Chapter 156 Lin Xiaolu's Conjecture
The world is constantly changing.
Lin Xiaolu wants to change, but Lin Xiaolu actually doesn't like change.
She wants to change herself, but she doesn't want the world around her to change.
But the reality is always contrary to one's wishes. As she grows up, it is the world around her that changes, but what remains unchanged is herself.
On this point, she went from being confused to being clear, from being ignorant to being aware.
The elders she had met would always say that she was innocent and childlike, and her classmates would often despise her for being childish. Although she hated being told that, she could not come up with any reason to refute it.
She did still like the same things she liked as a child; she was still the girl farthest from love in her class; and she was still shorter than her peers.
And, she was still subconsciously waiting for her mother to come back.
Her mother was dead, and she, no longer a child, was aware of this clearly. However, she could not help but wonder what would happen if her mother were still alive.
So, she has actually always been resistant to the presence of other women around her father.
She didn't know how long her father's feelings for her dead mother could last; she didn't know what would happen to this already fragile family after another woman appeared in it. She didn't want a stepmother.
Even though she knew that her father's emotional life was his freedom, she just didn't want it.
This feeling became particularly strong after meeting the woman named Hong Siyu.
When they first met, she could feel that the woman was imitating her mother's words and deeds. The woman was trying to attract and get close to her father in this way, which gave her an extremely strong sense of crisis.
She didn't mind, she didn't care, she told herself. She was already a magical girl, a supernatural person who had entered the magic side and should care about the world. Such trivial matters in life could not disturb her mind.
But that night, when she secretly overheard the conversation between the woman and her father, she realized something else that had an even greater impact on her: Delphinium also knew her father, and this was most likely the reason why Delphinium was taking care of her.
Even though this conjecture was later explained by her father as a misunderstanding, and she also learned from Delphinium that she actually took care of her because her mother was also a magical girl, Lin Xiaolu did not forget the conjecture at that time.
Sometimes, she would ask herself: What if everything is really as she thought, and her father and Delphinium have a deeper relationship, and even Delphinium will one day become the "stepmother" that she has always resisted? Will she be sad or happy? If she follows her past thinking, Lin Xiaolu feels that she should still want to refuse. After all, Delphinium is just Delphinium. Even if she is a senior whom she admires and worships, if she wants to use this as an excuse to become her stepmother, it will not work.
However, this does not seem to be the case.
When she really started to think about this problem, and even began to fantasize about "what if Delphinium was her stepmother", she found that she was inexplicably not that resistant.
It was as if, if Delphinium was really his "mother", it would be a natural thing.
At that time, Lin Xiaolu didn't understand where this inexplicable feeling came from. She just thought that these were her own fantasies and didn't speak out these thoughts.
Until the night of the Full Moon Festival.
When she and other companions discovered the huge crisis in the city center and chose to leave home, she noticed at a glance that her father's door was not closed.
It was already early in the morning, and even if my father was busy at work, there was no reason for him to go out at that time, but he left home anyway.
Afterwards, during the battle with the enemies of Black Dawn, when they were at a huge disadvantage, Delphinium, which was originally impossible to appear in Fangting City, appeared.
She had clearly said that she would not come back during the holidays, but she still stood in front of the enemy in desperate situations.
And finally, on the battlefield, the woman who turned into a monster and called herself Moss said: "It seems that her father also had an affair with you."
At that moment, Lin Xiaolu suddenly understood and everything became clear.
Why did the father leave at that time, and why did Delphinium appear at that time? It was all because the father and Delphinium really had a secret relationship, or even a romantic relationship.
It was my father who brought Delphinium over at that time.
And when everything became logical in her mind and all the logic seemed impeccable, Lin Xiaolu, who was protected by Delphinium in the battle, finally understood what her strange feelings for Delphinium were.
——She felt her mother’s temperament in Delphinium.
This was a feeling that made no sense, because his mother Anya and Delphinium had completely different personalities.
Anya's personality is warm and upbeat. She may be a little off-line at times, but that off-line and casualness brings great encouragement.
Delphinium's personality is cold and deep. Most of the time, it is very serious, but there is a little tenderness in that coldness and seriousness.
Even the least sensitive person can clearly feel the difference between the two people's personalities.
But Lin Xiaolu just had this inexplicable feeling.
After that day, Lin Xiaolu had a somewhat strange dream.
In the dream, I seemed to be a baby lying in a cradle, and my mother was teasing me with a tender smile. I couldn’t speak at that time, and could only babble to her.
In the dream, she did not see her father, but her mother seemed to be talking to an invisible person, and even looked a little playful like a girl.
In the midst of her hearty laughter, she surrendered herself to the invisible man.
Lin Xiaolu felt that the altitude she was in suddenly dropped, and a pair of cool hands took her and then gently held her in their arms.
Although the embrace was cold, it was not unpleasant and even felt comfortable.
Who is it? Lin Xiaolu thought so, she tried hard to open her eyes in the cradle, and looked up hard, trying to see clearly who that person was.
She saw blue.
She saw a pair of deep blue eyes, as clear as gems, looking at her gently.
Delphinium held her in her arms, opened and closed her mouth with an expression she had never seen before, and uttered a string of words that the baby could not understand.
Then, Lin Xiaolu woke up from her sleep.
In the early morning sunshine, Lin Xiaolu sat on the bed with sleepy eyes, recalling the strange dream with some lingering feelings. She always felt that the experience in the dream was so real, as if it had really happened.
She realized that this dream might not be just a fantasy, it should have its own meaning.
Lin Xiaolu sat on the bed and thought. After a long period of recollection, careful reasoning, and careful evidence, she finally came up with a somewhat bold guess:
——My mother came to me in a dream and she agreed that Cuique would be my stepmother.
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