Praise You
Xiao Ruan died in the most beautiful June in Jiutao Village.
The body was found in the back hills, with no visible injuries, save for a pesticide bottle nearby – a pure suicide. The moment he discovered his granddaughter, Tie Sandeng's spirit completely collapsed – his wife was gone, his son was gone, his two granddaughters were gone, and his family was completely shattered.
Ye Yuanyin thought, if she could be more resolute and not let Xiao Ruan go out alone but pick her up instead, if she could comfort Xiao Ruan in time about the psychological trauma caused by her mother's repeated breach of trust, if she had not been away from home for three years because of Aunt Long's death, but had cooperated in developing the healing software earlier... perhaps everything today would not have happened.
Sadness and guilt covered his head and face like two heavy quilts. Huge doubts came with the suffocation of heartbreak. Ye Yuanyin had no way to forgive himself.
It’s not that the Tie family hadn’t quarreled or made a fuss, but her uncle and aunt protected her very well, and they took on all the pressure from public opinion in the village.
Ye Yuanyin began to experience somatic symptoms. She felt a constant sense of being spoken to, watched over, and lashed out, leaving her sleepless nights. She would cry for no apparent reason and become anxious and irritable when she couldn't accomplish even the smallest task. Life felt meaningless, and she occasionally contemplated death.
The death of his mother was already a huge, unresolved trauma, and Xiao Ruan's departure only served to provoke a long-standing illness, adding insult to injury to a wound that had never healed.
Ye Yuanyin knew that he was also sick.
Under this situation, Chen Yan decided to take her back to Ancheng.
On the day of leaving, the car was stopped by more than a dozen families living in "Gui Nanpan". The villagers were furious, and they didn't know where the resentment came from, and they vented all their faults on her.
Dian Dian let Zhang Moha and Zhou Ye take the R&D team away first. He protected her. The two were pushed and shoved, and two fists could not fight four palms. The democracy of the people was a carnival of violence.
Lin Huamei couldn't stand it any longer. She rushed over like a shrew, pointing at everyone's nose and scolding them: "You are so unreasonable! Is Xiao Ruan's problem Ah Yin's fault? What did she do wrong? She just wanted to help as many of those poor children you gave birth to as possible! Grandma Wang is gone. You are so powerful, why don't you take the twins to live with you? Oh, you all say nice things usually, but when it comes to the real business, aren't you all cowards!"
"You didn't care, Secretary Long asked Aunt Long to take care of it, and you still find fault! How come you can't remember the good things Aunt Long and A Yin did? How come Boss Shen built roads and installed lights for everyone, and you didn't say anything about it, but now that something's wrong, you're all pretending to be capable and stupid?!"
Hua Mei wasn't about to indulge them. She said bluntly, "I think you're doing this on purpose. You usually don't dare to voice your opinions about Secretary Long, but now you're taking advantage of this situation to deliberately make trouble for him, aren't you? Bah, how shameless!"
Several men threatened her with hoes and sticks. Hua Mei sat down on the ground, kicking her legs and shouting, "Oh, murder! A bunch of spineless men beat me up because they couldn't win an argument! Oh, is there any law left? God is blind! Help!"
The farmers really couldn't do anything about her.
Due to this delay, Duofu and Youshan invited the on-duty police officers to come over, and the farce was finally settled.
Before leaving, Lin Huamei grabbed Ye Yuanyin's hand through the car window, rubbing it over and over again, encouraging her, "Ayin, this is not a place for reason. How can you, a cultured person, fight against these barbarians? Don't come back again! Use the skills you learned where they should be used. They are not worth it! Do you hear me?"
Ye Yuanyin burst into tears.
She emerged from a desolate and backward world, striving to integrate into the civilized and open new world. However, amidst the difficult transformation and rejection of integration, she could no longer return to her former world.
*
During the week that Dian Dian stayed in Jiutao Village, he accumulated a lot of work. In order to take care of her more conveniently, he still moved back into the old house left by Shen Huafeng.
He briefly explained what had happened to Aunt Yang, and gave her detailed instructions: "She's feeling very bad, please take good care of her."
"Don't worry, Mr. Shen," Aunt Yang said, her heart softening. She nodded and said, "What a sin! What do you call this?!"
During the day, Aunt Yang would constantly find ways to cheer her up, asking her about things from the time when Shen Huafeng was still alive, asking if she remembered this or that. She'd even talk about Ji Xia. Ye Yuanyin always responded cooperatively. The most reassuring thing was that, fearing Aunt Yang's worry, she'd actually eaten a bit more than usual.
In the evening, Shen Yan turned down every social engagement he could, and after dinner, he would take her hand and walk her around the garden. Of course, he never mentioned Xiao Ruan or Jiu Tao Village, but only asked her how her day was, what she had eaten, what she had done, and whether she had any happy or sad things.
She is very serious and answers every word.
About a week passed like this. You Manshan, who had been working away from home, learned about the incident from others and complained endlessly to Aunt Yang: "How could Yan Xi'an spoil her like this? Is she just a child? What's so big a deal? What's so difficult to overcome? Who wouldn't be tired of living?"
Aunt Yang defended Ye Yuanyin, saying, "It's certainly not a small matter. It's a life that was lost! Miss Ye has a good heart, and she must be blaming herself very, very much."
You Manshan snorted coldly, "There are many people here who can't eat and can't survive! Why is she the only one being so pretentious?"
Aunt Yang fell silent. Those who haven't been favored are inevitably filled with indignation for what they haven't received. This is especially true for the male head of this family; his affectionate nature seems to be inherited. Initially, Shen Huafeng had been incredibly protective and indulgent towards Shen Ji'an's mother. After his mother's death, Shen Huafeng fell into depression for a while. Even after having You Manshan, he didn't seem to have the same energy he once had.
Matters of the heart are like a chain of events, inseparable. For example, if a man wants to be good to a woman, would he go against his will just because of a few gossips? Especially with Chen Di'an, from childhood to adulthood, who could control him?
You Manshan was practically losing her temper. "Auntie, can't you persuade them to live in your own home? Why do they have to live in my house?"
"That also requires Mr. Shen's approval."
Just one sentence made You Manshan shut up. In the face of absolute power, she had no room to speak.
One day in the third week, Huang Hua called Ye Yuanyin via video and asked her if she wanted to go out and play.
At that time, she picked up the paintbrush after a long absence, and painted the canvas with a strong red color, rugged and twisted lines. The brushstrokes were so heavy that it was suffocating, and her infinite dissatisfaction was vented through the tip of the brush.
Huang Hua was worried and offered earnest advice. She said, "Ayin, this is how people with severe depression are. When they're plagued by negative emotions, nothing can stop them from leaving this world. You must draw a clear line between yourself and your patients. If you're swayed by other people's lives, how can you continue to be a therapist?"
She understood the truth, but Ye Yuanyin couldn't help but blame herself. She was trapped in someone else's fate, lashing out at herself over and over again.
In the evening, Chen Dixia came back from boarding school and saw two housekeepers pushing a rolling standing clothes rack into the house, so she quickly stopped them and went forward to check.
The clothes of the current season in several luxury goods counters have been modified according to body shapes and sizes, and you can tell who they are for just by looking at the style.
Chen Yanxia found the busy Aunt Yang and asked jealously, "Grandma, don't you realize that my eldest brother has the potential to become a tyrant? He has never been this nice to me!"
Aunt Yang wondered if that could be the same. She smiled kindly and said, "Neither of them is materialistic. In my opinion, it seems like Mr. Shen is compensating."
"Compensation? What on earth does he owe her? One piece of clothing costs hundreds of thousands. Just look at how many pieces he bought. Not only clothes, but shoes too. Is he afraid that he won't be able to go bankrupt?" Chen Yinxia said speechlessly: "This is incredible. Did Xiaoye die in her previous life to save him?!"
"Okay, stop whining and go change and eat."
Chen Jingxia stamped her feet and shouted, "Chen Jing'an is so annoying! I'm so pissed off!"
*
Before going to bed at night, Ye Yuanyin sent a message to Chen Di'an.
【Where are you】
【study】
Can I go find you?
【bring it on】
It was already half past ten in the evening. Chen Yixia had been out playing with her friends and had not returned home yet. Aunt Yang had already gone to bed, and the corridor on the second floor looked empty.
She pushed the door open and walked in. The only light came from a retro green desk lamp on the desk. Chen Yan was having a video conference.
I saw her raise her chin and gesture for me to sit on the sofa next to her.
Xiao Ruan's death, sudden and violent, temporarily eased her love for him. Those volatile emotions gradually calmed down as she faced her own unhappiness.
Ye Yuanyin looked at him, a beam of sunny green light shining from behind him. She looked at his face, and her dusty emotions burst out again. Her heart was like a flood about to overflow, and it felt like ten thousand ants were crawling through it.
Seeing her staring at him without blinking, how could he concentrate on his work? He finished quickly and walked over to her side.
Ye Yuanyin stretched out a hand towards him, and Chen Yan caught it and held it in his own.
"Is the R&D project progressing smoothly?"
Sediment couldn't help laughing and asked softly, "Are you feeling better?"
She shook her head. "Not very good. Or rather, it's terrible most of the time. I... want to see a psychiatrist. Will it be difficult for you?" Ye Yuanyin was worried that with his current status and responsibilities, his situation would cause him a lot of trouble.
But he just breathed a sigh of relief, as if he had finally received her approval, and said with a sense of relief, "Go ahead. If you're sick, of course you have to see a doctor."
Ye Yuanyin moved to the side of the sofa and patted the space next to him for him to sit down.
As soon as Chen Yan sat down, she leaned over to him, put her arms around his waist, and rested her face on his shoulder, mumbling, "I dreamed of my mother last night. She asked me if I was okay now."
Sediment held her in one hand, and with the other hand he stroked her soft hair and asked, "How did you answer?"
"I said I'm on the road to getting better."
Yan Chen praised her, "How could someone be so beautiful and so good at talking?"
Ye Yuanyin was amused by him and rubbed against his arms again, and said in a more relaxed tone, "I dreamed of you last night too."
"Oh? What?"
She sighed dejectedly and said regretfully, "We didn't get to talk. It was at my grandparents' house that I saw your mother. Although I'd never seen her before, I knew it was her. It seemed like you were sick, and she kept complaining that she hadn't taken good care of you. When I wanted to visit you, I don't know why so many children suddenly showed up at home, one after another, asking me for candy. I woke up before I even saw you."
Yan Zhan frowned, circled her hard, and said dissatisfiedly: "Why do we feel so distant in the dream?"
The person in my arms was laughing and groaning, saying that I couldn't breathe.
Sediment released her, held her face in his hands and looked at her for a moment, then kissed her forehead tenderly. Suddenly, he remembered something, like a child waiting to be praised. "Do you like the clothes I bought you?"
"Of course I like it! Clothes, shoes, and that expensive-looking ring. As long as it's something you gave me, I like it very much. But please don't give me anything more in the future. It's such a waste." She counted on her fingers and calculated her life. "We still have such a long way to go. What if the Shen Group is finished... It's better to be frugal."
Chen Dian didn't know how to describe his mood at the moment. He hadn't laughed so happily like this in a long time.
Ye Yuanyin buried herself in his arms again, her voice muffled, as if she was confessing.
"Since coming to Ancheng, I've rarely been happy. In fact, I've been sick since I lost my mom. Then I lost you, and now even Xiao Ruan is gone... I'm getting sicker and sicker. Emotional illness, just like physical illness, requires a healing process to recover. Don't worry, I won't be sad for long, I'll be well again soon."
Whenever Chen Dian saw her, he would think of the endless terraces in Jiutao Village. When the land becomes poor, it will become more fertile through fallow, fertilization and restoration of vegetation.
In the second week that Ye Yuanyin went to see a psychiatrist, Shen Yuheng set his sights on her.
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