mian's head.
Ji Mian covered his head and said, "Too hard. Are you usually this cruel to Mianmian Rabbit? No wonder all the fur was plucked out."
Fu Chenyu looked straight ahead, but his mind was replaying what Ji Mian said last night.
"Ji Mian, you last night..."
"I didn't sleep well last night!" Ji Mian quickly answered, obviously not wanting to talk about this topic. He stood up and said hurriedly: "I'll go to my room and get some more sleep, okay?"
Fu Chenyu stared at him for a while, then closed his eyes: "Okay."
He thought, give him a little more time.
Give yourself some time.
After returning from the winter break of my second year of high school, the academic workload became more intense and the competitive pressure was greater.
Ji Mian had to put aside his thoughts about Fu Chenyu for the time being in order to prepare for the upcoming monthly exam.
Fu Chenyu's brain was naturally suited for learning. After reading it himself, he was able to tutor Ji Mian with ease.
The consequence of Ji Mian's high-intensity study was that he collapsed before the monthly exam.
Fu Chenyu was the first to discover that he had a fever. Ji Mian himself felt a little unwell, but forced himself to get out of bed and wash up.
Her clothes were in a mess and she even took the wrong school uniform. When she walked to the door, she was grabbed by Fu Chenyu.
Ji Mian couldn't hold on any longer and fell back, leaning on Fu Chenyu, his face burning terribly.
The roommate saw this and exclaimed, "What the hell?" He then looked at Ji Mian's face and asked, "Brother Fu, does Ji Mian have a cold?"
Fu Chenyu touched Ji Mian's forehead, which was incredibly hot. His roommate immediately understood what was going on: "Then you two can stay in the dormitory. I'll ask Lao Cai for leave. Do you want to buy some medicine? I'll bring it back from the infirmary at noon."
"No, I'll take him straight to the infirmary."
Ji Mian's cold was so severe that it made his brain feel like a mess.
The IV drip in the infirmary had no effect, so Fu Chenyu could only call Lin Minzhi and send Ji Mian to the hospital.
Two days were wasted in the back and forth. During this period, Fu Chenyu came to see him several times and found that the little bit of weight he had given Ji Mian was gone in an instant.
On the third day, Ji Mian went home to rest. Lao Cai approved him for one day of sick leave and told him not to study too hard.
Lin Minzhi felt sorry for her son, her eyes red with tears. She stayed by Ji Mian's bedside, stroking his head. "Mom doesn't ask you to go to a prestigious university. Just study in Tongcheng. Your health is the most important thing."
Ji Mian looked at Lin Minzhi and felt a pang of sadness in his nose.
No matter how well Lin Minzhi took care of herself in the past two years, her face still looked old. When Ji Mian fell ill, she was so anxious that she didn't put on any makeup, and she looked haggard and pale.
"Mom..." A feeling of guilt washed over him like a flood.
During the past two days when Ji Mian had a fever, he had many bizarre dreams, most of which were about his past life.
His memories weren't entirely his own; at least a third belonged to the original Ji Mian. The fusion of the two had given rise to the man he was today. The plot of "Stranger Tenderness" kept swirling in his mind, and Fu Chenyu's half-smile, gentle yet frightening expression made his skin crawl.
This PTSD is serious...
But when he woke up, besides Lin Minzhi, the person he wanted to see the most was Fu Chenyu.
Ji Mian didn't know how to tell Lin Minzhi about this. His brother had left for more than ten years when he found out he liked men. He saw how much of a blow Lin Minzhi had received.
Now should I tell Lin Minzhi that I also like men...
Lin Minzhi touched his face: "What's wrong? Are you hungry? Mommy will buy you something to eat."
Ji Mian shook her head: "Mom, I want to tell you something."
Lin Minzhi looked at him, and Ji Mian mustered up the courage: "I think I... I am the same as my brother."
He didn't want to lie to Lin Minzhi, nor did he want to be secretive with Fu Chenyu if he really confessed to him in the future.
Lin Minzhi was stunned for a moment, then slowly put her hand down. Ji Mian's heart was beating fast. On the one hand, he selfishly hoped that Lin Minzhi could forgive him, but on the other hand, he hoped that Lin Minzhi would not forgive him.
He felt sorry for Lin Minzhi.
Lin Minzhi's reaction was not very strong: "Mianmian said she is the same as her brother. In what way are they the same?"
Ji Mian lowered her eyelashes: "I discovered some time ago that I also seem to like...men."
The last two words were spoken as softly as they could be. Ji Mian said, "I'm sorry. Mom, please hit me."
Lin Minzhi sighed: "Why would I hit you for no reason? You're sick. Did Mianmian do it on purpose? Mommy feels sorry for you now."
Ji Mian suddenly raised his head and looked at Lin Minzhi in surprise.
Lin Minzhi held his hand and said, "Do you still think I'm the same illiterate as before? I've let go of your brother's matter a long time ago. I've read a lot of information on this topic over the years. I'm not as fragile as you think."
Ji Mian's lips trembled slightly: "Don't you blame me?"
"Why should I blame you? This is your own life. I only care about your safety, health, and longevity." Lin Minzhi's eyes were red. "Don't you understand this little bit of truth? It was Mianmian who taught me that if I don't live for others, I should live for myself. I live for myself, so you should live for yourself too."
Her voice was nasal. "I expected this a long time ago. The books Mom read said that if one of the brothers is gay, the probability of the other one being gay is very high. I just kept hoping against hope, thinking you and your brother were different."
Lin Minzhi shed tears: "Mom won't stop you, I just think this road is difficult to walk. I have seen how your brother walks. Mom has been guided by others before, so she is not afraid. You are so young, what should you do?"
How much suffering do you have to endure and how many rumors do you have to hear before you can get through this?
She lowered her head helplessly, wiping away her tears: "What should I do, son..."
Ji Mian didn't expect Lin Minzhi to react like this. His eyes became sore and tears fell.
Lin Minzhi held his hand and said, "Mom can still take care of you for a few more years. I hope you can get married and have someone to accompany you. I'm afraid that when I die, my son will have no one to take care of him. I won't be able to rest in peace."
"Don't talk about this..." Ji Mian was most afraid of hearing words about life and death from Lin Minzhi. Lin Minzhi passed away early in her previous life, and Ji Mian has always had a psychological shadow on her.
Lin Minzhi cried sadly. Ji Mian hugged her and patted her mother's back silently.
He found that Lin Minzhi was no longer young, her back was no longer straight, she was very old and as fragile as a piece of paper.
The child who once babbled has grown up, and his broad shoulders can support Lin Minzhi's body.
At this moment, Ji Mian suddenly realized the heavy responsibilities on his shoulders, both about Lin Minzhi and Fu Chenyu.
After telling Lin Minzhi the secret, Ji Mian felt much more relaxed.
Lin Minzhi knew much more about homosexuality than he did, so after accepting the fact, she stopped dwelling on it.
As the saying goes, children and grandchildren have their own blessings. Lin Minzhi only hopes that Ji Mian can find a man to spend her life with. She doesn't ask for anything from the other party, but only asks him to be good to Ji Mian.
However, Ji Mian obviously underestimated women's intuition.
At night, Lin Minzhi suddenly asked, "Mianmian, do you have someone you like now?"
Ji Mian nodded awkwardly: "Yes..."
Lin Minzhi didn't even think about it and blurted out, "Is it Xiao Fu?"
Ji Mian turned around and almost buried himself in the quilt. He was quite shocked and felt that he had not shown it so obviously.
Lin Minzhi quickly said, "Oh, I'm just guessing. You don't have anyone else you'd like to hang out with, so if you like someone, then what's going on with Xiao Fu?"
When Ji Mian spoke to Lin Minzhi, she stopped hiding it and stammered, "He, he probably likes men too..."
Lin Minzhi breathed a sigh of relief: "I watched you and him grow up, so it's good this way."
When she thought of Fu Chenyu, Lin Minzhi felt satisfied again. Fu Chenyu was good-looking, had excellent grades, knew her well, and they had been close friends since childhood. She was very happy to have him as her "daughter-in-law".
Ji Mian blushed: "What are you thinking? He doesn't like me, so I just have a one-sided crush on him."
Lin Minzhi looked at Ji Mian with a ghostly look. Ji Mian was bewildered. After a while, Lin Minzhi sighed softly and thought silently in her heart: How could her son be so slow in emotions?
After school on Friday afternoon, there was no evening self-study, so Fu Chenyu went directly to Ji Mian's house to visit him.
As a result, he ran into Li Jue and Su Luoyu halfway. Su Luoyu was walking very fast, as if trying to get rid of Li Jue, and scolded him not to follow him.
Li Jue rolled his eyes and replied bluntly, "Who's following you? I'm here to see my future wife."
Su Luoyu saw Fu Chenyu and greeted him. After looking at his route, he asked, "Are you going to see Ji Mian?"
Fu Chenyu remained silent. Su Luoyu said, "I also heard that Ji Mian was sick, so I came to see him. Wanna go together?"
Li Jue said with disgust, "I don't want to be with this male vixen."
Su Luoyu smiled faintly: "Then please roll away smoothly."
"Fuck! If I hadn't been unable to find Ji Mian's house, I wouldn't have had to follow you around."
Su Luoyu didn't bother to pay attention to him. She caught up with Fu Chenyu in two or three steps and the two walked side by side.
Li Jue felt aggrieved for a long time, then resigned himself to his fate and followed.
Lin Minzhi was making porridge for Ji Mian at home when the doorbell rang.
She turned off the fire, went downstairs and opened the door. She first saw Fu Chenyu and then Su Luoyu. She knew them both.
But she didn't know Li Jue very well and was a little hesitant.
Su Luoyu has always been very obedient to her elders. She smiled and said, "Auntie, let's go see Ji Mian."
Lin Minzhi said, "Come in." She glanced at Ji Mian and said, "This is..."
When Li Jue saw Lin Minzhi for the first time, he almost didn't recognize her.
In Ji Mian's memory, his mother had never been so noble and imposing.
He was stunned for a moment, then quickly shook his "mother-in-law's" hand and introduced himself casually: "Auntie, I'm Li Jue. I'm Mianmian's friend."
Lin Minzhi was skeptical and didn't have a good impression of Li Jue. The boy's sharp appearance made Lin Minzhi feel uncomfortable.
When Li Jue came, he came with the intention of pleasing his mother-in-law. He was sweet-mouthed, and although Lin Minzhi didn't have a good impression of him at first, she couldn't lose face after being coaxed by Li Jue's constant calls of "Auntie" and "You look like a sister when you are young."
Fu Chenyu turned and walked towards the second floor. Ji Mian heard the noise and saw him when he looked up.
"Are you feeling better?" Fu Chenyu sat on Ji Mian's bed.
"I've recovered a long time ago. I've been lying down for a few days, and my bones are so weak." Ji Mian touched his nose: "Why did you think of coming to see me?"
Fu Chenyu raised his eyelids and said, "My rabbit is sick, of course I have to come and see it."
Ji Mian was so annoyed that he didn't say anything.
Fu Chenyu asked him if he wanted some candy. Ji Mian had only been drinking porridge these days and his mouth had no taste, so he happily agreed.
Fu Chenyu slowly took out a bag of candy, tore it open, and Ji Mian reached out to take it.
The other party replied coldly: "Open your mouth."
Ji Mian was stunned.
Fu Chenyu said, "It's time to feed the rabbit."
Ji Mian lowered his head and took the candy on Fu Chenyu's fingertips into his mouth for some unknown reason.
Fu Chenyu felt his fingertips slightly wet, it was Ji Mian's tongue tip.
The rabbit quickly straightened its back, tilted its head to look out the window, and chewed the candy as if nothing had happened.
Was this just... teasing him?
Fu Chenyu raised his eyebrows. The stupid rabbit was very brave now.
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