Chapter 85 Doctor Xiao

But he couldn't show that he cared too much.

Whenever he showed some real emotions.

She said he had crossed the line.

I wish I could use this as an excuse to break up with him completely.

Bo Jinxiu forced a smile and said, "I'm glad he's alright. I'm not that unkind. Let him have a good rest. I'll send someone to take good care of him."

Jiang Ci hummed in agreement.

Bo Jinxiu walked up to Jiang Ciyou and said, "Let's go to the supermarket together? I'll cook for you tonight?"

Bo Jinxiu’s cooking is delicious.

But he is very busy and rarely cooks.

To be honest, Jiang Ciyou is quite impressed by his cooking skills.

But in the end, she refused: "I have to go back to Yan's house tonight, so I can't have dinner with you today."

Jiang Ciyou walked to Bo Jinxiu's side.

She tiptoed and kissed his cheek: "I'm leaving first. I may be back late tonight."

After saying that, Jiang Ciyou walked away in her high heels.

Jiang Ciyou couldn't wait to go to Yan's house.

Soon I went to Yan Feng's room.

The safe was opened successfully with the password.

The safe is empty.

There is only one notebook.

Her diary.

Jiang Ciyou squatted down and took out the diary.

It was the diary that I lost during the first semester of my sophomore year.

It is still brand new, with no signs of being read frequently.

I guess Yan Feng has only read it once.

Jiang Ciyou held the diary in his hand and walked slowly to the sofa.

Holding this diary, I feel particularly complicated.

She never expected that a small diary could completely change the trajectory of her life.

And at this moment, it's like a Pandora's box.

Jiang Ciyou knew, just open it.

All the sins, deceptions, darkness, traps and schemes will be thoroughly exposed.

Maybe it will affect the fate of several people.

Jiang Ciyou still slowly opened the diary.

The first few articles were all written by her herself.

Record some interesting college stories and future plans.

Finally, she turned to the first diary entry written by Xia Ling in imitation of her handwriting.

[May 1, sunny.]

Today I watched Ah Feng play basketball and saw the scar on his waist. It was so ugly and scary. I have always felt guilty about that incident and said I would take responsibility for him. However, when I looked into my heart, I found that I hated him more and more. It was obviously his own carelessness, so why did he put it on my head and make me feel guilty for the rest of my life? 】

May 7th, cloudy

Yan Feng had a fight with someone today and ended up at the police station. How could he still be so childish? From childhood to adulthood, I seem to have been cleaning up his messes. I am so fed up with it, and in the end, I still have to comfort him. He is always like a child who never grows up. When will he be able to be more mature?】

May 23, cloudy

I'm really fed up with Yan Feng. He's as stupid as a woodchuck that can only bark. We had a clear chance of winning today's debate, but in the end he gave others an opportunity to exploit. I really want to dig his brain open to see if it's empty. He's been unable to learn anything since elementary school. He's so stupid that it's outrageous. He's just lucky to be born into a wealthy family. If he were an ordinary person, he would definitely achieve nothing and wouldn't even be able to get into college.]

June 9, cloudy

Yan Feng wanted to kiss me today, but I actually didn't have any feelings for him. I even felt disgusted when I thought of the scar on his waist. Its presence reminded me that I owed him all the time. I hated this feeling so much that I even wondered if this feeling would only disappear if he died. Of course, I didn't want him to die, I just thought about it.

[Rainy day on July 7

Today is Chinese Valentine's Day. Yan Feng asked me to have French food. He may not know that I hate French food the most. He gave me a pair of sneakers, which I thought was ridiculous because sneakers are his favorite and I never wear them. How can I break up with him in a decent way? However, I don't want to give up my status as the young lady of the Yan family. After all, the Yan family knows me well and is one of the richest families in Rongcheng.

[July 30th, sunny

Gao Qiao confessed to me, and I was a little moved. He is much better than Yan Feng, and he is also manly. I enjoyed kissing him. These are things that Yan Feng can't give me. It's just that I can't tell Yan Feng about these. But the feeling of having two girlfriends at the same time is really good. It's just a relationship, not marriage.]

【August 19 Rain

Gao Qiao and I went to bed. It was such an enjoyable feeling. Unfortunately, Gao Qiao knew it was not my first time. I lost my first time on a rainy day during the summer vacation of my freshman year. Fortunately, Yan Feng didn’t know. I have been in a relationship with Yan Feng for two years, and he has always been very well-behaved. At most, he just held my hand. I suspected that he was not capable of that. Was it not just his waist and legs that were burned that year? If I really married him, would I have to spend the rest of my life with this cripple?】

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Jiang Ciyou's fingers began to tremble, and the edges of the diary were deformed.

Xia Ling wrote a whole book imitating her handwriting.

From the little things in life to the big events on special days.

Even Jiang Ciyou was surprised, how could Xia Ling know so much.

She seemed to invade every day and every detail of her past at any time and anywhere.

Just thinking about it makes people feel a little creepy.

No wonder Yan Feng said that she looked down on him, that she hated him in her heart and wished he would die.

This diary constructs a dark, twisted and hidden psychological world.

And Xia Ling also calculated Yan Feng's proud and cowardly self-esteem.

There was no way he was going to confront her.

I have to admit that Xia Ling is a master at playing with people's hearts.

All the past events, like a cocoon being unravelled, were revealed nakedly in front of Jiang Ciyou.

She finally solved some of her initial confusion.

But these were not the answers she was looking for.

About that.

There is not much mentioned between the lines.

But there is one thing.

Jiang Ciyou was sure of it.

That incident must be related to Xia Ling.

Because that day, there was a rare rainstorm in the year.

Jiang Ciyou left Yan's house without even staying for dinner.

She dropped the diary on the passenger seat of the car.

Driving, speeding through the city's elevated roads.

Her head ached and her vision began to blur.

The panic and trembling that came a few years ago came like a wave.

Her body couldn't help shaking.

The cold sweat on my back had soaked my thin shirt.

Jiang Ciyou knew in her heart that her depression had relapsed.

And it is accompanied by severe physical symptoms.

Jiang Ciyou has been suffering from severe depression.

From the day she knew she had been violated.

Because from that day on, she had nightmares all night long.

But I can't complain to anyone.

Her sleep became very poor.

But at that time, her symptoms were not too serious.

Because she met Dr. Xiao.