"May I have your name?"
“The time is low-lying.”
How old are you now?
"...Ten years old, I guess."
“…”
How did you get these injuries?
"He must have fallen."
Upon hearing this, Mu Yiran unconsciously tightened her grip.
In Shi Youxi's eyes, this was simply a woman taking the initiative to hold his hand. He smiled and stroked her fingers, completely ignoring the doctors around him who were staring at him.
The head of the psychiatry department glanced at the man's dependent gesture, then at Mu Yiran, picked up his pen to write on the diagnostic paper, and continued asking questions.
Do you know how you got here?
"I came by car."
"...I mean, how did you get to Haishi?"
Shi Youxi said without hesitation, "My parents brought me here for a trip."
"....."
Shi Jie's expression darkened. According to the surveillance footage they found, Shi Youxi had threatened a taxi with a sharp weapon and even nearly caused several accidents on the highway before forcibly driving over.
Unconscious self-harm and the outward manifestation of violence, now even memories are fading…
Shi Youxi's illness may be more serious than they imagined.
The director frowned, watching Shi Youxi's reaction, and then pointed at Mu Yiran with his pen.
"Do you know who she is?"
Shi Youxi stopped what he was doing, stared intently at Mu Yiran's face, and said in a pleasant voice:
"elder sister."
He turned to a row of doctors, raised an eyebrow, and said, "My sister."
doctor:"……"
Why emphasize this?
Otherwise, could it be my sister?
Tsk, I originally wanted to probe the man's emotions by focusing on the character, but now it seems unnecessary...
The doctor didn't ask too many questions, since he wasn't Shi Youxi's attending physician. He just asked some common-sense questions.
"...Okay, that's all for now. Go get a CT scan, it'll be quick."
Shi Youxi was somewhat dissatisfied, but after Mu Yiran repeatedly assured him that she would not leave, she cooperated and went to the CT room.
He had been holding the knife in his hand for a long time before finally letting go and handing it to Mu Yiran.
Inside, several medical staff were already waiting, about to take coercive measures against Shi Youxi.
Mu Yiran watched Shi Youxi go in with a smile until the door closed, then she pouted and pursed her lips.
The director looked at her, gestured, and carefully began to speak:
"Miss Mu, regarding Mr. Shi's condition—"
"How is he?!" Guan Shiyan burst through the door.
Mu Yiran looked over and her gaze settled on Shi Si, who had come along with Guan Shiyan.
The director breathed a sigh of relief and quickly handed him the form. Without him having to say anything, Guan Shiyan frowned deeply as he looked at the measurements.
The first thing they ask when you look up is, "I told you to supervise him taking his medicine properly, and look at him now! Give him double the dose? Do you want to poison him?!"
There was a bit of panic. "I saw he ate the prescribed amount, how could this be..."
Guan Shiyan clicked his tongue in annoyance: "His parents' influence is still too great."
"It's not just because of that, is it?" Shi Si said calmly, his gaze falling on the silent Mu Yiran.
Guan Shi followed his gaze and saw the silent Mu Yiran. He coughed subtly, signaling to Shi Si, and then said to Mu Yiran in a relaxed tone:
"Well, it's not actually that serious. His condition has always been quite stable, it's just that the shock he experienced this time was too great, and now he has some stress disorder. It's just a self-protective state, but I've seen that as long as he takes his medication properly and you're there to help him adjust, he'll gradually recover—"
Before he could finish speaking, the door was pushed open forcefully again, and Mo Mumu rushed in, looking at the stunned Guan Shiyan and saying:
"Director Guan, Director Wu told me that some of the lab staff have developed active symptoms, and the situation is quite serious!"
Guan Shiyan's face turned pale, and he clenched his buttocks, quickly grabbing her, "Let's go outside and talk, let's go outside—"
But it was too late.
The doorknob was grabbed with a "snap".
Mo Mumu stared intently at Mu Yiran sitting inside, "...Isn't this...my Ran?"
Mu Yiran: "......"
"...Why are you here?" Mo Mumu laughed absurdly. "To see a doctor?"
She looked around at the people, then forcefully pushed past Guan Shiyan and rushed in front of Mu Yiran, snatching the report from her hand.
The names of the people listed were blatantly displayed right under her nose.
“Shi Youxi…” she chuckled, “Isn’t that your husband’s name? How could it be…” She turned her head.
"How could it be...the mental patient I've been researching?"
"How could your husband be...mentally ill?!"
These words seemed to sting Mu Yiran, and she finally reacted, looking at Shi Youxi's ID photo on the form.
Guan Shiyan pursed his lips, stepped forward and pulled her back, "I'm sorry, I concealed the patient's information, but that's not a problem now—"
"Then what is the problem!"
Mo Mumu finally mustered the courage to criticize her mentor.
But what angered her most was not that Guan Shiyan had concealed the truth from her, but that Mu Yiran.
She took the medicine out of her bag and shoved it in front of Mu Yiran, "Do you know what kind of medicine this is?"
Mu Yiran clenched her fingers, looking at her helplessly and blankly, her chin twitching.
Ignoring her deadpan expression, Mo Mumu said sternly, "This is a long-acting inhibitory injection, a more potent drug than ordinary medications for controlling mental illness!"
"Even after taking such strong medication for a long time, his illness not only didn't improve, but it flared up again after the dosage was increased! Do you know what that means?!"
"This means he has a congenital mental illness! There is no possibility of a cure in his lifetime! This means he could relapse at any time, and it could even be more serious than it is today! This means he could uncontrollably erupt into violence against anyone at any time!"
"And now I know that you might even be one of the reasons that caused his illness!"
Mo Mumu couldn't hold back any longer. She grabbed Mu Yiran's shoulders and forced her to look at her. "Have you forgotten what I told you?! Do you think I was joking? Do you want to die, Mu Yiran?!"
“It’s not that serious!” Guan Shiyan quickly said.
Mo Mumu glared at Guan Shiyan, "You dare to say that! You dare to guarantee it?! Even if it doesn't happen now, can this person never lose control and resort to violence in his entire life? Can you guarantee that he won't self-harm after treatment?"
You know better than I do! In such a situation, how likely is it that the knife will be turned against the person closest to you!
“........”
Guan Shiyan moved his lips slightly.
He knew Mo Mumu was right, but he had his own selfish motives. Mu Yiran was in some danger by Shi Youxi's side, but he also knew how important Mu Yiran was to Shi Youxi, even to the point of affecting Shi Youxi's mental health.
But he couldn't refute Mo Mumu's words.
Mo Mumu took a deep breath, shoved the report back into Guan Shiyan's hands. Offending the government, failing to graduate, and all those ridiculous dreams didn't matter, but—
She pulled Mu Yiran up, "You can't be here! You can't stay with him!"
"I will return Wenxin's shares to him. I will return everything he gave you. If he doesn't return them, I will give them to him. You must divorce him!"
Shi Jie immediately stepped forward, but before he could stop Mo Mumu, Mu Yiran grabbed her first.
"Come with me!"
Mu Yiran slowly shook her head, "...No..."
Mo Mumu yelled, "Mu Yiran! Are you leaving or not—"
He choked.
Mu Yiran raised her head, her face covered in tears, her throat filled with sobs, and looked at Mo Mumu, shaking her head convulsively.
He kept shaking his head.
Finally, she started crying louder and louder.
"...No...we can't leave..."
"...He's so sick, so very sick..." Mu Yiran couldn't wipe away the tears that were streaming down her face. She frantically grabbed Mo Mumu's hand, and the panic she had been suppressing for so long turned into a breakdown and a wail.
"What should I do, Mu Mu... what should I do..."
"How can I help him... How come I only realized this now..."
Mu Yiran was at a loss and kept asking Mo Mumu what to do.
What should I do? What should I do?
Why did she keep saying she loved him, yet never notice his increasingly serious illness?
Why did she so easily assume he would be fine just because she saw him taking his medicine?
Why didn't he realize that when he pushed her away time and time again, it was his painful cry for help?
Why wait until you see him have an attack before realizing your regret?
Mo Mumu was shocked to see Mu Yiran crying like a child who had made a mistake. Her tense hands loosened, and she reluctantly hugged the woman, patting and comforting her.
"...Damn...Okay, everything will be alright."
"..."
——
—
"...Having witnessed his parents' accident, coupled with the fact that you two have some issues, his current actions are basically driven by a self-protective fantasy of escaping the present."
He wouldn't remember how he got there, or how he got his injuries. He would be relentless in achieving his goals, even resorting to violence. He would subconsciously fill this gap with what he considers pleasant memories.
“Such situations have actually occurred before, but they were not serious, and they almost never reached the point of complete control over somatization. If you think about it carefully, you should have seen situations like his before.”
Guan Shiyan sighed and asked Mu Yiran, who had calmed down.
Several images flashed through Mu Yiran's mind instantly, so...
So... even all his actions at the club a few days ago weren't entirely for her benefit... Could it be that calling the police in advance was a self-rescue attempt made while he was still conscious?
Mu Yiran gripped her wedding ring tightly, forcing herself to calm down, and asked in a low voice:
"What is the best treatment option for him right now?"
"........"
Guan Shiyan and Shi Si exchanged a glance, Guan Shiyan's face showing struggle:
"There are two treatment options, and we would like to give you the choice."
"?" Mu Yiran looked at him in confusion.
"The first option is conservative treatment, because he depends on you the most right now. We don't know if Shi Yan will wake up again, and as a doctor, I can't be too involved in his treatment. Besides, in all the happy memories he imagines..."
Now, you are the only real person, and only you can be his pillar of support, guiding his treatment, controlling his emotions, helping him distinguish between reality and fantasy, and only you can help him accept those bad memories.
"You can do things that medicine can't, but..."
Mo Mumu's eyes were like knives, and there was that familiar oppressive aura...
Guan Shiyan was almost pierced through by the knife. He took a breath and continued:
"However, this includes the possibility of being harmed by him. Whenever he has an emotional fluctuation, he will unconsciously use violence, most obviously self-harm, and also... he will treat you like he treats other pedestrians and drivers."
"The possibility is very low, but it will definitely exist. Today it started to erupt because of the stimulation from Shi Yan. We don't know how much he can tolerate such stimulation in the future, or how long he can control it. It could even exist for a lifetime."
Mu Yiran didn't care about that and couldn't wait to laugh.
"Let's proceed with this plan—"
"Let me finish speaking first."
Guan Shiyan licked his lips: "There is another option, which is forced treatment."
"As his wife and his guardian, you have the right to admit him to the hospital, and everything about him will be under your control, including his personal freedom and... your marriage."
"?"
Mu Yiran thought she hadn't understood: "...What do you mean?"
“It means…” Shi Si straightened up, his expression calm, and continued in a normal tone:
"This is your last chance to leave him."
“............”
"Five years ago, Shi Yan wanted to completely erase his memory, so I secretly reduced the dosage to make him lose his memory. But this time, it might not be impossible to do it again."
“He still listens to you very much. As long as you tell him that he will get better after taking the medicine, and that you will love him even more if he gets better, he will eat it, he will eat anything.”
Mu Yiran stared at Shi Si in astonishment, a suffocating feeling gripping her heart beginning to overwhelm her.
"He will take the medicine you gave him, live here under guard, and have no chance of regaining his memory. He will completely forget you."
"You don't need to worry, he will find you again and threaten you to stay by his side, just like this time."
"As you've seen, no one can guarantee the outcome for Shi Yan and Bai Shengsheng. Even Shi Youxi himself can't guarantee that he won't end up like Shi Yan, or that you won't end up like Bai Shengsheng."
“You can leave. Shi Youxi will go back to his life without you. People who live in darkness may never need sunlight. If the sunlight can’t always shine on him, it will only hasten his desolation.”
Mo Mumu, who was standing next to her, didn't fully understand what Shi Youxi had said, nor did she know why Shi Youxi and her best friend had known each other for five years. However, she was still displeased when she heard Shi Si's words.
"What do you mean by that? You're making it sound like Ranran is an ingrate for not choosing to stay with him! It's clearly your boss who threatened and forced her into marriage; Ranran is the victim! She's stuck with such a lunatic!"
"Even if our Ranran is bathed in sunshine, does it still need your boss's barren mountain?"
"To put it another way, is your boss's love really pure love? It's downright perverted!"
"His illness wasn't caused by Ranran! Why are you using their relationship to pressure her?! Did he tell you to say that?! I think it's necessary to re-examine his mental state; maybe it's all an act—"
Shi Jie couldn't stand it anymore, "It's not an act!"
After a long silence, he finally took out the signed will and divorce agreement and handed them to Mu Yiran.
“Boss, he has given up a lot for you. To the brothers of Shimen, he is the key to opening and guarding the gate for us. Without you, people like us would be begging in the shadows for the rest of our lives. But now he wants to give you the key. Shimen has objections, but they will not oppose it. Does Madam know what this means?”
Thinking of the man's resolute expression as he told him, without a trace of emotion, that he was handing over power to Mu Yiran, Shi Jie felt an indescribable pain, the kind of pain one feels when a dog is abandoned by its owner after years of being a dog.
"He no longer knows how to ask for your forgiveness, so he can only hand over everything to you for judgment."
“He had sensed something was wrong with him long ago. The boss said that if the day really came when he couldn’t control his condition, he hoped that you, Madam, would be safe and sound and be able to do what you want to do happily.”
Shi Si pulled back the emotionally charged Shi Jie, calmly accepted the angry glares from Mo Mumu and Ai Ni, and stood in front of Mu Yiran, bowing ninety degrees.
"sorry."
"Five years ago, when I found out your identity, I still followed orders and threw you into the lake. Regardless of whether I was sure you could survive, the harm I caused you was real. At that time, I only thought about Shi Youxi. Back then, we all thought we were doing it for his own good, and even disregarded everything about you."
But this time is different...
"This is what the Shi family and I owe you."
"So, Miss Mu, whatever you choose, the decision is yours. This time, it has nothing to do with anyone else."
“You can turn everything back to the beginning, you can go back to your old life, and so can he, even better than he is now.”
"This might be the life you and he were originally meant to have."
"A life without each other."
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