World Four
The Wilson outside the spiritual sea was no longer the Wilson he was familiar with, and the Wilson in front of him, no matter how loyal and honest he was to him, was nothing more than the embodiment of a memory from his military academy days.
After she leaves this place... Arisa wondered to herself, how would Wilson, who had gained this memory, view what she had done in his mind? Would he be angry that the other Wilson in his mind had so recklessly let her hear his inner voice?
Arisa felt happy just thinking about that scene.
Without using his mental power, he couldn't seriously injure Wilson simply because of the difference in strength between the female and male insects, but he could at least disgust the other party in these places.
but……
"...I still don't know what you're thinking." Arisa said, the female insect leaning against him with her eyes closed. Perhaps he touched her hair too gently, and Wilson fell asleep against him. "Is it because male insects and female insects are in different environments? You want to be my female insect, but you don't want to trust me."
He asked himself if he had given Wilson enough.
Given the harshness and exploitation of female insects by their racial laws, the things he gave Wilson were enough to make Wilson envied by other female insects. He was even willing to give Wilson the position of female monarch in the future.
Isn’t this enough?
Isn't that enough for Wilson to trust him?
Thinking of this, Arisa couldn't help but take a deep breath. He murmured: "...It seems that we must find Gayel as soon as possible."
Wilson always liked to follow him when he was in military school. Because he was unwilling to leave his side easily and was never polite to male insects, Wilson was not very popular with both male and female insects.
So, if we were to talk about the factor that most likely influenced Wilson during his time at the military academy, it would probably be Gayel, whom Arisa had initially chosen to favor. Even if Arisa didn't want to see that idiot Gayel anymore, she had to admit that this guy might be the key to his success.
"If this is what you want to know, I can tell you now." Wilson's calm voice without a trace of ripples suddenly sounded in Arisa's ears, like a sudden thunderclap.
Arisa suddenly looked up at him, and because she moved so quickly, her neck even made a cracking sound: "When did you wake up?" And how much of what he said did she hear?
"I didn't fall asleep in the first place, I'm sorry." Those golden eyes, which were not at all sleepy, were now staring at Arisa. "I just felt that you seemed a little strange recently, and I wanted to know why."
"So you're testing me by pretending to be asleep?" Arisa was really amused by this unexpected development. "Wilson, you're really—"
"—I have no other choice!" Wilson held Arisa's neck. He then noticed that the male insect's body tensed up for a moment under his palm, as if it was wary of what he would do at this moment. "You didn't tell me what problem you encountered."
"Just tell me what happened to you." Wilson massaged Arisa's neck, "and I'll tell you where Gayel is, okay?"
The female insect's pleading "OK?" at the end of the sentence dissipated Arisa's initial anger at the female insect for testing her by pretending to sleep.
After just a moment's hesitation, Arisa made up her mind: "I can tell you, but are you really ready?"
"I'm ready." The silver-haired female insect nodded seriously.
Even though the female insect in front of him was just a carrier of a memory in the sea of mind, and Arisa could fool her by saying anything, but Arisa had no intention of hiding it - he now had to rely on the help of the real leader of this sea of mind, that is, Wilson in front of him, to find Gayel.
He can hide it, but what if the other party can detect his concealment?
Arisa knew her own character very well, and she also knew that she would not have enough patience to regain the trust of the female insect in front of her, so it would be better for her to tell her everything from the beginning.
Therefore, Wilson was forced to know that he was actually the embodiment of a memory, and was also forced to know that the self outside was now cooperating with the pirates and kidnapped Arisa on the battlefield.
The moment he knew these two things, Arisa could feel his entire spiritual sea vibrate, and he subconsciously looked to the side.
Compared to Arisa's reaction, the female insect, knowing she was just the embodiment of a memory, seemed calmer. "So you want to know what I went through during this period, and that's why you want to find Gaya here."
"But because I subconsciously don't want you to meet Gayel, you can't find him on your own."
Arisa really wanted to say to Wilson: No, you're wrong. I didn't come here to find out what you've been through during this time. I just want to know why you did that, that's all.
But as he looked at Wilson, dressed as a military cadet, and remembered his unconcealed feelings towards him, he finally gave up the idea: "That's not wrong."
"Well, I really don't have a good impression of this guy Gayel." Wilson didn't know what Arisa was thinking. He was still diligently telling Arisa his opinion of Gayel. "If it weren't for the male lord...you wanting to keep an eye on him to prevent him from doing anything detrimental to the Federation, I think I might never have had any contact with this male insect."
"It seems that you really hate him. Is it because he did something to you without my knowledge?" Arisa deliberately used a very ambiguous statement. He wanted to see what expression Wilson would have.
Sure enough, Wilson's brows furrowed as if he had heard something disgusting.
After meeting Arisa's gaze, the female insect's expression immediately changed from impatience to panic: "Male... No, I wasn't angry at you just now. I just really hate being put together with him, even if it's just a name."
"He didn't do anything to me," Wilson emphasized. "I kept my distance from him."
He didn't know that Arisa had seen his real self speaking harshly to Gayaru, and he also forgot that he had already shown a disgusted expression when Arisa had asked him before, "Do you think Gayaru is suitable to be your lord?"
Arisa had originally said this just to tease Wilson. Compared to the Wilson who said he'd answer any question but wouldn't explain why he'd kidnapped her, this Wilson from his military school days was much more interesting. And since his reaction met her expectations, Arisa deliberately ignored the two times Wilson accidentally blurted out the word "lord."
"Of course not." Wilson said this with certainty, but the next second after he said this, he looked at the black-haired male insect in front of him, and his tone began to become less certain, "...No, it seems not necessarily."
Arisa looked at him: "Why do you say maybe?" Given Wilson's rejection of Gayel, Arisa didn't think he would be seduced by Gayel.
"If he'd used himself to lure me, I definitely wouldn't have fallen for it," Wilson said, suggesting a new possibility. "But what if Gayel used you?"
Arisa looked at Wilson and wanted to ask what kind of reason this was. The you outside kidnapped me directly from the battlefield, but he inexplicably felt that this reason could be included in countless possibilities.
But if the whole thing was really that simple, why didn't Wilson tell himself from the beginning?
"We already agreed before," Arisa reminded Wilson, "If you earn enough merits, I will consider making you my queen."
Although he used the word 'consider' at the time, they all knew Arisa's character well: if Wilson earned enough merits, then Arisa's queen would only be him. So this possibility was not true.
"What if..." But Wilson didn't give up on what Arisa said. He looked at the male insect who finally relaxed after the conversation and took a deep breath. "What if I want to monopolize you?"
Arisa was stunned.
Whether they wanted to or not, every female and male Zerg's thoughts would slowly change under the influence of the Zerg's social structure. Even if Arisa had the slightest interest in Wilson, even if she wasn't as interested in the other females who always said, "Don't try so hard," she never imagined that the day would come when they would only have each other.
Just like what Wilson said before when he was in pain, how could they really only have each other?
If they really did that, they would become complete outliers among the Zerg and would be nailed to the pillar of shame by the entire Zerg.
After a long silence, Arisa finally found her voice again: "...The laws of the Zerg tribe stipulate that a male must have at least seven females."
"That's why he kidnapped you from the battlefield," Wilson said. He felt a little strange referring to his other self as 'he', but he really didn't want Arisa to think of him as 'that Wilson'. "And he collaborated with the pirates."
Only space pirates could accept such a rebellious idea as monopolizing a male insect.
Arisa stood up in an instant: "Take me to find Gayel, now."
Wilson looked up at him and stood up as well. The tall female insect immediately cast a shadow on the male insect. Then the shadow squatted down and looked directly at Arisa: "Master, this is just my spiritual sea, right?"
Arisa was about to frown at this male leader when she realized Wilson's plan: "What do you want to do?"
What was Wilson trying to do? He'd been living in this world all his life, and one day, he suddenly learned from his future master that he was just a consciousness carrying memories, not even a real Zerg. That would have been fine. His future master seemed to despise his real self, and he had to wonder what he was thinking, and now he had to take Arisa to meet this so-called Gayel.
"Even if I ask him, he'll only answer questions that even I know now," Wilson said to Arisa. "Why not ask me directly?"
Arisa heard Wilson's inner voice again.
That was an undisguised malice towards another self.
——'I can tell you what Wilson is unwilling to tell you.'
Arisa stared at the silver-haired female insect. It was as if he had been transported back to the moment when he learned that the damned male had died. That feeling of joy washed over him once again, making him tremble uncontrollably and want only to burst out laughing. But this time, unlike before, he no longer needed to hide his joy, fearing that the Zerg would mistake him for someone else.
"I ask questions, you answer them." After laughing, Arisa said to Wilson, "Any comments?"
"No." Wilson answered him firmly.
Arisa wasn't shy about asking a lot of questions. Even with only memories from his time at the military academy, Wilson tried his best to answer the male insect's various tricky questions, including, but not limited to, what topics Gayel and himself had discussed privately during this period.
"At first I just wanted to see what he could say," Wilson whispered. "Then gradually..."
Gayel brought him the books he had written. He knew they had nothing to do with real Zerg society, and the word "love" in them was a word he had never encountered before. But after replacing the two protagonists in the books with himself and Arisa, he couldn't help but indulge in them.
The two Zerg in the book only had each other, and they were never met with criticism, only envy. Wilson didn't like reading, always thinking it was a waste of time, but he never once hated himself for not living in that book.
"He's been trying to get me to be with him, and he even said that he's...potential..." Wilson frowned, trying to recall the unfamiliar word Gayel said, "I think he's a potential stock?"
Arisa didn't understand what the word meant, but she knew it had nothing to do with the answer he wanted to know. "I have one last question."
The female insect nodded, indicating that she was ready.
"Have you ever been on the battlefield?" Arisa asked. "Have you ever encountered a male insect going into battle without permission?"
After discussing with Wilson, he has preliminarily determined that the other party's current mentality has not changed. At best, he is still in the stage of being moved by the false dream outlined by Gayel.
In other words, there is still a gap in mentality between the current Wilson and becoming the Wilson in the future who will cooperate with the pirates.
Is it because of that battle?
"Of course." Wilson looked at Arisa and gave an affirmative answer. "But as for what you said... I've seen quite a few cases of male insects going into battle without permission. Which one are you asking about?"
"You—" Arisa was stunned. He looked up and down at Wilson's clothes, confirming that they were clothes only military cadets would wear. "What do you mean? You've already participated in many battles?!"
"During their time at the military academy, male insects are required to soothe the spiritual seas of female insects returning from the battlefield," Wilson said, looking at Arisa and suddenly realizing something. "And the female insects' obligation during their time at the military academy is to devote their spare time to military service."
"Why didn't you tell me this before?!" Arisa moved closer to Wilson and pressed his shoulders. "You said you've seen that kind of situation a lot. What do you mean?"
He originally thought that Wilson changed his mind because of that battlefield, but Wilson told him that he had seen many male insects go to the battlefield without permission?
"Battles involving male Zerg are usually fought over resources with the Empire. Because they're all Zerg, even if a male Zerg is captured, he won't suffer too much torture; at most, he'll be killed." Wilson was startled by Arisa's sudden approach. While thankful that his skin didn't blush, he continued to explain to the male Zerg, "Battles without male Zerg usually involve robbing alien races of their survival resources."
If they were competing with the empire for resources, captured male insects could still die a quick death. But if they were competing with alien races for resources, being tortured to death would be the easiest way to die.
"...Why didn't I know this?" Arisa asked.
He thought that if he trained hard, he could reach the level of low-level female Zergs. He thought that by being admitted to the military academy, he could prove that he had escaped the "privileges" given to male Zergs by the Zerg. It turned out that he had never succeeded.
It turns out that not only female insects live under the shadow of "male rights", but male insects also live under the shadow of "male rights".
"Because this is a confidentiality agreement that only female insects will sign." Wilson felt Arisa's body trembling, and he tentatively hugged her. "...I think I can understand why he hid this from you, Lord."
He suddenly began to regret analyzing these things for Arisa, and it was at this moment that he realized that he was still himself.
"You never told me this, Wilson." Arisa's hoarse voice rang out, "...What is this? Do you want me to thank you after I know this?"
Thank you for letting me dream for so long, thank you for making me think that I have successfully escaped the shackles on my body? What a joke!
"I just don't want to make you unhappy." Wilson replied, "It doesn't matter. I never want you to thank me for this. This is just a little selfish thing on my part."
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