Chapter 309 You Are My Favorite
Jiang Ciyou was startled.
Standing there in a daze.
Xia Ling's eyes also began to focus.
She turned her head slightly, and her gaze finally fell on Jiang Ciyou's face.
Look into each other's eyes.
That moment.
Jiang Ciyou was just shocked.
Xia Ling woke up, finally woke up.
She didn't have time to think about it.
Just ring the alarm bell at the bedside.
But Xia Ling grabbed his arm and said, "Ciyou, don't call anyone. I have something to tell you."
Xia Ling's voice was very clear.
Jiang Ciyou was surprised at her mental state.
It was as if he had completely woken up.
Jiang Ciyou froze.
She saw that Xia Ling's face had miraculously regained its rosy color.
And his eyes seemed to light up.
She really woke up.
And it looks good.
Jiang Ciyou breathed a sigh of relief.
Jiang Ciyou finally sat back on the chair beside the bed.
Xia Ling raised her hand and took off the oxygen mask on her face.
Jiang Ciyou wanted to stop it, but he was still a step too late.
But looking at Xia Ling's current condition, she actually looks a bit like a normal person.
Xia Ling turned her head and looked at Jiang Ciyou.
There were tears in her eyes.
She suddenly spoke, each word clearly: "Ciyou, I heard everything you said to me these days."
Jiang Ciyou was a little surprised.
Xia Ling has been in a coma these days.
Jiang Ciyou didn't expect that she could hear those words.
"Do you want to know why I took a bullet for you?"
Jiang Ciyou didn't say anything, just looked at her steadily.
Xia Ling smiled and said, "Because if you didn't exist in this world, my life would be meaningless."
Jiang Ciyou's pupils suddenly dilated, and his eyes were filled with shock.
But then she came to her senses.
"Xia Ling, do you hate me so much? Is competing with me, fighting with me, so important that it has become the meaning of your life?"
Jiang Ciyou didn't understand.
She felt that Xia Ling was paranoid and twisted.
In order to fight her, they tortured each other, even at the cost of their lives.
How did this mentality come about?
Xia Ling smiled bitterly and shook her head: "Ciyou, I don't hate you, I just love you so much that it hurts."
Jiang Ciyou's body stiffened again.
At this moment, Xia Ling was still holding Jiang Ciyou's hand.
Jiang Ciyou reflexively wanted to pull his hand out.
Xia Ling tightened her fingers.
"What did you say?"
Xia Ling looked at her, tears falling from the corners of her eyes. Her eyes were full of love and nostalgia: "How could I hate you? You are the one I love most in this world."
"I love you, Ciyou."
It was like a thunderclap exploding in Jiang Ciyou's mind.
In an instant, the air was filled with smoke, and the sky and the earth were thick with fumes.
Xia Ling, crying, said, "For so many years, I have always wanted to destroy you, destroy everything you have, to make you lose your reputation and have nothing. It's because I want you to have only me by your side. I want you to rely on me and run to me when you have nothing. Then I will atone for my sins. You are so soft-hearted, I think you will definitely forgive me."
"My life was originally a puddle of mud. Born into a family like that, I accepted my fate and thought my life would continue to rot like this. But then you appeared. You were like a rose blooming in the mud, so beautiful, so warm, and full of scorching sunshine. I secretly peeked at you, feeling happy in my heart and quietly grateful. I hope that you, this rose, will always grow above this piece of mud."
"But there are too many people who covet the rose. They always want to snatch you away from me. I am afraid because I am just a piece of mud. I am not the sunshine, dew, or even the breeze that you need. I hate them. I am afraid that one day you will discover my darkness and the stench on my body. I am afraid that you will get tired of me and stay away from me. I am afraid that you will only be a flash in the pan in my life. So I have a terrible thought..."
"I want to drag you into the abyss too. I want you to be covered in mud. When they all despise you and abandon you, you will have no choice but to be with me..."
Jiang Ciyou sat up straight.
All the blood in my body seemed to have solidified.
Her expression didn't seem to change.
But a tsunami had already risen in my heart.
She thought of countless answers.
Even if Xia Ling hated her, wanted to torture her, was reluctant to let her die, or felt guilty, or because of the last bit of kindness in her nature.
Or maybe it was just a whim, or maybe she really had a problem with her brain.
But after thinking so much, she never thought that Xia Ling loved her.
Love...?
When Xia Ling saw Jiang Ciyou sitting upright, a smile appeared on the corner of her mouth.
As if mocking himself: "Ciyou, did I scare you?"
Jiang Ciyou turned his head and looked into Xia Ling's eyes, his face still full of confusion.
Of course, she couldn't understand what Xia Ling did because she loved her.
What theory was going to drag her into the abyss?
In Jiang Ciyou's world, love is responsibility, love is fulfillment, love is sacrifice, and love is the wish for the other person's happiness.
"I don't understand you." Jiang Ciyou spit out these four words blankly.
Xia Ling's eyes seemed to dim a little.
"Ciyou, do you think I'm particularly disgusting and annoying now?"
Jiang Ciyou finally came to his senses.
She was silent for a moment before she said, "I don't. There are many kinds of love in this world, and every kind of love has its reason. I just think you're too extreme. You're doing things in the name of love that hurt the other person. I don't think that's love, it's selfishness."
Xia Ling was stunned for a moment, then smiled again: "Yes, I am selfish, because my life is too lacking, so when you appeared in my life, I wanted to hold on to you desperately. Remember the movie we watched together before, The Shawshank Redemption?"
"There is a line in it that left a particularly deep impression on me."
"After Andy escapes, Red has a psychological description: some birds cannot be caged because their feathers are too bright. You will feel that it is a sin to lock them in a cage. After they fly away, you sincerely celebrate their freedom, but unfortunately, you have to live in this boring life..."
"Every time I see this, tears stream down my face. I've thought about setting you free and wishing you well from the bottom of my heart, but I can't do it because my life is too gloomy and dark. I long for a ray of sunshine."
Xia Ling's voice gradually lowered: "I could have endured this boredom, darkness and storm if you had never appeared."
After Xia Ling finished speaking, she coughed violently a few times.
Her expression also changed rapidly.
The instrument on the dashboard also displayed an alarm sound.
Jiang Ciyou was shocked and was about to get up.
"Don't go, Ciyou, listen to me."
"There'll be plenty of time later."
Xia Ling still held Jiang Ciyou's hand: "Ciyou, I'm going to die. I know. Just listen to what I have to say, okay?"
Jiang Ciyou looked at the blood on the pillow and felt shocked.
She wanted to ring the bell.
But Xia Ling held her arm tightly.
Surprisingly strong.
She even tried to sit up.
Jiang Ciyou quickly helped her lie down: "Xia Ling, don't move. If the wound opens, I won't have enough blood to save you."
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