Chapter 42 Good Child
Xia Liang once always remembered a saying in his heart: Only good children are loved.
It came from what her mother said to her when she was young, when her parents were still loving and their life was happy: "Is our little dog well-behaved? Only good children are loved by others, and mother also likes good children."
"Little Puppy" was her nickname at that time, because she liked to bite people when she was angry, so whenever she opened her mouth, her parents would jokingly say "The little puppy bites again."
Xia Liang felt that she was not a puppy and that she could be very obedient. Since then, she rarely bit people when she was angry.
She became a good child in the eyes of her parents and relatives.
She is well-behaved and likes to act like a spoiled brat at home, and her sweet smile makes her parents dote on her; she is sensible and generous in social occasions, and her relatives, friends and elders always praise her; she is obedient and serious in school, and is a role model that the teacher asks her classmates to learn from.
The harder she tried to be good and sensible, the happier her life became, and Xia Liang gradually got used to it. However, everything changed after a few years.
She didn't know whether the cause was "finding another job" as her father said, or "being cheated out of a large sum of money" as her mother said, but in any case, it seemed that since then, she rarely saw smiles on her parents' faces.
Dad always looks sad when he comes home, and Mom always sighs and gets angry more often.
Whenever this happened, Xia Liang would stand up and try to make them happy and make them smile.
This method was somewhat useful at first, when Xia Liang acted cute and well-behaved, her parents would always force themselves to laugh along with her. But later, as time went on, no matter how hard Xia Liang tried, it was no longer of any use.
She felt very strange, because she was not good enough, so she couldn't make her parents happy? Then one day, she found that her mother started to take money out of the house.
My mother said she could earn money, but except for the first few times when she could bring back money, the money she took out later was never returned.
Dad started to come home less and less, and even when he did, he would quarrel with Mom. He loudly scolded Mom for "wasting the family money through gambling", while Mom accused him of "having an affair while unemployed".
At that time, Xia Liang was still confused about these words. She knew that gambling and extramarital affairs were bad things, but she never thought that they would happen in her own family.
She plucked up her courage and decided for the first time not to be a good child because she decided to go against her parents. She wanted to persuade them not to quarrel because quarreling all the time would make their relationship bad.
But this attempt failed, her parents ignored her and just yelled at her to "go away".
So Xia Liang became a good kid again. No matter how much her parents quarreled, she no longer tried to stop them. She just kept showing them her smile.
She continued to study hard in school and brought home many certificates, hoping that her good performance would make her parents happy. But these certificates were eventually treated as waste paper and thrown on the table.
One day, the parents' argument escalated into a fight, and the certificate was soaked by the spilled boiling water, and the words on it could no longer be seen.
Later, my father started beating my mother and then threatened to divorce her.
He said he was fed up with women like his mother, he had a new love, and he wanted to choose his own happiness.
There is no doubt that Mom would disagree, because she has not yet proved that she is the backbone of the family, and she has not yet earned back the money she temporarily lost. She believes that Dad is equally responsible for this.
Things at home were sold and the dispute between his parents became more and more intense. Xia Liang could only hide behind the crack of the door and watch them quarrel, and then go back to continue doing his homework.
——She wants to be a good child, because only good children are liked by others.
Then, one night, she heard her father roaring.
He said: "Why did you touch my personal money? I will beat you to death, you bitch!"
My mother was also screaming. She said, "Just try it if you can!"
Then, they really started. With dull thumps, roars, and screams, when Xia Liang carefully looked out of the door, he could only see his mother standing there with a knife in her hand, covered in blood, and his father lying at her feet, never to move again.
"come over."
This was the first sentence my mother said after seeing Xia Liang.
Xia Liang felt scared because when her mother said this, her voice was cold and she held the knife tightly in her hand.
But she is a good girl, and her mother likes good girls, so she has to be obedient.
She walked over.
The mother stabbed her with a knife.
The feeling was very painful and uncomfortable, but Xia Liang still remembered that she had to be a good child, so even though she screamed in pain, she held back her tears.
The police who broke into the house took away my mother, and also took away Xia Liang who was nearly killed.
In the end, looking at her mother being taken away, she struggled and gave her mother the same flattering smile she always had.
——"Stop smiling so foolishly."
Here’s what my mom said: “It’s disgusting.”
At that moment, it seemed as if something in Xia Liang's heart had shattered, leaving only a dark, bottomless hole.
Just like that, she lost her parents.
No relative was willing to raise her. It was unknown when the relatives who used to visit her house frequently stopped associating with this family.
Xia Liang became an unwanted child.
She didn't want to leave home, but no one was willing to support her, so she lived alone in this house, living on subsidies from the city government.
At school, her classmates, who had originally disliked and excluded her because she was "the good kid from other people's families", somehow got to know the rumor. They all shouted that her mother was a murderer, and even made a jingle about it, and started singing it whenever they saw Xia Liang.
The school teacher was also helpless. No matter how he scolded the children in class, he could not control their private behavior. It was not until the end of elementary school and the day when the children graduated that he said to Xia Liang in a tone of regret:
"They are all like this, why can you, a silly child, still laugh?"
Why can I still laugh? Xia Liang himself doesn't know the answer.
It’s better to say, are you still laughing?
There was no one to whom she could smile, so there was no point in acting cute, but she still did it subconsciously.
Even after entering junior high school, no one was willing to be friends with her because of the rumors in elementary school.
No matter how Xia Liang tried to flatter or try to please others, everyone would just avoid her out of fear.
The only ones who were willing to accept her were the "hot girls" and "bad guys" as others called them. They thought it sounded cool that Xia Liang's mother was imprisoned for murder.
"But you look too rustic."
They commented: "If you want to join us, you should transform yourself first, right?"
So Xia Liang learned how to put on makeup.
If dressing up well can make them accept herself, she will dress up; if frivolous words and deeds are in line with their ideas, she will imitate; if money is needed to make them face themselves, then she will give it to them.
Want to be accepted, want to be cared for, want to hear comfort, want intimacy with people, want "love".
The emptiness in her heart could not be filled, and she followed these "friends" like a dying person grasping at straws, just hoping that they would look back at her.
Until she reached the edge of the quagmire, she saw her friends standing in it and waving to her.
She began to want to refuse and to retreat, but she was already firmly trapped. Some unknown force was pushing her, trying to push her in.
There is no way back.
Just when she had given up and decided to calmly accept the future, a force suddenly pulled her tightly from behind.
Then, someone grabbed her wrist and brought her from the endless darkness to the blue sky.
That beautiful blue is the color of the sky, as clear as the eyes facing her.
She asked herself: "Do you want to be a magical girl?"
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