Chapter 318 Painful Struggle

Shen Nuo has this attitude.

Xiao Hechuan also shut up.

Everything he says is nonsense.

One is willing to fight and the other is willing to be beaten.

Xiao Hechuan didn't know why he cared so much.

But during this time, he did find that something was increasingly wrong with him.

At first, I just kept thinking about this person.

Wonder what he's doing.

Then I just wanted to see him, all the time.

He tried every possible way and found all kinds of reasons to stay with him.

But it seemed that even so, a certain idea in his heart began to take shape and grow bigger and bigger.

He is no longer satisfied with the status quo.

Xiao Hechuan is a psychiatrist.

He has treated many abnormal mental illnesses.

Naturally, he had encountered this kind of situation before.

Those who fall in love with the same sex but cannot accept that they are gay.

Xiao Hechuan would advise them to truly understand themselves, explore themselves, and then accept their truest thoughts.

And these days, he seems to be going through such a psychological process.

After some inner struggle and analysis.

Xiao Hechuan had to admit it.

He also fell in love with a person of the same sex, Shen Nuo.

This made him very conflicted and entangled.

When something happens to you, it is difficult to accept it.

He even felt a little strange about himself.

He always felt that he had firm ideas, knew himself very well, and understood his life goals and pursuits.

But after meeting Shen Nuo, everything was overturned.

He certainly doesn't discriminate against homosexuals.

He was also able to accept that he fell in love with a man.

But what made him suffer was.

Shen Nuo couldn't possibly love him.

Shen Nuo is a straight man. He likes beautiful women and is surrounded by them all day long.

And he also knew clearly that Shen Nuo liked Jiang Ciyou.

That kind of love is too obvious.

He even began to feel a little jealous of Jiang Ciyou.

He once considered himself a Buddhist.

Watch the joys and sorrows of men and women in this world with a cold eye.

At any time, you can be sober and watch from the sidelines, help others solve their doubts, enter the world and leave it, come and go freely.

But during this time, his faith quickly collapsed.

It turns out that he is just an ordinary person.

There are the greed, anger and stupidity of the world, and there are worldly desires and greed.

But this is the thing he cannot ask for or get.

This made him feel very painful.

The car quickly drove on the viaduct.

Xiao Hechuan looked at the bustling neon lights passing by, and felt as if a stone was pressing down on his heart.

Soon the car arrived at Qingmu Mountain.

They are neighbors and their villas are next to each other.

Now the door in the yard is almost useless.

Shen Nuo has already regarded his home as his own home.

I often got drunk from the bar at night and ran to his house by mistake to sleep.

He was helpless.

But I have gotten into the habit of preparing hangover soup every night.

After the car stopped, Xiao Hechuan felt inexplicably irritated.

"Shen Nuo, go down and return to your own home."

After he finished speaking, there was no sound from next door.

Xiao Hechuan turned his head and looked over.

Shen Nuo had actually fallen asleep leaning against the car window.

She looks very pretty when she sleeps.

Even if he is drunk on weekdays.

But when he was asleep, he was very gentle.

She doesn't snore or grind her teeth like those grown men.

Her breathing was regular and shallow.

This boy has very long eyelashes, and under the light, they form a small shadow under his eyelids.

It's rare to see a man with such long eyelashes.

In fact, he is different from ordinary men in many ways.

Although he smokes, drinks, and likes tattoos.

But she looks clean, fresh and refined.

Probably because her skin is very white and delicate.

Like a peeled egg.

I don’t know why.

I was in an extremely irritable mood just now, but after seeing Shen Nuo's peaceful sleeping face, I suddenly calmed down.

He looked sideways for a long time.

Finally I couldn't help but get a little closer.

When he was close enough, he could smell her scent.

It doesn't smell like any men's perfume.

It's more like a light floral scent mixed with a hint of tobacco.

It doesn't smell bad.

His fingers touched Shen Nuo's cheek.

My fingers were warm, just as I had imagined.

His skin is as smooth and moist as a woman's.

Just like what was described in the book, her skin was as smooth as cream.

How can a man have such delicate skin?

Xiao Hechuan's fingers slowly moved down along Shen Nuo's cheek.

Finally it stopped on her rosy lips.

Her lips are so red.

It is not only red but also moist, like crystal jelly or ripe strawberries in midsummer.

Such a bright color exudes a fatal temptation.

It looks like someone is picking them.

Xiao Hechuan's heart moved.

I don’t know what he was thinking.

My lips couldn't help but move closer.

His heartbeat began to speed up crazily.

He knew what he was doing.

But I just can’t control it, and I don’t want to control it.

As if driven by a strange desire.

He just felt that the red color was the most tempting thing in the world.

His lips moved closer and closer.

The heartbeat is like the beating of a drum.

A certain desire that is usually suppressed and repressed seems to turn into a beast and break out of the cage.

It began to devour the world madly, becoming bigger and bigger.

At this moment, he couldn't control himself, nor could he restrain himself.

His lips have already covered Shen Nuo's lips.

The tips of their noses touched and they could almost smell each other's breathing.

Xiao Hechuan almost held his breath.

A soft touch came from the lips.

Xiao Hechuan seemed to be struck by a powerful lightning.

The whole person was roasted, crispy on the outside and tender on the inside.

His body was stiff and he couldn't move at all.

Xiao Hechuan closed his eyes.

The unique taste between the lips spreads throughout the body.

It seemed as if every cell in the body had awakened, clamoring and rejoicing wildly.

I don't know how much time has passed.

He opened his eyes suddenly.

He seemed to have just woken up from a dream.

The lips quickly left.

He took a step back and sat up straight.

I just happened to see myself in the rearview mirror.

He looked panic-stricken, as if facing a powerful enemy.

Shen Nuo seemed to realize something in his dream.

He opened his eyes drowsily, rubbing them as if he hadn't woken up yet: "Lao Xiao, are we home yet?"

Xiao Hechuan looked at him as if he were a monster.

Then he suddenly opened the car door and rushed out of the car.

After entering the house, there was a sudden bang.

Shen Nuo was completely stunned.

The sleepiness was instantly dispelled.

What's wrong with this guy all of a sudden?

Shen Nuo felt that Xiao Hechuan had become more and more weird recently.

He always looks like this.

If it wasn't for the fact that he was her younger brother when he was young, she wouldn't want to take him out to play.

What does it matter if I give her the cold shoulder from time to time?

Shen Nuo also got off the car.

Xiaopao wanted to go into the house to find out what was going on.

But he found that Xiao Hechuan had locked the door from the inside.

She couldn't open it even after entering the password.

She tried several times with her fingerprints, but the result was the same.

Shen Nuo was also angry.

What's wrong with this person?

But Shen Nuo is not someone who gives up easily.

Between friends, anything should be made clear.

What's the point of being so hesitant?

So she quickly climbed up the date tree in the yard.

This date tree leads directly to the balcony of Xiao Hechuan's room.

Xiao Hechuan probably didn't expect Shen Nuo to climb up the tree.

After he came up, he wanted to see if Shen Nuo had left.

As soon as the glass door of the balcony was opened, the two of them met face to face...