Chapter 309 You are my favorite

Jiang Ci was startled for a moment.

Standing there in a daze.

Xia Ling's eyes also began to focus.

She turned her head slightly, and her eyes finally fell on Jiang Ciyou's face.

Look into each other's eyes.

That moment.

Jiang Ciyou was just shocked.

Xia Ling woke up, finally woke up.

She didn't have time to think about it.

Just ring the alarm bell at the bedside.

But Xia Ling grabbed his arm and said, "Ciyou, don't call anyone, I have something to tell you."

Xia Ling's voice is very clear.

Jiang Ciyou was surprised at her mental state.

It was as if he had completely woken up.

Jiang Ciyou froze.

She saw that Xia Ling's face had miraculously regained its rosiness.

And there seemed to be light in his eyes.

She really woke up.

And it looks good.

Jiang Ciyou breathed a sigh of relief.

Jiang Ciyou finally sat back on the chair beside the bed.

Xia Ling raised her hand and took off the oxygen mask on her face.

Jiang Ciyou wanted to stop it, but it was too late.

But looking at Xia Ling's current condition, she actually looks a bit like a normal person.

Xia Ling turned her head and looked at Jiang Ciyou.

There were still tears in his eyes.

She suddenly spoke, each word clearly: "Ciyou, I heard everything you said to me these days."

Jiang Ciyou was a little surprised.

Xia Ling has been in a coma these past few days.

Jiang Ciyou never thought that she could hear those words.

"You want to know why I took a bullet for you?"

Jiang Ciyou didn't say anything, but just looked at her steadily.

Xia Ling smiled and said, "Because if you didn't exist in this world, my life would be meaningless."

Jiang Ciyou's pupils suddenly dilated and his eyes were filled with shock.

But then she reacted.

"Xia Ling, do you hate me so much? Is it so important to compete with me that it has become your life's purpose?"

Jiang Ciyou didn't understand.

She thought Xia Ling was biased and twisted.

In order to fight with her, they tortured each other, even at the cost of their lives.

How did this mentality come about?

Xia Ling smiled bitterly and shook her head: "Don't worry, I don't hate you, I just love you too much and it hurts."

Jiang Ciyou's body stiffened again.

At this moment, Xia Ling was still holding Jiang Ciyou's hand.

Jiang Ci wanted to pull his hand out reflexively.

Xia Ling tightened her fingers.

"What did you say?"

Xia Ling looked at her, tears falling from the corners of her eyes. Her eyes were lingering and full of love: "How could I hate you? You are the one I love most in this world."

"I love you, don't worry."

It was like a thunderbolt exploding in Jiang Ciyou's mind.

In an instant, the air was filled with smoke, and the sky and the earth were filled with thick fog.

Xia Ling said with tears in her eyes: "For so many years, I have always wanted to destroy you, destroy everything you have, make you lose your reputation and have nothing, because I want you to have only me by your side. I want you to rely on me and run to me when you have nothing, and then I will atone for your sins. You are so soft-hearted, I think you will forgive me."

"My life was originally a pile of mud. I was born in such a family. I accepted my fate and thought that my life would continue to be rotten. But then you appeared. You were like a rose blooming in the mud, so beautiful, so warm, and full of scorching sunshine. I secretly peeked at you, feeling happy in my heart and quietly celebrating. I hope that you, this rose, will always grow above this mud of mine."

"But there are too many people who covet the rose. They always want to snatch you away from me. I am afraid because I am just a piece of mud. I am not the sunshine, dew, or even the breeze that you need. I hate them. I am afraid that one day you will discover my darkness and the stench on my body. I am afraid that you will get tired of me and stay away from me. I am afraid that you are just a flash in the pan in my life, so I have a terrible idea..."

"I want to drag you into the abyss, and I want you to be covered in mud. When they all reject you and abandon you, you will have no choice but to be with me..."

Jiang Ciyou sat up straight.

The blood in my body seemed to have solidified.

Her expression didn't seem to change.

But a tsunami had already risen in my heart.

She thought of countless answers.

Even if Xia Ling hated her and wanted to torture her, and was reluctant to let her die, or because of guilt, or because of the last bit of kindness in her nature.

Or maybe it was just a whim, or maybe she really had something wrong with her brain.

But after thinking so much, I never thought that Xia Ling loved her.

Love...?

When Xia Ling saw Jiang Ciyou sitting upright, a smile appeared on the corner of her mouth.

As if mocking himself: "Does this scare you?"

Jiang Ciyou turned his head and looked into Xia Ling's eyes, his face still full of confusion.

Of course, she couldn't understand what Xia Ling did because of her love for her.

What theory was there that would drag her into the abyss?

In Jiang Ciyou's world, love is responsibility, love is fulfillment, love is sacrifice, and love is hoping for the other person's happiness.

"I don't understand you." Jiang Ciyou uttered these four words blankly.

Xia Ling's eyes seemed to dim a little.

"Don't worry, do you think I'm particularly disgusting and annoying now?"

Jiang Ciyou finally came to his senses.

She was silent for a while and then said, "I don't. There are many kinds of love in this world, and every kind of love has its reason. I just think you are too extreme. You do things in the name of love that hurt the other person. I think this is not love, but selfishness."

Xia Ling was stunned for a moment, then smiled again: "Yes, I am selfish, because my life is too lacking, so when you appeared in my life, I wanted to grab you desperately. Do you remember the movie we watched together before, Shawshank Redemption?"

"There is a passage in the script that left a particularly deep impression on me."

"After Andy escaped, Red had a psychological description. Some birds cannot be caged because their feathers are too bright. You will feel that it is a sin to lock them in a cage. When they fly away, you sincerely celebrate their freedom, but you have no choice but to live in this boredom..."

"Every time I see this, tears well up on my face. I want to set you free and bless you from the bottom of my heart, but I can't do it because my life is too gloomy and dark. I long for a ray of sunshine."

Xia Ling's voice gradually became lower: "I could have endured this boredom, darkness and storms if you had never appeared."

After Xia Ling finished speaking, she coughed violently a few times.

Her facial expression also changed rapidly.

The instruments on the meter also indicated an alarm sound.

Jiang Ciyou was shocked and was about to get up.

"Don't go away, don't worry, just listen to me."

"There will be plenty of time later."

Xia Ling still held Jiang Ciyou's hand and said, "Ciyou, I'm going to die. I know. Can you listen to what I have to say?"

Jiang Ciyou looked at the blood on the pillow and felt it was shocking.

She wanted to press the bell.

But Xia Ling held her arm tightly.

The strength is amazing.

She even tried to sit up.

Jiang Ciyou quickly helped her lie down: "Xia Ling, don't move, the wound will split open later, and I won't have enough blood to save you."