Extra Chapter: Li Yanzhou's Inner Monologue
I've been looking for her for two years.
I haven't heard from her since she disappeared in the United States two years ago.
We had agreed to meet again the next afternoon, but in the end, she never replied to a single message.
Some people say that she is just playing a trick on me.
There were rumors that I was the most difficult guy to get along with in the college, with an icy face and a cold attitude towards every girl.
That's true.
But I've never felt any attraction to anyone, let alone any passion.
Except for her.
When I first saw her secretly observing me from behind the bar, my heart fluttered instantly.
She's so beautiful, like a girl who stepped out of a painting.
Why didn't she just come and confess her feelings to me directly like other people do? That would have saved her a lot of trouble.
Asking me to take the initiative is impossible; I know my own limitations.
So please, classmate, if you like me, come and confess your feelings.
I've been waiting for almost half a month, and she still doesn't seem to be making any moves. She just comes to the bar every day without fail to peek at me.
Occasionally, I would also take the initiative to visit her.
Our eyes would occasionally meet, then quickly look away, repeating this cycle over and over again.
Gradually, I couldn't wait any longer.
She still took no further action.
I told myself that if she didn't come looking for me, I would go looking for her myself.
After all, the feeling of love at first sight is too rare, and I don't want to miss it.
As a result, on the afternoon of the second day, whether it was a coincidence arranged by fate or she did it intentionally, she fell into the water.
It rained outside that day, and there were very few people in the venue. In fact, in the deep end area, there were almost only the two of us.
I saw it and immediately jumped down to save her.
Our paths crossed for the first time.
It was obvious that she couldn't hide the shyness and affection in her eyes.
Me too.
We exchanged contact information and agreed to meet again at the same time tomorrow afternoon.
Later, I never saw her again.
Two years passed without any news.
I don't know what happened to her, nor do I know if my waiting is worthwhile.
Over the past two years, I have gradually uncovered her identity by using my network of contacts.
It turns out she is the daughter of Luo Shengtian, an arms dealer in Black City.
Coincidentally, my mother also had a relationship with Luo Shengtian, a painful past.
Is there really such a coincidence in the world?
For some reason, my impression of her has subtly changed.
I can't say whether things have gotten better or worse, but the one thing that hasn't changed is my obsession with her.
That's all I know about her; her whereabouts and whereabouts remain a mystery.
In order to find her, I went to Heicheng and even stepped into an industry I had never thought of before, all in order to get close to her father and find out any bits and pieces of information about her.
I feel like I'm going crazy.
I've always thought of myself as a clear-headed and restrained person, but this is the first time I feel like I'm going crazy.
My life almost started anew because of a woman I only met once.
But she was like a thorn, piercing my heart and taking root there; I couldn't escape it.
Finally, in the third year, her name came into my view again.
It was an arms conference in Switzerland, and word had leaked in the industry that Luo Shengtian's daughter would be going in his place.
When I heard the news, I was overwhelmed with emotion.
Three years have passed. What does that mean? It means I'm going to see her again.
But I was also afraid and uneasy. Where had she been for the past three years? What had happened to her?
Could it be true, as the rumors say, that she was just playing a trick on me back then?
I dared not think any further.
In Switzerland, I finally met her.
She was just as beautiful as she was three years ago, her rose-gold hair so eye-catching that she was the center of attention wherever she stood.
I watched coldly as the men kept coming over to toast her, my heart filled with mixed feelings.
Finally, I took my wine glass and went too.
I don't even know what to call her.
My first sentence was a joke; I called her "Beautiful Luo" to see if she would remember me.
But all I saw in her eyes was a cold, unfamiliar aloofness.
Why is she acting as if she's never known me before?
Does she really not remember me?
A glass of red wine was poured over me.
She said to me, "You don't deserve it."
These three words, like a thorn, along with her, are once again nailed to my heart.
You don't deserve it.
Okay, okay, is this the first thing she said to me three years later?
My three-year wait turned into a joke in that instant.
It turns out that these past three years were nothing more than me indulging in self-pity.
Tsk, what a vicious and hypocritical woman.
I leaned down, got close to her, and said the same harsh words.
"Little princess, I will make you remember my name for the rest of your life."
From that moment on, I vowed that I would get her no matter what it took.
I swear, I'll make her beg for mercy in front of me.
If she were a rose, I think I would pluck her branches and leaves, and then crush her mercilessly.
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Luo Shengtian is a complete incompetent fool.
In the past two years, I've been operating in the shadows while he's been in the open. I've been recruiting and building up my own network, pulling strings behind the scenes, and gradually carving out my own territory right under his nose.
He's a complete idiot, useless, simple-minded, and easily trusting of others.
Two years is enough for me to overthrow him and replace him.
Later, Heicheng changed its surname to Li.
Luo Shengtian finally fell into my hands and became my prisoner.
It was both to avenge his mother and to make his precious daughter submit and obediently fall into my hands.
I kidnapped her and took her to my villa.
She looked like a frightened kitten, very scared.
I felt a surge of pleasure, relishing her predicament.
If a man's greatest desire for a woman is to have sex with her, then I am no exception.
I suddenly remembered what she said three years ago: "You don't deserve it."
Heh, baby, you're in my bed now, do you think you're worthy?
From this moment on, you are mine. I will cherish you, enjoy you, play with you, and conquer you.
...
This is so troublesome. I was planning to eat her right away, but she started her period, which is really annoying.
The maid said she had menstrual cramps and asked me to see a doctor.
So delicate.
You think you're some kind of princess? I'm being generous by giving you a painkiller, little sister.
Yes, I humiliated her.
Making her take painkillers like a puppy, so satisfying, so satisfying.
When I don't like you, you're just my little puppy.
But what I didn't expect was that you actually slept in the doghouse.
That was the first time I felt sorry for you.
Who told you to sleep in the doghouse?
Even if you're a little dog, you should still sleep in my bed and be my one and only dog.
Although I secretly feel sorry for you, I still mock you on the surface.
I hardened my heart, left you a coat, and left.
Back at the villa, after dealing with the maid who had caused you trouble, it started thundering and raining again outside.
In the end, I couldn't bear it, and I decided to bring you back.
I really wanted to carry you to bed and sleep with you, but I held back.
I'm not that quick to soften my heart.
You'll have to sleep on the carpet for now.
...
The next morning, you've stained the carpet.
Hmm, what's going on? You seem a little excited, as if you have a reason to punish me.
Although it's a bad thing, I've decided to ask you to do it for me.
Because I was reminded of that phrase, "You don't deserve it."
Tell me, do I deserve it? Look at yourself, kneeling before me, unwilling yet forced to obey.
Tell me, do I deserve it? Little princess, answer me.
Your technique is really bad; it's obvious this is your first time. Your performance was mediocre at all.
But since it was you, I felt secretly pleased.
This experience left a deep impression on me, even more so than when I took your virginity later.
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Luo Shengtian possesses a chip, which is the key to his enduring power in Black City over the years.
After going through some trouble to get the chip, I realized I don't seem to hate you as much anymore.
Perhaps, from the moment I got your body, I think I didn't hate you as much anymore.
At least you've kept yourself clean for the past three years, so I'll reluctantly forgive you.
I'm telling you, from now on, as long as you stay obediently by my side, I will treat you well.
It's true.
You agreed, or rather, you had no choice at all.
I remember you saying back then, "Don't treat me too badly, don't treat me like a dog."
Please, I've calmed down. I told you I'd be good to you, so you're my little darling.
How could I ever treat you the same way I used to?
I can't bear to part with it.
My Weiwei, I've decided to let go and try to put you back in my heart.
At first, you seemed very resigned to your fate and became very obedient, without any other thoughts.
Later, you seemed to misunderstand me and started running away frequently.
But no matter how many times I run, I can easily catch you back.
You've always felt that I treat you like a plaything, and I've never given a straight answer about how you really are to me.
I'm so proud, I always have been.
I like you, but I dare not say it, for fear that you will once again toy with my true feelings.
On your birthday, I specially put on two fireworks shows.
It's just a show for you to see, nothing special, just a dazzling but ordinary fireworks display.
The other show was shown to everyone in Black City.
I confessed my feelings to you.
At the end of the fireworks show, I said, I love you, Laurinda.
Of course, you don't know.
I'm too timid to let you know.
Later, a boy named Lin Zeyuan appeared.
I never took him seriously until I discovered that he dared to impersonate me.
You silly girl, you actually believed it.
I'm so angry! I'm so angry!
I watched you try to leave me time and time again because of him, and I was so angry that I wanted to take you for electroconvulsive therapy to restore your memory, but in the end I couldn't bring myself to do it.
Forget it, you're so delicate and timid. If you really experienced it, you'd probably be scared out of your wits.
To keep you from leaving, I even considered getting you pregnant.
I think if you have our child, you'll stay for the sake of the child.
Unfortunately, things didn't go as planned, and later, due to some unspeakable reasons, the child was lost.
I was really angry that time. I consider myself a person with good self-control, but I had never been that angry before.
That's when I realized that some truths seemed to have to be told.
Saying this now is to open a knot in my heart that has been there for many years, and it also carries the meaning of punishing you.
You were really miserable back then.
I locked it in the attic, like a soulless doll, letting me bully it at will.
I'm sorry, baby, I'm an animal.
Whenever I think of this moment, I wish you would stab me in the back.
Vivi, my darling.
Looking back now, I can't believe it myself. How could I have been so heartless to treat you like that? I must have been bewitched.
Our relationship became very strained at one point.
But then you suddenly showed me kindness, which left me completely confused.
I think you've probably got some other ulterior motives up your sleeve again.
But I cherish every warm moment we spend together.
I didn't expose you; instead, I chose to play along.
Even though I already guessed at that time that you might want to run away again.
...
That was a sensitive time.
My collaboration with Mansour had just begun when I suddenly became the target of everyone's criticism in Black City.
Many people want to get rid of me in private.
I knew they would make their move on my birthday.
Unexpectedly, this was actually a trap I had set, and I secretly played along with those people to continue the game.
It's a pity, my dear, you don't know any of this.
You could have escaped.
At that time, the scene was too chaotic. If you tried to escape, I might not have been able to catch you.
But you came back.
I never dreamed that you would give up your long-cherished freedom to save me.
I think you probably know what your turnback means.
Once you turn back, you won't be able to leave. I won't let you go, but you still chose to come back and warn others.
I watched you appear at the venue, watched you rush onto the stage without a care in the world, and push the stand-in aside.
In that instant, I knew I had to marry you, I absolutely had to.
For many, many years to come, whenever I think of this scene, my love for you will never diminish.
Luo Tingwei, I love you.
— Li Yanzhou
[End of article]
2025.12.21
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