Chapter 399: Double Standards
In response to Su Yun's doubts, Chen Boyang simply explained the reason, then lowered his eyes and smiled calmly, looking as if he had realized something.
After all, he hadn't seen Su Yun for almost a year.
Although there are occasional correspondence and phone calls, paper, pen and voice can never replace the inner satisfaction of having the real person in front of you, especially since Su Yun has experienced such a dangerous time...
Although he felt uncomfortable for a moment when he saw Su Yun being publicly confessed to, he had almost no time to be entangled or jealous at that time. Instead, he just prayed desperately that Su Yun would be able to land safely.
After learning that Su Yun really landed safely, he finally came to his senses: it turned out that compared to Su Yun's safety, many other things seemed unimportant.
The early morning light gradually fell on him through the window. When he subconsciously looked up at the sky, the longing that had accumulated over the days of separation accumulated into an emotional force that broke through his obsession.
He used to be a person who pursued "perfection" very much. "Preferring to have nothing rather than to have too much" was a reflection of his life in the past twenty years. Sometimes, if he met someone or something he really liked but did not meet his "perfect" obsession, he would rather give up the person and stay away from them than lower his own standards.
The only one was Su Yun - from the initial love at first sight to the subsequent entanglement, he clearly gradually realized that Su Yun would never be the perfect image in his dreams...
But he did not, as he did before, suppress his love forcibly and then stay away from her reluctantly after careful consideration. Instead, he fell deeper and deeper into the relationship without realizing it.
Even after he vaguely discovered that Su Yun was very likely to have "hooked up" with more than one person, he not only did not become angry, but instead became anxious and worried, fearing that Su Yun would be snatched away by the wolves waiting nearby when he was not watching her closely...
Just like this time, who could have predicted that an ordinary vacation trip that was not even a date would suddenly become a testimony of a romantic love that was more tortuous and bizarre than a movie?
Fortunately, Su Yun was able to remain calm and was not fooled by this long-planned jackal. Instead, he immediately came up with a plan to divert attention and arranged everything properly.
The reason why he did not ask for leave directly from the teacher and rush to look for Su Yun these days was largely because of the call Su Yun took the initiative to call him after he was safe.
If it were someone else, he would be too lazy to get involved in such a messy relationship; but when it came to her, he could never keep his composure.
Is this the terrible thing about hormones? Without even noticing, we change our nature just to cater to a goal in our hearts?
Perhaps, this is the pain and test that one must go through before gaining love?
Occasionally, during breaks in class, he would ask his vocal teacher this question, and the teacher would just look back at him kindly and gently, asking him if he had really understood and whether this feeling was what he had in mind.
Faced with this question, he hesitated for a long time and was ultimately unable to answer.
So the teacher gave him some advice, asking him to reorganize all the experiences of this relationship and to count every detail he remembered with his current perspective.
He followed the teacher's advice, spent some time recalling the past, and then asked the teacher another question: When a person who wants to pursue perfection falls in love with someone who will never be the perfect image in his mind but makes him extremely moved and unable to extricate himself, should he work hard or give up?
There is no absolute perfection in this world, only relative perfection - the teacher replied.
“First of all, you cannot ask the other person to meet your concept of ‘perfection’, but first think about whether you have the ability to obtain results that meet your concept of ‘perfection’.” Chen Boyang’s teacher is a great musician who has taught many outstanding musicians. Even as she gets older, she still has a unique natural charm. Therefore, she smiled indifferently at the distress of this young student.
"Emotions are relative. When you choose someone, they are also choosing you." After hearing Chen Boyang's story, the teacher slowed down her voice. "Some people are like the wind. Even if many people like them, they will never stay in one place."
“When you fall hopelessly in love with the wind, you have no choice but to keep chasing it until the love fades away.”
"That way - at least at some point in the future, whether you catch this gust of wind or not, you will never regret your original choice."
These words may seem mysterious and profound, but in fact they contain a core idea: since you can’t let go, then work harder, and don’t wait until you look back on this moment and regret it…
The teacher even encouraged him to fight bravely and to get hurt: for musicians like them, the more emotionally sensitive they are, the more inspiration they can get. In order to capture inspiration, many people are almost willing to actively seek setbacks. It is a rare opportunity for him, and it is absolutely worth it to abandon his obsessions and bravely try the ups and downs of love.
Therefore, Chen Boyang, who thought that his teacher had cleared up the fog in his heart, developed a "double standard of love" under the double stimulation of this period of sedimentation and the accident a few days ago.
As long as Su Yun does not officially announce her marriage, or just officially announces her boyfriend, then these suitors will always have the same chance.
Even if some people intentionally or unintentionally sneak a few steps ahead, as long as they seize the opportunity and try to catch up later, everyone will still be evenly matched, and there will be no question of first come first served.
Of course, someone like Bourne, who was sitting across from him, who directly expressed his withdrawal, was a different situation.
In Su Yun's heart, family and career both occupy the first two positions. These suitors can only be like her friends, competing for her favor at the next level.
Despite the large number of suitors and friends, one will naturally feel happy.
However, since it is a "competition for favor", it will definitely bring Su Yun some small troubles while bringing her joy.
If these little troubles accumulated, given Su Yun's personality, she would definitely just run away, let everyone calm down, and then use various means to coax them back one by one.
And those who are "competing for favor" cannot put on too much airs. Once Su Yun lets go of her temper and tries to coax her a few times but still gets no response, this heartless but extremely philandering guy will definitely not try harder to coax her, but will simply break up and then find another, two, three more to continue living happily ever after...
What a cold and heartless woman! Why did he fall into this pit and couldn't get out?
Chen Boyang felt very disappointed with himself, but he couldn't help comforting himself: Fortunately, I am not the only one squatting at the bottom of the pit alone, there are many people like me who are also squatting at the bottom of the pit and can't climb out - wait, so is this a good thing or a bad thing?
Such a difficult question is obviously not something that a love novice like him can think clearly. He can only selectively turn a blind eye to it, just like he is now being hypocritical. After all, the most precious thing in life is to be confused...
However, despite his lack of experience, Bourne's behavior, which was almost obvious but could not make the flamboyant beneficiary find it problematic, made him feel uncomfortable even if he wanted to turn a blind eye.
After Bourne, the love rival, took this step back on his own initiative, it seemed that he had escaped from this chaotic dispute, but in fact, it left a deep mark in Su Yun's heart.
Distance creates beauty, this has never been an empty statement.
In the past, he was like the beautiful boy in "Death in Venice" and Dorian Gray in "The Portrait of Dorian Gray", and the impression he left on others was always "beautiful".
The most terrifying thing is that although he appears to be "retreating", if Su Yun has any other ideas, he can move forward one, two, or three steps at any time...
Compared to those who fight them passionately with swords and guns, these people who linger behind them, whetting their appetite in various ways from time to time, and are ready to steal green tea at any time and anywhere, are the most difficult to guard against!
Perhaps he could tell something from Su Yun's eyes, Bourne raised his eyebrows, and when Su Yun lowered her head to eat, he gave Chen Boyang a smile that looked gentle but also somewhat provocative.
Just like when he was still in this dispute, fighting with me openly and secretly.
Chen Boyang took a deep breath and calmed down a little. Then, not wanting to be outdone, he gave him a determined look in response.
Afterwards, ignoring Bourne's friendly invitation to Su Yun to eat the "perfectly cooked" barbecue on the table, Chen Boyang slightly turned his body, took out his mobile phone and started making a call.
After asking for leave from the teacher and making some phone calls to arrange some follow-up measures that could be carried out during this holiday, Chen Boyang sat back and asked Su Yun softly, "Have you booked a hotel?"
"Not yet, do you have any good recommendations?" Su Yun asked vaguely while biting into the barbecue.
"There aren't many good hotels here, and they're not very safe. How about you go to where I live now?" He showed a caring look. "The house I'm renting now has three rooms. I've made some minor modifications to the house after communicating with the landlord, and it's on a relatively high floor. It can ensure privacy, and there's a large floor-to-ceiling window that overlooks the night view of the city..."
Hearing his beautiful description, and knowing Chen Boyang's taste in decoration, Su Yun nodded with satisfaction: "Sorry to bother you then."
After hearing Su Yun's answer, Chen Boyang immediately gave Bourne a silent look: Look, people like you who like to wander around and have no place to live will never understand the advantages of being a local!